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Missing You
Mr. Banner excused me from class since they were doing a lab that required a reader. All the other students had partners, and I left the room in relief.
I took my folded up cane from my back pocket. I slow began my journey outside by the nearby grassy area. I heard footsteps travel closer to me as I found my way around. I felt a leather material softly brush my arm.
"Hey! Watch where you are going, blind-as-a-bat boy," a guff voice barked out.
"Leave him alone!" Bella's beautiful voice rang out.
The boy shoved me against what I assumed was the drinking fountain and knocked the breath out of me.
"I said, leave him alone!" Bella shouted.
I heard flesh collide with flesh, and I sighed in relief as the boy walk away angrily. His spot was replaced with Bella. I took her in my arms before she had a chance to refuse.
"Thank you," I whispered softly.
"Come on," she said pulling away, "I'll take you home."
She took my arm and walked rather quickly to her car. I came to a halt, and I felt Bella's gaze on me.
"Edward, what are you doing? Class is about to let out, and if we want to ditch, we better hurry!" Bella said.
I nodded curtly in what I hoped was her direction and continued to follow her. Bella and I had often ditched school if it was a particularly warm
day. I couldn't be happier. This was the last day before spring break, and I wanted to be with Bella every moment of it.
"Why weren't you in class?" I asked.
"I had to come in early to complete a couple applications for college with Miss Killen. We didn't notice the time until the bell had rung. Apparently, you were released before I could make it to class. Mr. Banner sent me after you in hopes that you hadn't caught a ride yet."
I listened eagerly to every word that left her mouth. The car came to a stop, and I assumed we were parked at my house.
"Won't you come in, Bella? There is so much I want to talk about."
"I have to get home before Charlie finds out I ditched. I'll talk to you later," she said and left before I could say good-bye.
Sighing quietly, I made my way to my room to rest. I fell asleep before my head touched the pillows.
"Edward? Edward, wake up. Edward!" Bella poked me in the side in attempt to wake me.
I turned over and held out my arms. She huffed in aggravation, but she climb into my arms anyway.
"So," she said awkwardly, "you said that there was stuff you wanted to talk about?"
"I'm sorry," I breathed softly in her ear. My lips automatically touched her ear with extreme gentleness. Her body stiffened in my arms, and I began to whisper my apologies.
"Bella, I'm sorry I ignored all your call in attempt to reach me. I'm sorry that I was such a jerk to you. I'm sorry that I can see you. I'm sorry that you have to take care of me like I'm a child, and I'm sorry for being blind."
She was choking for breath by the time I had finished. Failing, Bella began to hyperventilate as she sobbed loudly.
"Why?Why do you continue to do this!?" she cried out pulling away from me. "You actually think that I regret or dislike taking care of you? You think that because you are blind that you can't be my best friend? I'm glad you are blind. Everyone else judges me for how I look, but you don't because it doesn't matter to you!" she yelled.
Body shaking, I sat quietly on the bed as I listened to her angry pacing footsteps. They stopped abruptly.
"What do you want from me? She asked quietly.
"…Bella," I whispered.
Her footsteps began again, but they were directed for me. A sob ripped up her throat, and her lips touched mine. I froze trying to decide what to
do. Bella tugged on my hair urging me to respond. Slowly, I moved my lips with hers, and I felt the wetness of her tongue on my lower lip. My lips separated as instinct took over, and I met her tongue with my own. Her arms wound around my neck, and I was leaned back on the bed. I released her mouth so she could breathe, and I planted soft kisses along her neck.
"Edward," she moaned softly.
The beautiful sound that left her lips burned my ears. This wasn't the right thing to do. Neither of us were thinking rationally.
"Bella, stop," I urged.
Confused, she lifted off of me.
"What's wrong?" she asked.
I shock my head trying to find words, and I heard her breathing hitch.
"I don't want this," I whispered lying through my teeth.
"You…you don't want me?" her voice trembled.
"No," my heart tore as I spoke the words. "Your life will be better without, and it is time to move on. It will be like I never existed."
"No…no!" she blubbered.
"Be safe," I said as a farewell.
She screamed as she ran from my room.
"I love you," my words flowed trying to catch up with her ears.
BPOV
"I love you."
His finally words have haunted me for the past three months. Twin tears ran down my face as I look over the cliff at La Push. Alice and I were the
only ones who talked anymore. I tried to avoid the Edward subject, but he always came up one way or another. Apparently, he was finishing his schooling at home…so he could be away from me.
Spring break had just started when he said he didn't want me anymore, and my life went spiraling down in despair. I was almost sure my eyes
would be forever red from the daily crying. Charlie sent me to the therapist after finding me past out when I had cut my wrist. I can still remember the blood as it dripped down to my fingertips hanging on for life.
My hair whipped around my face, and I wrapped my arms around my body as a soft spring breeze blow by.
"I thought I might find you here," Alice's tiny voice rang.
"What do you want, Alice? I came here to relax and be alone not to be bothered by you." I dished out rudely.
A heavy sigh was lost in the wind as she took a seat next to me.
"Edward is miserable without you. Please come to my house and visit for a few hours," she pleaded.
Closing my eyes, I blew out a mouthful of air. "Do you remember the last time I 'visited?'
(Flashback) Two weeks after the fight.
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Alice drugged me into the house by the arm.
"He'll be happy to know that you are here," Alice insisted. I noticed that she didn't say "see."
"Edward! There is someone here I think you will be happy to visit with," the annoying little pixie called.
"What the hell do you want? I thought I told you to leave me alone."
"Bella is here," Alice whispered in a rather soft tone.
Edward's body froze in place, and I saw his hand ball up into fists.
"I told you to go away! Move on, and find some other guy to cling to like a toy. Don't come back, Bella!" he spat my name like a swear word.
Tears welled up in my eyes for the second time, and I rushed out of the room despite Alice's calls.
(End Flashback)
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Her voice was unusually quiet. "He needs you."
More tears ran the length of my face as I clung to her. Her arms wound around me as Edward's use to. The tears flowed faster.
"D- did he ever f- find his b- b- birthday gift?" my voice trembled with more threatening sobs.
"I don't think he did," she said her voice still almost silent. "I'll make sure he opens it."
EPOV
Alice handed me a long box, and I opened it wearily. I found leather bound case. Alice helped me open it, and inside was dozens of sheets of papers. All of them were filled with Braille writing. I ran my hand across the first page.
June 2nd, 2004
Today, Edward and I went to the meadow we discovered together. I'm so jealous of his hiking skills! He's blind, but he can still hike better than I can. Anyway, he talked to me for hours about how Carlisle and Esme decided to throw a huge Fourth of July party. He even took of his glasses for me. Beautiful sparkling green eyes shined in the sun when he threw his head back to laugh. Today was a great day.
She had given all of her journal entries since we were young teenagers. All of them were in Braille. Tears pricked my eyes, and I knew I had to find her without the help of my family. Alice couldn't be my eyes for this mission. Without my eyes, I would have to search for her with my heart instead.
I'm sorry that all that chapters are about the crying. :(
It will be getting happy really soon.
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