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A/N: Continue?
June 27, 2013
Dear Clare What-ever-your-last-name-is,
Seriously? You know you're name is Clare Edwards, I know your name is Clare Edwards so why oh why would you sign your full name? Now that is stupid. Not me.
Anyways, glad we established what your name is, let's tackle your letter; which I have to say was a lot to take in. But your letter-writing skills sure have improved since our days in Ms. Dawes's.
First off, did you know you used God's name in vain twice, you cursed once, and you called me "Elijah" three times? Are you OK? Wait, stupid of me to ask. You also mentioned you weren't.
Which brings us to point number two:
I'm sorry. I didn't know you would take it so hard. I just hoped you could've understood my decision and stood by me, not freak out on me like everyone else did. I know you still don't get it, but just understand it was my choice. I really wanted to do it, I wanted to help, I want to make a difference. Don't question it. I've never been more sure of something. Which is why I never told you I enlisted in the first place. Which is why I never worried you with the fact that I was leaving the day after your graduation, you had a lot more to think about; getting ready to give your salutatorian speech, sending your final transcripts to NYU, just- I couldn't put such a heavy worry on your shoulders. You also have to understand that.
As I was reading your letter on the plane I couldn't help but picture your face as I last saw it, waving goodbye to me as my recruiter drove away from my house. I knew you were still upset with me, but thank you. It meant so much to me to have you there and for allowing me to kiss you one last time. It also meant a lot to my parents having you there, they really love you Clare and came to think of you as the daughter they never had; it was really hard for them seeing their only child go to war. So thank you for offering your support to them as well.
Thank you for also understanding that me knowing you're mad at me would mess with my mind. So, thank you for telling me you won't be as much and that you'll offer support to me as well. I just can't help but feel guilty for leaving you though.
I'll always, always be thinking of you. I love you.
I know I didn't leave on good terms with you. So really, I don't expect for you to wait for me or to continue wanting a relationship. You're starting university now, in the states, pleas enjoy it to the fullest, enjoy your last summer. Please. Don't worry so much about me. Don't wait for me. As much as I would want to, I love you too much and your happiness matters to me most of all. So please, don't put your life on hold for my decision.
Thank you for your prayers.
Love always,
Eli.
p.s. Eli, NOT Elijah.