Author Note: I want to thank inuharrytwiclique for her help on this chapter. 8D. Anyway this story only has one more chapter. But before the last one comes up I hope the reviews go up for this story.
Chapter 4
They Don't Care About Me
-Puck-
Thank you Rachel! You really know how to ruin a fun night. Puck had followed Finn out of the door and amazingly was able to keep him in sight. Puck saw a little ahead of Finn was Rachel, she seemed to be keeping a good pace to remain out of Finn's reach, but that could change.
-Rachel-
Kurt knew about this! He had to! Finn is such a jerk, I don't know why I went out with him again after Regional's. It's like he didn't even care about me. Rachel thought as she continued to storm down the street. I just feel so awful right now. Finn had to play with my heart again, Kurt lying to me, and then my friends don't invite me to a get together. It's like they don't really care about me or how I feel. Then she started to sing.
Skin head, dead head
Everybody gone bad
Situation, aggravation
Everybody allegation
In the suite, on the news
Everybody dog food
Bang bang, shot dead
Everybody's gone mad
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about me
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about me
Rachel continued to storm down the sidewalk, but she didn't notice that Finn was right behind her and Puck not far behind him. She marched right into City Park and headed for the open theater.
Beat me, hate me
You can never break me
Will me, thrill me
You can never kill me
Jew me, Sue me
Everybody do me
Kick me, Kike me
Don't you black or white me
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about me
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about me
-Finn-
Finn could hear Rachel singing up ahead as he followed her into the park. I'm going to tell her everything and if she can't handle that then it's just a lost cause with her. Finn noticed that she was heading to the open theater, where they sometimes did summer concerts and plays.
"Finn, hold up!" Puck yelled.
Finn turned around and saw Puck coming towards him. "What are you doing here Puck?"
"I just wanted to make sure that you were alright. Plus I wanted to be here for emotional support." Puck said as he got close to Finn.
"Thanks, I think that I will need it so I don't chicken out when I'm talking to Rachel about all of this." Finn said.
"No problem, Finn." With that they closed the distance between them and Rachel.
Tell me what has become of my life
I had a man but two dads who love me
I am the victim of police brutality, now
I'm tired of bein' the victim of hate
You're rapin' me of my pride
Oh, for God's sake
I look to heaven to fulfill its prophecy...
Set me free
-Rachel-
Rachel climbed the steps to stand down stage center. She turned to where the audience would be standing and she then started to march in place and moving her arms to the beat of the song.
Skin head, dead head
Everybody gone bad
trepidation, speculation
Everybody allegation
In the suite, on the news
Everybody dog food
black man, black mail
Throw your brother in jail
Rachel continued to sing the song, as she started to move about the stage. I know that I'm difficult to work with. I seriously thought though that those guys would include me in their plans. But why in all of Broadway does Finn feel that he has to decide to date Kurt? He and I were perfect for each other. I just don't understand why he has to be such a jerk about breaking up with me and saying that it's because of my dads. Humph, he's got some nerve!
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about me
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about me
Tell me what has become of my rights
Am I invisible because you ignore me?
Your proclamation promised me free liberty, now
I'm tired of bein' the victim of shame
They're throwing me in a class with a bad name
I can't believe this is the land from which I came
You know I do really hate to say it
The government don't wanna see
But if Roosevelt was livin'
He wouldn't let this be, no, no
Rachel came back to the center of the stage and continued to dace. Rachel was so engrossed into her singing and dancing that she didn't notice Finn and Puck move into the seating area. Rachel sang with the emotions of hurt, betrayed, anger and anguish.
-Puck-
I gotta to admit, it's surprising that Rachel knows Michael Jackson songs. Considering that she's ALWAYS trying to ram some Broadway number down our throats every week. I'm even more surprised that she's able to sing it with this emotion. Though I think she's being awfully selfish with the lyrics. Puck watched Rachel for a moment as Rachel sang and then he glanced at Finn who seemed to be thinking the same thing as him. Rachel singing Michael Jackson was something that neither one of them thought she'd do. They both looked back up at the stage.
Skin head, dead head
Everybody gone bad
Situation, speculation
Everybody litigation
Beat me, bash me
You can never trash me
Hit me, kick me
You can never get me
-Finn-
Finn watched as Rachel continued to be in her own little world up there. He figured that he would let Rachel finish singing the song before he spoke to her. I'm not going to let her distract me and make me feel stupid for once. I am going to speak from my heart, granted I usually do, but I am going to just put it all out there this time and let her know exactly how I feel.
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about me
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about me
Some things in life they just don't wanna see
But if Martin Luther was livin'
He wouldn't let this be
-Rachel-
Rachel poised herself for her big finish as if she were in a concert hall full of people and she was going to surprise them with her incredible vocals.
Skin head, dead head
Everybody gone bad
Situation, segregation
Everybody allegation
In the suite, on the news
Everybody dog food
Kick me, Kike me
Don't you wrong or right me
As Rachel started the final part of the song, she still didn't notice Puck and Finn in the audience. But Finn managed to stand up and move to get on stage with Rachel, without her seeing him which was an achievement in itself.
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about me
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about me
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about me
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about me
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about me
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about me
Rachel finished singing and had a few tears slide down her cheeks when she then heard a voice close to her. Rachel spun around and saw Finn standing on stage with her.
"Rachel, let's talk. I think that it's time to have the conversation you want." Finn said.
-Finn-
Finn watched Rachel as she composed herself, then she squared off her shoulders and looked at Finn.
"Alright then let's talk. Why Finn are you doing this to me?"
Finn looked Rachel in the eyes. "Rachel, I'm sorry for doing this to you. It's a terrible thing that I've done to lead you on like I did. But the truth is that I have been hiding from my own feelings that I've been trying to prove to myself that weren't real, but they are."
"Those feelings that you're talking about are for Kurt?" Rachel asked a little heatedly, as she stepped closer to Finn.
"They are," Finn said.
"How long has this been going on?" Finn sighed before he answered.
"After you told me that Puck was the father of Quinn's baby, Kurt was really there for me. He'd been a good friend to me. But it wasn't until we had the Madonna assignment when I had sex with Santana, and it didn't mean anything to me, that I started to notice more of Kurt and it scared me. I will admit though that I was partly jealous of you and Jesse at the time, but at the same time I was terrified of my feelings of Kurt which were feeling more than just friendly. But by the time that we had the Lady Gaga assignment and everything that was going on with Kurt and our parents and everything else that I panicked, because I was afraid that he'd find out that I liked him. But then we were at Regional's and I so desperately wanted to bury my feelings for Kurt that I figured that if I went out with you they'd go away." Finn finished.
Rachel nodded her head. "So you used me then?"
Finn shook his head. "No, I didn't. At first I still felt our old flame that we had. But the more we stayed together this summer, the more I saw how happy your dad's were it made me feel worse for how I treated Kurt. But you didn't exactly make it easy for me because we always fought and it just scared me more to tell you the truth about stuff."
Rachel sighed. "Finn, you're straight. You're not making sense. You and I are perfect for each other why do want to throw this all away?"
"Rachel, I know that somewhere in your head that you know that I'm telling you the truth. We weren't working out. We were constantly fighting with each other. Didn't you notice that I haven't really wanted to kiss you lately?" Finn said.
Rachel thought for a moment. "Okay, I will give you one for the kissing, but the fighting is what couples do sometimes."
"Not every time that they get together." Finn said. "Unless, Rachel, it's some sort of abusive relationship."
"I was never abusive to you Finn!" Rachel yelled.
"No, you weren't but I'm just saying that normal couples don't fight as much as we did. My mom and Burt don't, and I know that your dads don't." Finn said.
"So you're telling me that you don't want to be a couple anymore?" Rachel said as she crossed her arms.
"Rachel, that's what I've been saying, I just don't love you romantically anymore. I'd still like to be your friend." Finn said.
"Finn, may I make a small request of you?" Rachel asked.
"I guess." Finn said as he shrugged his shoulders.
"Kiss me." Rachel said.
"What?" Finn asked surprised.
"If what you say is true, then I should be able to tell in the kiss that you give me." Rachel said. "It's the only way that will be settled in my mind."
Finn sighed, but agreed and he kissed Rachel. They stood there for a moment, and when Rachel pulled away she looked more hurt than she did before.
"I believe you now, Finn." Rachel said. She gathered herself up and moved away. Rachel left Finn standing there where he was and she crossed the stage before looking back. "I'll see you around, Finn."
"Finn, are you alright?" Puck asked as he came to stand by him.
"I will be. But I need to go somewhere first. I will talk to you later." Finn said as he turned and left the opposite way that Rachel left. "Oh Puck, let Kurt know that Rachel and I talked. Also tell him that I am alright, and that I will be home tonight."
Puck nodded as he watched his friend leave the open theater.
-Kurt-
Kurt was pacing his room for what seemed like the millionth time. He had come straight home after the disaster at Mercedes house. When he got home thankfully Carole was still asleep, but he told his dad about what happened and Burt seemed to sigh as if defeated.
After that Kurt headed to his room where he waited to hear anything about Finn. But after 45 minutes Kurt was starting to give up hope on any news. I really despise you at the moment Rachel Berry. You always manage to ruin my life. Now I might never get have Finn because you scared him off. Kurt heard a buzzing and dashed to his phone, where he found a text from Puck. He opened it.
Hey K! F, wnted me 2 let u kno tht he's ok, & he talked 2 R. He also said he will be home l8er.
Puckzilla
Kurt typed back to Puck.
Did he mention as to where he was going?
Kurt-o-licious
Puck replied back after a minute
Srry no.
Puckzilla
Kurt sighed. Well at least it is some good news then.
Kurt went up stairs and found Carole in the kitchen with his dad; she was making something on the stove. After a moment Kurt realized that it was macaroni and cheese, Finn's all time favorite food.
"Hi, Kurt, what's up?" Burt asked.
Carole turned around and looked at Kurt. Kurt noticed that Carole looked like hell, but he didn't want to say anything but then he remembered that his dad probably informed Carole of what happened at Mercedes' house.
"I just got a text from Puck. He said that Finn is okay and that he had his talk with Rachel. He also said that he'd be home later." Kurt said as he sat at the table.
Carole also sat down. "Kurt, may I ask you something?"
Kurt had a feeling as to what it might be about, but he nodded.
Carole took a breath as if to steady herself. "Do you, or did you have a crush on Finn?"
Kurt nodded. "I'm sorry, I don't mean to make this uncomfortable for you, I still do, but I asked Finn if he seriously wanted to be my boyfriend he said yes, but after all that he did, he didn't feel that I deserved him."
Carole was quiet for a moment. "Are you two going to be a couple now?"
Kurt glanced at his dad, and then looked at Carole again. "When we were at Mercedes house he asked me if I wanted to be and at the time I said yes, but I didn't think what that would mean for you and dad. I'm sorry."
Carole sighed. "Kurt, I want to thank you for being honest with me. But if you and Finn dated and your father and I are married do you realize what people would say?"
Kurt suddenly felt uncomfortable at the table. "I do, Carole, but I don't think it would be really a big problem in general because Finn and I are not blood related. Plus I know these two brothers who married two sisters from the same family, and no one really complained about it. But they might since Finn and I are both guys."
Burt cleared his throat. "Carole, I think that we should let them be together."
Carole looked at Burt and raised an eyebrow as Kurt looked at his father with surprise.
Burt leaned forward and put his elbows on the table. "The reason I say that is this; they both are close to being 17 and then in another year they will be adults by law, which by then if they still wanted to be together they could. As long as they both agree to abide by certain rules, and it doesn't become a problem, then I really see no reason not to let them. Granted the kids at school will most likely have some problems, but at least we will know what is going on, instead of them going behind our backs."
Carole nodded. "Burt, I guess that I agree with you."
Kurt shut his mouth because he just realized that it was hanging open. He just couldn't believe that Carole had agreed to let him and Finn be boyfriends and his dad was being cool about it as well.
-Finn-
Finn walked up the street that led to Josh's house. Finn headed to the front door and rang the doorbell. After a moment Finn saw someone moving down the stairs and then came to the door. Finn was glad that is was Josh who answered the door.
"Hi, Finn what can I do for you?" Josh asked as he shut the door and came out onto the porch.
"I wanted to stop by and again say thanks for everything. For helping me accept myself and taking the glass out of my fingers." Finn said.
Josh smiled. "It's no problem. I'm glad that I could help you out. Is there something else that you wanted to say?"
"Well I managed to get things cleared up between Rachel and me; plus I think that I'm dating Kurt now." Finn said with smile.
Josh nodded. "Well I wish you and him the best of luck then."
"Thanks again Josh, for everything, but I need to go so that I can have a talk with my mom. Explain some things better for her." Finn said.
"That sounds like a grand idea, Finn. I truly hope everything works out for you." Josh said.
"Thanks. Maybe you could come over sometime and hang out?" Finn asked as he stepped off of the porch.
"That sounds fun, just stop by sometime and we can set something up." Josh said.
"Alright, I'll do that." Finn said and made his way back down the street and headed to the Hummel-Hudson house. Finn shook his head. No, I'm heading home.