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Die Trying


August 11, 2005


Vile Mike Newton took me on my first date. I paid for the movie and the popcorn! During the movie, he tried to kiss me. I was so disgusted that I left the theater, and I left him stranded as I drove home in my rusty old truck. Of course, Edward was excited to know how my first date went, as any good friend would, and comforted after I spilled the news of the almost kiss. Edward took me to the meadow to try to help me relax. The sun was out, and I was lucky enough to get him to take his glasses off. The sun shimmered in his glassy eyes, and I smiled to myself. He would never have to know that I wasn't the most attractive girl, and I know that he'll always be here for me when I need him. Most other teenagers at school snicker at me when I read something to Edward or when I lead him somewhere, but I smile with pride. People don't understand the love I have with Edward-

My heart thumped when I ran my fingers over the word "love."


-He's my very best friend, and I wouldn't trade him for the world. Anyway, I asked him to kiss me today. I never caught me staring absently at his lips since he couldn't see. I agreed, and I could see his hands tremble as he cupped my face. I leaned in close, but only to be surprised that his nose softly bumped mine. His lips missed mine and touched my cheek instead. We both split apart laughing. After settling down, Edward leaned back into the wind blown grass. I took the opportunity to rest my head on his chest. Our silence wasn't an awkward one, and I closed my eyes to daydream about what his lips would have felt like on mine. I feel asleep in bliss.

I remembered the day like it was yesterday. Bella had come to my house an hour early from her date. I hadn't expected her so soon, but I was happy to have her near. I was so excited to have her ask me to kiss her that I tremble with the fear that I wouldn't do it right. Unfortunately, I missed her lips and landed on her warm cheek instead. I laughed with her to ease the tension, but I couldn't help but to regret not worshiping those lovely lips with my own. I stood up and smiled wickedly.

"Alice, can you be a driver today?" I asked kindly.

"I have to study for exams! Not everybody is as smart as you," she grumbled.

I jutted out my lip. "It's for Bella," I whispered quietly.

"On second thought, I would love to take you out today!" she said grabbing me by the arm and dragging me to her Porsche.

"Can we stop by her house?" I asked.

"Of course, Edward, we'll find her one way or another," Alice said excitedly. I could hear her bouncing in her seat. Alice climbed out of the car with me when we stopped at Bella's house. I knocked politely at the door. I heard Charlie's loud footsteps moved across the floor.

"Hello, Edward, Alice," he said in a gruff voice.

"Is Bella here?" Alice asked in a sickly sweet voice.

"Nope," Charlie said. "She has been spending quite a bit of time down by La Push. She already went grocery shopping, so I don't think she is out in town."

"Thank you kindly," I said sticking my hand out. He grasped it firmly.

"You better make things right with my baby girl. She doesn't deserve to be miserable."

I knew for a fact what he said was true. Bella didn't deserve to be pushed away so many times and then be expected to come right back into my pitiful arms. As soon as Charlie closed, Alice and I hurried back to the car and raced off to La Push. Our family was rarely seen there. We had our own pool so there was no need for a lake.

"I think I see her," Alice said, and I could tell she was squinting to get a good look. "Oh my God…."

"What!?" I panicked.

"She's going to jump…off the cliff into the raging sea," her voice was barely audible.

I jumped out of the car and ran full speed in the direction Alice had told me to go.

"Bella, don't do it!" I cried.

"Edward, your voice is so beautiful," she sighed.

"Good-bye, Edward," she whispered, and by the sound of the wind, I knew that she had jumped. Without a second thought, I dived after her. My arms gather her tight to my body as we fell farther together.

"Edward, you look so different than in my other hallucinations," Bella said as we continued to fall. I silently wondered when we would hit water.

"I'm real!" I shouted. "I'm here with you!"

"No, the real Edward didn't want me. It feels so good to be back in your arms. I love you."

My lungs filled with water, and my body froze in cold water. Bella began to slip from my hands as we were thrashed around by the current.

I cling to her as I struggled to keep us above water. My head hit a rock, and I begun to sink. More water flooded my lungs, and I felt my body go numb. My mind failed to command my body top keep me swimming, and I sank further. Bella's voice echoed in my mind. I love you. No! I have to do this for Bella. I kicked my frozen limbs wildly until I broke through the surface. I swam to the side that I hoped I was closet to, and something grabbed me.

"Edward! What the hell were you think!" Alice shrieked as I pulled Bella out of the water. Pushing Alice out of the way, I breathed air into Bella and pumped her heart. As soon as I heard her cough up water, I knew my battle was won. I crawled to the side and passed out.

"Bella!" I jolted up right in a soft bed. Groping at things around me, I found that Bella was safely tucked into my side. It had all been a very horrible dream. I snuggled back under the covers, pressed my nose to her hair, breathed in the wondrous smell of strawberry shampoo, and fell into the first peace sleep I have experienced in a while.


BPOV

My lungs refused the water as I coughed, and it all came pouring out. Someone grabbed my shoulders to stabilize me as I tried to catch my breath. Who ever had a hold of my arms pushed me back down to the ground, and I looked through my clouded eyes.

"Alice?" I whispered. My throat burn as I tried to talk. She shushed me.

"Bella, just relax. I'm going to get you and Edward home," Alice soothed.

"Edward?" I hadn't realized that he was even there.

I look down next to me and gasped. A gash was sliced deep in his forehead. Blood dripped from his wound. The rusty salt smell wafted my way, and I felt my eyes dim again.

I felt the bed shift. Peeking one eye open, I saw the Edward was heading towards the door.

"Where are you going?" I asked. My voiced was raspy and raw.

"I'm just getting up to use the restroom. I'll be back momentarily," he smiled.

"How are you feeling?" I asked before he exited the room.

"I feel fine, but I do have a killer headache," he said. "I'll go get you some Tylenol," I sighed.

I white linen cloth adored his head, and Carlisle had to change it several times it stop the bleeding. I wrapped my arms around his waist.

"I was so worried,"

"Why?" he asked.

I cupped his face. How could he not remember jumping off a cliff and saving my life while I tried to die because of him? I pressed me lips to his softly.

"You saved me from Death's clutches," I whispered.

"It wasn't a nightmare," he murmured to himself.

Something inside of him seemed to have snapped as he buried his face in my hair. "Oh, Bella," said whispered, his voice thick. "I almost lost you. All I heard was Alice's screams. Please don't do that to me again."

My relaxation swiftly turned to fury. I was beginning to wonder if I was bipolar.

"Do that to you?" I asked. "Do you know what I went through? I had to go to a fucking therapist because of you!"

"Shh," Edward shushed pulling me back into his arms. "I'm so sorry. It should have been me that jump. I haven't left the house since I told you to leave. I can't live without you. I wouldn't be able to forgive myself if anything happened to you. Please don't be angry."

Just like that, my rage vanished, and I fell forward in his arms.

"I'll never let you let go of me again. It doesn't matter what you say, I refuse to leave," I said sternly.

"I'm glad. Never let me convince myself that I don't deserve because I need to be selfish and have you all to myself," he chuckled lightly.

I smiled to myself at the double meaning. It was true; I was all his and I would never let go.

"Let's get you that Tylenol now," I said leading him to the kitchen, and my future looked a whole lot lighter.

I promise there will be happiness in the future ;)

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