Bella's POV

I didn't know what to do. No clue at all. I just lay there, looking up into the sky. It was MY WEDDING DAY and here I was, on the ground, staring up into the sky. Why wasn't I at the alter? Why wasn't I uttering the two words that would change my life forever?

Edward Cullen.

That's why.

Edward fricking Cullen.

Suddenly I felt a surge of anger; and the pathetic thing was that it was directed at me. Why had I just let him sweep me out of the church like that? Why didn't I kick and scream like I should have? What about Mike?

Urgh. All the unanswerable questions were doing my head in. I closed my eyes, wishing that all my life problems would disappear in that one action. That when I opened them again I would be in my local Starbucks, curled up with a good copy of Wuthering Heights in one hand and a hot chocolate and sprinkles in the other; with the man I love sitting lazily yet happily next to me. But who was that guy? Who did I see? Mike or Edward?

I felt safe with Mike. Secure and I guess happy. But with Edward, every time I think about him I get Goosebumps. What am I doing then? Worrying about Mike when Edward makes me feel the way he does. Suddenly it was all so clear.

I had to get into that car, with Edward. Drunk or not, he had to be with me.

Hurriedly I stumbled up and saw my first love, face flat on the grass, with mud hanging out his mouth. Surely he hadn't resorted to eating the ground? Ridiculous. With a deep breath I bent down and grabbed him by the crook of the arm and somehow frog marched him to the car, with the sound of approaching voices forcing me to quicken my pace.

Having stuffed Edward in the car I got into the front. I was stunned. How was I meant to drive this? The only vehicle I had ever driven was my beat up truck, after I let that old thing go, Mike insisted on driving me everywhere or have his "driver" do it. Mike.

Crap Mike.

What about his feelings? What is he going to do when he realises that I have led him on for all this time?

What about all the other things … what about our baby?