CHAPTER 2:
SANGO'S POV:
A bright white light greeted my blurry eyes. I squinted and wondered if I was finally in heaven or if this was some sort of twisted and fucked up joke. A sound of beeping caught my ears, and I groaned. 'Please let this be a joke' I prayed to God, 'Please tell me that I am not still alive!' The beeping got louder and louder until it seemed to be surrounding me, mocking my continued existence. I stated panicking, and the beeping got faster. The sound of someone running towards my bed sounded over the beeps as my body started lurching and my heart beat erratically before flat lining. 'Yes!' I thought. Someone shouted clear, and a jolt ran through my body, slamming me against the gurney. But they couldn't save me this time. This time there was no demon InuYasha and monk Miroku to save my life, and I was determined to die. My breath left my body and my heart stopped again. 'Finally' I thought happily, as I drifted off.
MIROKU'S POV:
The doctors expected Sango to wake up soon, but I knew the truth. She didn't want to wake up, and I knew why; because of me… What a sad thought, the one person you would do anything in the world for wanted to die because of something you did. InuYasha sat next to me on the hard hospital chairs, waiting as I did, but glaring at me at the same time. He also knows what I did, but unlike Sango, he knows why. That doesn't make him any less likely to kill me when he gets the chance, however. His ears perk up, and the sound of harsh breathing comes from Sango's room. Her heart monitor speeds up, and the ER doctors run over to see what's happening. Her heart monitor flat lines and they shock her heart. It doesn't help, nothing will when she is this determined to die. InuYasha runs over to help, but I just sit there with my head resting on my palms which are resting on my knees. Nothing I do could ever help, especially since she wants to die to escape me. Her heart settles out again, but I wonder when it will truly be over. Sounds callous, right? I only want what she wants, though. Even if we do save her, she'll just try and kill herself again. I just want to save her from the pain she is feeling… I sighed, not knowing what to do.
"Miroku!" InuYasha growled at me, "How can you just sit there and watch her die? I thought you loved her! If you really love her, save her! You know you can, all you have to do is tell her the truth about what she saw!"
"I can't do that," I sighed, "and even if I did, she would not believe me, she never did…" My eyes misted, thinking over all the times my love Sango had broken my heart by slapping me and questioning if I actually loved her. I truly do love her, with all my heart. I always have, every since we met as children. She was beautiful, even then, with her long black hair, deep chocolate eyes, and athletic body. I was forbidden to talk to her, after all she was the daughter of a prominent person and I just a lowly orphan. But, she befriended me, defended me, and eventually loved me. Ever since the time I first met her, I felt as if I had known her all my life, as if she was what was missing in my life. We had such fun together… But she was very insecure, and always doubted my love for her. She was belittled by her father for being a daughter when he had wanted a son. Her mother and baby brother had died in a car accident going to pick Sango up, and her father always blamed Sango for it. The first time he beat her, she came to the monastery I was living at right after. I bound her wounds as the monks had taught me, and cursed the man that did this to her. I urged her to call the police, but she refused. And so the trend continued. He got drunk, beat her almost to death, Sango came to me, I healed her and tried to convince her to call the police, and we got into an argument that ended with her storming out the door. Each time she came to me, I died a little inside. Sango slid deeper and deeper into depression, and I did my best to help her out of it. The first time I found her cutting, I ran her to the hospital and tried to get help for her, but she refused, like always… 'But this time, this time it's going to be different' I thought, 'this time I'm going to save her whether she wants me to or not!' A determined feeling settled in my heart, and I looked up at InuYasha. "I may not be able to tell her the truth, but I'm damn well going to save her!" I told him. And I left the waiting room.