I lay down, I was having a bad headache, it was hard to think about going back to work tomorrow when I knew Edward and his father didn't have everything sorted, I hated being in the dark and not knowing about anything that was going on, the only thing stable in my life was my knowledge of medicine and that wasn't handy in this situation.

I sighed and smacked the pillow next to me, I was angry, I was angry that I didn't know what was happening between Edward and Carlisle, did Edward get his job back? Would we be working at the same hospital? Are him and his brother sorting something out that they can fix?

All these questions were in my head and I had no answers. I was getting frustrated.

I looked at my phone, and called the one person I knew could help me . . . Angela.

The phone rang three times before she answered it, "Hello." She sounded tired.

"Hey Ang, its Bella, I need your help." I said.

"Hey Bella, what you need help with?" She asked.

"Are you at the hospital?" I asked.

"Yeah, why?"

"I need you to go to the catwalk and pretend to buy a coffee, look into Carlisle's office and see if him and Edward are there." I heard her getting up. "And Angela, don't say your on the phone to me but someone else, I don't want him knowing I am spying on him."

"Okay, no problem, I am on the stairs, third floor." I heard her walk a few more steps.

"Okay so um . . . Edward is sitting down, looking serious and a bit pressured, Carlisle has his hand on his right shoulder, holding a pen out to Edward, as if he wants his to sign something . . ." She whispered, "Um . . . Edward just took the pen, putting it on the desk. A board member of some sort has come up, and sat down um . . . Carlisle looks disappointed and Edward is getting up, shaking there hands and is leaving . . . Oh um . . . He is coming this way." She whispered.

"Don't let him know its me." I said.

"Oh yeah Caroline, work is great, yeah . . . ." She said, obviously trying to disguise who she was on the phone too.

"Goodnight Angela." I heard Edward say, she sighed in relief and I heard her walking.

"That was close." She said.

"Thanks for doing that for me, it means a lot, I will see you tomorrow." I whispered.

"No problem, bye Bella." She hung up and I groaned, what where they talking about?

I looked at the ceiling, I was questioning myself, was it going to work between Edward and I, I knew he loved me and I loved him, even if we didn't tell each other, but it was all to serious, we only know each other three months and we were in survival mode, we were giving up everything to just have each other. Was that how it was suppose to be or was it suppose to be fun and light hearted but serious as well?

It has scared me to think about regretting something as great as Edward, and maybe it's the mood I am in but I think I need a couple days to sort out work and be alone, so I could think.

But I loved him . . . And I wasn't strong enough to leave the loving comfortable and strong Edward, he was everything to me.

I sighed, closing my eyes, knowing the sooner I closed my eyes, the sooner I could live again and sort my life out.

No one ever told me life was this hard, do I chose my job or soul mate?