Moonwalk Chapter 3 Man in the Mirror, a glee fanfic

Chapter 3

Man in the Mirror

-Mercedes-

Mercedes was again at the mall looking for Finn, she got Kurt's text and decided to go over there and give Finn a piece of her mind. But the moment Mercedes was heading out of Macy's her phone went off again. Mercedes flipped it open and saw that Quinn had texted her.

Puck and I found Finn. We got him, and we're heading to the mall, so let Carole know. We're going to talk to him.

Mama-bear 2 Glee

Mercedes smiled so she went back into the mall. When Mercedes made it to the food court she noticed Puck at one of three pizza places there and not too far away were Finn and Quinn at a table. Mercedes went straight there and smacked both of her hands on the table causing Finn to jump in his seat and Quinn to look up in surprise. "Okay white boy spill it."

Finn looked at Mercedes like she had a bird that landed on her head. "Mercedes, I…I am sorry about all this."

"Hey Mercedes, what's going on sista?" Puck said as he sat down next to Finn.

Mercedes' eyebrow arched up from Puck's statement. "I'll tell you what's up Puck, but first, I got a bone to pick with Mister Disappearing act here."

Quinn cleared her throat. "You know I think that I want lemonade to drink." Quinn said as she stood up and then grabbed Mercedes' arm. "Mercedes come with me; I want an opinion on a new out fit that I want to buy.

"Oh no Quinn, I'm going to talk to him first." Mercedes said.

Quinn got into her mother mode. "Mercedes now, please before I forget about it."

Mercedes sighed and followed Quinn over to Lemon World, where Quinn ordered extra large lemonade for herself. After that Quinn turned to Mercedes. "Please don't jump Finn now."

Mercedes raised an eyebrow. "Why shouldn't I, Quinn?"

Quinn looked over at the table where Finn and Puck sat and she saw that Puck was trying to cheer Finn up. "Because Finn's going through a lot at the moment, and he really doesn't need a smack down."

"Quinn, I don't care, I just want that boy to man up for once…" Mercedes started to say but Quinn cut her off.

"You want to know, in a nut shell here it is. Finn has been trying to accept himself as bisexual. He admitted this to his mom just not that long ago, and I am pretty sure that he admitted this in front of Kurt. He doesn't feel like no one wants him around, especially his mom. Finn told us, that he felt that he was useless, and disappointing, along with being a coward."

Mercedes mouth had dropped open in surprise as Quinn rattled the information off. Quinn grabbed her lemonade and stepped away from the counter and stood next the trash can to throw away her receipt. "But the one thing that he said that made me realize that this was true, was that he also said that he was a horrible fag."

Mercedes thought if she were a cartoon character he jaw would most definitely be on the floor by now. She closed it shut and tried a few times to say something before she managed to finally form a question. "Finn said that you and Puck?"

"Yes, I also know that he and Rachel had a fight and that all this is connected, because Kurt told me that Finn had broken things that Rachel had given him. So please just lay off of him, I'm sure that he's got enough guilt to go around for all of us." Quinn said and she lead the way back over to the table.

Before they were in ear shot of the table, Mercedes spoke. "You have my word Quinn. I won't say anything to him."

Quinn smiled as they both rejoined the table. Mercedes cast a look around the table and then looked at Finn. "You know what, I got a great idea."

Finn looked at Mercedes with a worried look, expecting a lecture. Quinn had a guarded look, and Puck looked curious. "Let's invite everyone over from Glee to my house tonight, and we can have a karaoke night."

Finn now looked horrified. But Mercedes quickly tried to alleviate his panic. "You three, Kurt, Mike, Matt, Tina, Artie, and of course Brittney and Santana and we can all sing songs that we want to do."

"No Rachel?" Finn asked quietly.

"No Rachel, I really don't want to put up with her during my summer." Mercedes replied.

"Okay cool." Finn said and then he turned to Puck. "May I stay with you tonight? I don't feel like being home is safe for me at the moment."

Puck nodded. "That's cool. I'll let Kurt know and he can let your mom know."

Finn smiled weakly at that though, and then Puck was called over to get their pizza that they split between the four of them.

-Kurt-

Oh this just totally makes my day! Just what I waned to come home to, Rachel Berry sitting on my front porch waiting. Kurt pulled up in his Navigator as he eyed Rachel sitting on the steps leading up to his front door. She looked up as Kurt shut the vehicle off and she stood and came to stand on the sidewalk next to the bottom step. Kurt took his time, and noticed that Rachel didn't move. Kurt sighed and decided that he couldn't delay the inevitable.

Kurt exited the car and started to walk to his house. Maybe if I ignore her, she will go away.

Rachel gave Kurt a small smile. "Hey Kurt, is Finn home?"

Damn. Kurt stopped a foot away from her and crossed his arms and turned cold towards her. "No, he's not Rachel. It's not like you care any ways."

Rachel seemed a little affronted by Kurt's comment. "I care about him, that's why I'm here. I'd like to clear up our misunderstanding from yesterday."

"Oh, ok, I just thought that you were here to upset him some more." Kurt sneered at Rachel.

Rachel however tried a different tact. "Look Kurt, I know that you love him, but please just go get him and bring him out here, I know that he's still probably upset about things right now. I am trying to be the supportive girlfriend here."

"You are trying to be a supportive girlfriend, Rachel? Ha! That's a laugh. Well I'm sorry to say that I don't know where he is. I haven't seen him since yesterday after you two fought." Kurt said as he glared at Rachel. "You missed him here, about an hour ago, when he showed up and yelled at Carol, my dad, and I, before he took off again."

Rachel looked a little surprised. "You knew we fought?"

Kurt looked at her as if Rachel just realized how to do proper fashion. "It's kind of hard not to figure out when he's throwing and breaking things in our room. Especially when it's stuff that you gave him and he's upset."

"Well I didn't want to come over; I've been trying to call him…" Rachel started to say before Kurt cut her off.

"He broke his phone, how I know that is because I found it on my bed in pieces." Kurt said. "Look, I don't know what you two were fighting about this time, but you managed to get under his skin big time and really set something off. Thank you Rachel, for bringing down Finn's self esteem to a point lower than Quinn took him."

Rachel looked down at the ground, and then she looked back up. "So you know then?"

Kurt shook his head with a I should know what look. Rachel took a breath. "So he told you that he likes you?"

Kurt flashed back to seeing the text on Finn's phone, and then to his outburst earlier, but he pushed it out of his mind. "Yeah, he told me today that he likes me as his brother and his friend."

Now Rachel seemed to get mad. "Oh don't give me that shit, Kurt. You know exactly what I'm talking about."

Kurt glared. "No, I don't Rachel. Finn's straight, he'd never be interested in me, you and I both know this! You will always be before me because you're a girl."

Rachel crossed her arms. "Don't you dare use that reverse psychology on me Kurt, I know that you know that Finn broke up with me so he could go out with you."

Kurt laughed. "Well I'm going to have to applaud Finn for breaking up with you. But with you implying that he broke up with you to date me, that is funny, but mainly downright cruel on your part. So Rachel I'm going to ask you to leave."

Kurt moved past her and started up the steps, to the house. But Rachel followed him up the steps all puffed up and hissing like an angry goose. "Kurt, I know you had something to do with this! Now I want to know the truth!"

Kurt turned around with his claws out. "Listen to me now you horribly clothed cretin, and listen to me carefully. I haven't done anything to Finn. After he freaked out in our room back in June when he and Carole moved in, I haven't tried to get with him because he called me a fag. So if he broke up with you, then maybe there was a problem with you! Maybe he had enough of your overly inflated ego, or some other boring aspect of your life, I don't know, but apparently you are the problem. So did you ever stop to think about that Rachel? I don't think you did, because you are too self absorbed about yourself to know. Now if Finn is truly breaking up with you for me, which I highly doubt, then I guess you had your chance. Now go."

Rachel looked like she was going to cry. Kurt didn't really care at this point. Kurt took out his keys to unlock the door just let her think that no one was home, and then Kurt's phone started to play the theme to Cops. "Hi dad, what can I do for you?"

There was a surprised voice on the other end. "Uh, no, this is Puck, Kurt what's going on with you?"

Kurt knew it was Puck; he just didn't want to discuss what Puck wanted in front of Rachel. "I just pulled up to the house; I was going to use the bathroom and then go look for Finn again."

Puck sounded really confused now. "Ok…look um…are you going to come to the mall or no? Cause Quinn, Mercedes, and I are here with Finn."

Kurt glanced at Rachel. "You want me to come down to the shop?"

Puck was even more confused. "Kurt, are you okay?"

"Yeah, I can come down and help you turn Mr. Smith's brake rotors. Just give me a minute and then I will be down."

"Kurt, seriously what's going on?" Puck asked now worried.

"Alright, I will see you in a few minutes, dad. Bye." With that Kurt hung up on Puck and then turned to Rachel again who now had several tears running down her cheeks. Kurt almost felt sorry for what he said, almost.

"I guess you got to go." Rachel said as she wiped her tears away. "Look, Kurt if you see Finn, just tell him I want to talk."

"That is if I ever do see him again." Kurt said, and he opened the door and went into the house and left Rachel on the porch. Kurt moved over to the living room and peeked in between the curtains as he watched Rachel stand on the porch for another three full minutes before she left. Once Rachel got to the sidewalk, Cops blared from Kurt's phone again and Kurt picked it up.

"Sorry Puck, I was dealing with Rachel."

"Ah, I understand now." Puck said. "So I take it she's gone?"

Kurt glanced out the curtains again. "For now, listen I'm at home now, I'm going to update my dad and Carole, and then I will meet you guys at the mall."

"Alright, I will let them know. Oh, Mercedes wants me to pass along that there will be karaoke at her and Quinn's place tonight. Plus Finn, wants to stay at my place tonight, umm…he said that he doesn't feel safe at home right now after, his bomb shell."

Kurt squinted at the floor. "He told you guys?"

"Yeah, he did when Quinn and I picked him up, this is of course after he snapped at me though, which really unsettled me." Puck said, Kurt could her music in the background, and what sounded like a movie.

"What did he say?" Kurt asked, wondering what Finn could have said to disturb the terrorizing Noah Puckerman.

"Well, he said that I didn't like queers, and that I can't stand fags. He wanted me to start throwing him in the trash, so that he and I had practice. He wanted to go to the store and get a bunch of slushies to throw on him. Finn also said that he didn't care if I beat the crap out of him. Finn also said that he was a disgusting piece of trash that deserves it." Puck said sounding uncomfortable.

Kurt was speechless. He knew Finn was really upset, but he didn't think that he was that upset. But if Kurt was speechless before after that he was unprepared for what came next out of Puck's mouth. "So, Kurt, I just want you to know that I won't be picking on you anymore. I'm going to stand up for you and Finn from now on. You guys get enough crap from the other jock dumbasses, that you don't need it from me too."

Kurt pinched his leg to make sure that this wasn't his imagination. "Puck, I…I don't know what to say."

"You don't have to say any thing. I know I've been a huge ass to you in the past and that was all for stupid reasons. Because I had decided that you were not worth anyone's time. But then Glee happened and after the whole baby mess, and then Regional's, I really learned more about you. Plus those of us in Glee felt like we were a family, and I got to know you better, and well…" Puck trailed off, but Kurt knew where he was going with it.

"Thanks, Puck. I will see you guys in a few minutes."

"Ok, well right now we're at Best Buy, so we will see you when you get here. Bye." Puck said and hung up.

Kurt put his phone in his pocket, and then he went and checked for his dad and Carole, he eventually found them in his dad's room. Burt put his finger to his mouth to show quiet and then came out into the hall and closed the door. Kurt looked puzzled.

"She cried herself to sleep after you left." Burt said answering Kurt's unasked question. Kurt nodded his head.

"Puck and Quinn picked Finn up. They're at the mall with him now along with Mercedes." Kurt said, Burt seemed to relax at that, knowing that Finn was alright.

"I will let Carole know when she gets up." Burt said.

"I'm heading over to the mall now, and then later we're all heading over to Mercedes' house for a karaoke night. Finn wants to stay at Puck's tonight, but I will try and convince him to come home." Kurt said.

"Alright, I will pass that along to Carole, as well. But I won't mention Puck's house." Burt said, he then patted Kurt on the shoulder.

"Thanks dad." Kurt said. He then went back down stairs and climbed into his car and then pulled out and headed to the mall.

-Finn-

Finn stood next to Puck, in Best Buy looking at X-Box 360 Games. It seemed like ages had passed since he and Puck had did anything like this. It was kind of nice to hang out like this again. But Finn still had his doubts about how honest Puck was going to be about his promise, but Finn was willing to give him the benefit of the doubt. Finn was then brought out of his thoughts.

"Finn do you still play RPG games or are you into different ones now?" Puck asked.

Finn looked over at him. "Yeah, I guess. I really haven't played since I moved in with Kurt though, he doesn't like video games."

Puck nodded. "Have you played this one?"

Finn took the game from Puck and looked at the cover it was Halo 3 ODST. "Yeah, I own this one; I traded my copy of Halo 3 for it at Game Stop."

"Oh." Puck said as he took the game back and set it on the shelf. "You like Star Wars right?"

"Yeah, why do you ask?" Finn asked Puck looking at him.

"Have you played The Force Unleashed?" Puck asked as he picked up that copy of the game and handed it to Finn.

"No I haven't. The last one that I played was Knights of the Old Republic 2. What's this one about?" Finn asked as he flipped the game over to look at the back.

"Well short story is that you play as Darth Vader's secret apprentice, and then you end up becoming a Jedi and end up starting the Rebellion that was going on in the first movie trilogy. But this one is the Ultimate Sith Edition so it has a few extra levels to the game that go into the original trilogy, if you do the darkside of the story you end up taking over Vader's spot as the Emperor's minion." Puck said as he looked at Finn.

"Sounds, really great dude, but I don't have any money to buy it." Finn put the game back on the shelf and Puck picked it back up.

"I'll buy it for you then. I owe you for Christmas and your birthday." Puck said.

"Dude, you're Jewish, you don't celebrate Christmas. And really don't have to it's no big deal." Finn said.

"Well Finn I really want to and who cares, the rest of you guys celebrate it, hell even…never mind, but my main point is that I really want to." Puck said, he was glad that he managed to catch himself before he said Rachel.

Finn sighed and looked at the floor. "Alright, I guess if you want to."

"I really do bro." Puck said.

"Finn, can I talk to you?"

Finn looked back up and glanced back behind Puck as Puck turned around. Standing there at the end of row about four feet from them was Kurt. It took Finn a minute to fight his response to run, but he decided that was probably not a good idea.

"I think I will go find Quinn and Mercedes." Puck said and he left, leaving Finn there with Kurt.

Kurt took a step forward closing the distance a little before he spoke. "Finn, did you really mean what you said earlier? You wanted to be my boyfriend?"

Finn looked back at the floor and mumbled a response. Kurt raised an eyebrow. "What did you say?"

Finn looked up. "Yes Kurt, I meant that. But I feel horrible about everything that I put you through so right now I really don't feel like I deserve you."

Kurt blinked. "Finn, you are always good enough for me. But you just proved Rachel's theory though."

Kurt immediately regretted mentioning Rachel, because Finn started to get upset. Kurt moved closer to him and rubbed Finn's upper arm. "Sorry, she showed up at the house looking for you and she tried to blame me for you leaving her. I told her that wasn't true, but I don't think that she believes me."

Finn sniffed. "It's okay."

Kurt smiled up at Finn. "May I ask when this all started?"

Finn rubbed the back of his neck and looked all confused before he spoke. "I don't really know. I guess shortly after I had sex with Santana, well that night actually. But then the more I thought about the stronger those feelings got and the harder I tried to push them away. So then with Azimo, and Karafsky kept treating me worse than normal with their teasing, and then just trying to keep my grades up so that I could stay in Glee, and then the surprise of moving in together, then all that crap we had to deal with from Vocal Adrenaline.

"So when I blew up, it was just a culmination of everything, and then my own fears of liking you more than I thought I did. That is why I ended up calling all that hard work that you did on our room that-word-that–should-not-be-said. And when I over reacted with the moist towel thingy."

"Well I can see it all making sense now that I look back on it." Kurt said. "But what changed?"

Finn shifted his feet and fidgeted with his hands. "It would have to be when I saw Rachel's dads in their relationship at her house."

Kurt lifted an eyebrow. "How did that make a difference?"

Finn looked Kurt in the eye. "Rachel's dads showed me that it was alright for two men to love each other and be able to live in a relationship that was just like a regular relationship between a boy and a girl. They showed so much love between themselves that it really made me think of you more and my feelings about you more. Plus everything that was going on between me and Rachel not going very well it just made me want to try a relationship with you. That's why I broke up with Rachel."

Kurt nodded his head. "Is that what made you decide then on possibly having a relationship with me?"

Finn shuffled his feet some more. "Actually it was this morning."

Both of Kurt's eyebrows went up in surprise. "Excuse me?"

Finn shrugged his shoulders. "This morning when I was at Josh's house, he was who dropped me off at the house, after he cleaned the glass from my fingers and bandaged them; he helped me realize what I wanted. He kissed me to help me figure out if I liked to kiss guys. After he kissed me I realized that I like dudes as much as a did girls. But he also talked to me about how he realized that he was bi, and it helped me come to terms with myself, and with my feelings for you."

"And those feelings would be exactly what Finn?" Kurt asked, trying to keep his breathing even as he waited for Finn's answer.

Finn took a deep breath of air and let out before he spoke. "I realized that I really wanted to be with you. But after everything that I put you through, I just feel that I don't deserve that right to ask you to be my boyfriend."

Kurt took this information and before he could stop himself he blurted out: "Finn, why don't you let me make that decision, instead of you just assuming what is or is not good for me."

"Okay, I will." Finn said, just as Mercedes, Quinn, and Puck came up to them.

"We better get going, my mom has already ordered pizza for this shin dig and everyone else said that they were on their way there." Mercedes said, and everyone filed out to their cars and headed over to Mercedes house.

-Quinn-

As Kurt's Navigator, pulled up to Mercedes house, Puck pulled behind him, and we noticed that, not only was the pizza there, but Santana and Brittany were here as well. I grabbed Puck's hand and walked with him up to the door, with Finn following us shortly behind us. Kurt and Mercedes were already inside. After ten minutes, Mike, Matt, Artie, and Tina all showed up.

After pizza Mercedes broke out her karaoke machine, and she had Puck and Finn come up and sing Good Vibrations with her to start everything off. Then Kurt went and sang Can't Be Tamed by Miley Cyrus. But then Finn got up again and he was quiet for a moment and then he looked out at Kurt and then made eye contact with everyone in the room, before he looked back down and then he hit play on the machine.

Ooh ooh ooh aah
I'm gonna make a change
For once in my life
It's gonna feel real good
Gonna make a difference
Gonna make it right
As I turned up the collar on
A favorite winter coat
This wind is blowin' my mind
I see the kids in the street
With not enough to eat
Who am I to be blind
Pretending not to see their needs

Everyone sat there and stared at Finn. They all knew that this was a slightly emotional song, but they were all unprepared to see that Finn was already tearing up this close to the start of the song.

A summer's disregard
A broken bottle top
And a one man's soul
They follow each other
On the wind ya' know
'Cause they got nowhere to go
That's why I want you to know

That's when Finn locked his teary eyes onto Kurt and he kept them locked on him, for a good while.

I'm starting with the man in the mirror
I'm asking him to change his ways
And no message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself and then make a change, yey
Na na na, na na na, na na na na oh ho
I've been a victim of
A selfish kinda love
It's time that I realize
There are some with no home
Not a nickel to loan
Could it be really pretending that they're not alone

Finn then started to look first at Quinn, then to Puck, and Mercedes and just continued until he looked at everyone in Mercedes' living room.

A willow deeply scarred
Somebody's broken heart
And a washed out dream
(Washed out dream)
They follow the pattern of the wind ya' see
'Cause they got no place to be
That's why I'm starting with me
I'm starting with the man in the mirror
I'm asking him to change his ways
And no message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself and then make a change

Then Finn was looking back at Kurt. Then everyone started to know what was really going on behind Finn's choice in the song, he was sending a message. That Finn had made a change in his life. A big, life altering change.

With that everyone joined in with Finn. Mercedes and the girls alternated on singing the backup while Puck, Mike, Matt, and Artie sang along with Finn. Kurt was too speechless to sing with everyone at this point, because Finn was moving towards him, from the front of the room.

…Change
I'm starting with the man in the mirror
(Man in the mirror, oh yeah)
I'm asking him to change his ways, yeah
(Change)
No message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself and then make the change
You gotta get it right, while you got the time
'Cause when you close your heart
(You can't close your, your mind)
Then you close your mind
(That man, that man, that man)
(That man, that man, that man)
(With the man in the mirror, oh yeah)
(That man you know, that man you know)
(That man you know, that man you know)
I'm asking him to change his ways
(Change)
No message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself then make that change
(Na na na, na na na, na na na na)
Ooh
Oh yeah
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
(Na na na, na na na, na na na na)

Finn had managed to get Kurt to stand up and dance with him, and Finn got him to dance with him as everyone continued to sing, only this time Kurt managed to join in as well with everyone.

Oh no
Oh no, I'm gonna make a change
It's gonna feel real good
Sure mon
(Change)
Just lift yourself
You know, you got to stop it yourself
(Yeah)
Oh
Make that change
(I gotta make that change today, oh)
(Man in the mirror)
You got to, you got to not let yourself, brother oh
Yeah
You know that
(Make that change)
(I gotta make that make me then make)
You got, you got to move
Sure mon, sure mon
You got to
(Stand up, stand up, stand up)
Make that change
Stand up and lift yourself, now
(Man in the mirror)
Make that change
(Gonna make that change, sure mon)
(Man in the mirror)
You know it, you know it, you know it, you know
(Change)
Make that change

Finn turned Kurt around and looked down into his blue green eyes and with everyone watching them Finn leaned in and kissed Kurt on the lips. The world seemed to slow down at that point, and then when the need for air became a must, they broke apart.

Kurt looked at Finn with a puzzled expression. Then Finn asked: "Kurt, would you like to be my boyfriend?"

The room was quiet as everyone held their breath and waited for the answer. Kurt opened and closed his mouth twice before he managed to speak. "Yes Finn, I would love to be your boyfriend."

"OH HELL NO!"

Everyone's heads snapped around to look into the entrance hall to see a fuming Rachel Berry standing there. Mrs. Jones now really seemed to be embarrassed after letting her in. But before anyone could say anything Rachel turned around and left. An awkward silence filled the room, then Finn left upset with Puck right behind him. Mercedes turned to ask, "Who told Rachel about this? She was the one who upset Finn to begin with."

"I'm sorry, Mercedes, she texted me asking me what I was doing." Brittany said her voice quivering as she realized that what she did was wrong.

Kurt gave Mercedes a look before he spoke. "It's alright Brittany, at least everything is now out on the table and hopefully she and Finn, can come to an understanding somehow."

"We all know how Rachel is, she's not going to come to an understanding very well or fast." Quinn said.

There was then a murmur of agreement and then everyone quickly left after that for the night somehow just seemed to be ruined after Rachel crashed the party.