I can only apoligise for how long it's taken me to get this chapter done. I've been out a lot but I'm hoping that I will be able to update a bit more quickly soon, but I've said that in every chapter so that may not happen, sorry. Thank you though to everyone that is still reading and reviewing and favoriting and alerting this story. It really does put a smile on my face :).
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Just lying on the parachute with Emily, our hands intertwined is the best feeling in the world for me. Maybe I'm over exaggerating. God knows what I'm feeling right now really.
"Stop over analysing." Wait what? I do a double take, looking over at Emily multiple times, how did she know what I was thinking? I think I'm actually going mad. I really do.
"Okay this is just creepy, you weren't even looking at me. How the fuck did you know that I was panicking."
"Your hand." She pulls our entwined hands up slightly so I can see them. I don't know what she's on about. They are just hands. Normal and ordinary hands.
"What about it?"
"Well it's crushing mine, so I'm guessing that you're stressing out." Now that I properly look at her hand it is rather red. I didn't realise I did that when I was rambling. I've noticed I do a lot of things when I ramble in my head. Like flare for my nostrils for instance.
"Seriously Naoms, I like holding your hand and all but I don't think I'll have much of a hand left by the end of the day."
"Shit sorry." I instantly release Emily's hand and receive a mumble of disappointment from her. The next thing I know Emily is sitting up with her legs crossed. I do the same. We sit just looking at each other, slowly her hands cup my face and she looks right into my eyes.
"Calm down Naoms. Stop worrying. Okay?" I don't think I can actually kick my voice into action so I just nod at her.
I was so caught up in Emily that I didn't even realise that we were being watched.
"Excuse me?"
"JJ! HI!" I hear giggles from behind me. Whats so funny?
"Naomi? Why are you shouting?" Oh that was what's so funny.
I was shouting? Oh. See that's one of the things I know that I do when I'm panicking. I shout, a lot. Everything I say becomes a lot louder and higher pitched. It's annoying really. I do it unconsciously which is even more annoying as even my mum knows when I'm really panicking about something.
"Sorry JJ." I very consciously lower my voice completely. I go back to a more normal level of volume and make sure I'm talking in a pitch that humans can hear instead of just dogs.
"It's fine...umm hi Emily." Bless him, I think he has a slight crush on her really. Well obviously he's not the only one. Wait. Do I have a crush on Emily? Well I did just kiss her so really it's quite obvious that I do have feelings for her. As if Emily knew that I was again, rambling in my head she places her hand on the small of my back, as if to calm me down. It works to an extent but then I realise that the hand does indeed belong to Emily Fitch. The girl I just kissed. The girl that is now changing my view on the way I've been living my life completely.
"Hi JJ." The husky voice behind me breaks my chain of thought completely, I feel completely calm now. Her voice and her hand gently massaging an area of exposed skin on my back is strangely settling.
"So yes, as I was saying...umm, well Gina was wondering where you were, as you have now been packing the parachute up for 49 minutes and about 30 seconds approximately and that seems to be quite a while to pack away a parachute. And really it is actually still out and not in it's bag, so you two haven't been packing it away obviously. What have you been doing? I mean it's none of my business really. Not that you would be doing anything untoward I mean..."
"Calm down JJ."
"Oh yes, I'll just go and tell Gina that you two are on your way. Yes I'll do that. Yes."
Once JJ had left I turn back to face Emily, she has a huge smile on her face, obviously very proud of herself for calming be down completely. Not many people know when I'm stressing out apart from Emily.
"Shall we go back inside then?" What can I say? 'No I just want to stay here, fuck the holiday club?' I can't do that.
"Wait...close your eyes for a minute." She just looks at me, her expression full of confusion. "Trust me." An unsure smile graces her lips and she closes her eyes. She looks really beautiful.
I just want to be close to her. Just once more. I need to be sure. I need to know that what I'm feeling is completely real and genuine. I slowly move towards her. Checking that her eyes are still closed every now and then and then looking back down at her lips. My nose meets her and I feel her shiver as I get closer to her. I can feel her breath again on my lips.
Again our lips meet, and again I feel those uncoordinated butterflies flitting about in my stomach. Her hands trail along my hips and I bring my own hands up towards her face and trace her jaw line lightly with my fingers.
"Come on, we should get going really."
The rest of the day went by very slowly. Emily and I worked well together but it felt different. There were restrictions everywhere. I couldn't touch her, I could hardly go near her and I was constantly being bombarded with knowing looks from a certain Effy Stonem. When I say it felt different I'm not meaning that in a bad way. It was different in a good way. I could just look at Emily and admire her and I knew what it meant for us. Well I mostly knew what it meant. I'm still a bit lost about where all of this is going to lead. I mean I've never been in a 'relationship' ever, I don't know how to be with someone. It's all so new to me. I don't know if it's the same for Emily. I mean she's beautiful, she could get any guy or girl she wanted and with a sister like Katie, well that says it all really.
"Right everyone, you'll all be here bright and early and then we will be off."
Shit where the fuck are we going? When will I learn to actually listen to what's going on instead of getting distracted by Emily.
A hand lands again on the small of my back, very lightly. Of course the hand belongs to Emily. I smile warmly at her, I can't help it. She smiles back at me.
"I'll let you know what's going on tomorrow as we walk home. But Naoms? You should really learn to concentrate more."
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