Hello, this is the next chapter of this story and I hope that you all will like this chapter to, I have three more chapters written and after that I have a few chapters planned out, short summaries on what I want to happen in them so that the story is moving forward.
I would love to know what you think of this and that means that I would love to get some feedback on this story and letting me know if there is someone out there that is reading this.
Chapter 7 Next step
It had been a few days since I and Alex had been talking about what had happened between the two of us and I know that this might sound a bit selfish on my part but sometimes you just need to think about yourself and that is what I have been doing.
After I had told her and that I wanted our hearts to mend in some way and walked away, was kind of the turning point for me I knew that it was now Alex turn to come to me when she was ready I wasn't going to push her in any direction. I knew that I was the one that needed to be the bigger person and to show her that I was truly changed and it wasn't some kind of act that I was pulling against her.
I was the one that needed to be forgiven and she wasn't the one that should be saying that she was sorry I was the one that needed to that. Sure thing I have already tried that, I knew that it was going to take some time for the both of us to trust each other again. That is a lie; I know that I would trust her with my life, my heart, my everything. She was the one that needed to be able to trust me once again. But I had time on my side this time, she wouldn't be able to leave this boat in at least six month, that was what the deal that she and my dad had made and the best part of this is that Alex is to proud to ask my dad if she could be leaving sooner.
And I, I couldn't leave this boat; I had to be on this boat for a year otherwise I would be needing to start collage as soon as a collage would let me begin. But that wasn't the main reason for me being on this boat, I needed some time with my father, I had missed him a lot and this was a time for us to start being closer once again and as an added bonus I would be near Alex for six months.
No one except y dad knew that I was once again in contact with Alex, and I wasn't sure on how I was going to tell anyone about it. No one back in Newport knew what I felt for the blonde former bartender. Not even Summer and we talked about everything but I think that there were some people that had an idea about, and those were my dear mother that I have been getting closer to, I think that she was able to feel that I was missing something and then of course Kristen Cohen, she had always been able to read me like a book. Maybe cause we both had had some troubles and felt like something was missing. She had been like an extra mother to me when my mother wasn't acting like one. But that is a different story and that is something that we shouldn't be getting in to at this time.
I was just looking for my father I wanted to know when we were going to set sail and begin our little trip that was going to take us all around the world. I was just so excited about all of this I knew deep down that this would be one of the best summers of my life and it was just getting started.
When I finally found my dad he was on the boat trying to tell the rest of the crew that I was not to be bother and the same went for Alex. I couldn't believe what he was saying. Why shouldn't we be bothered that was just something that I needed to know about and why he would tell them that?
"Dad." I called after him when he was leaving the boat.
"Hey, Marissa I didn't see you there. What are you doing here?"
"I was looking for you."
"Okay so what did you want?"
"I was just wondering when we were going to set sail and start this little adventure." I said and I looked at my father with that small smile and a bit of my puppy eyes just so that I would get to know everything. That is something that always worked and that look is something that I have learned to perfect during the years.
"I think that we will be able to set the sails tomorrow afternoon." He said to me and all I could do was smile, we were near to start what I was hoping to be a year that I would remember for a long time hopefully as long as I live and maybe it can be a new start not just for me but for someone else.
"That is great, but I heard that you told the rest of the crew that they shouldn't be bothering me and Alex. What was that all about?"
"I thought that we had raised you better and not to eavesdrop?"
"you did that but as you know I have been living with mum alone, for the last two years and alone with mum being the important words at this point." I said
"I forgot, that is Julie Coopers' specialty to put her nose where it don't belong." He said and laughed a bit. That was something that I knew for sure was true, she had always been in my business even if I didn't want her to.
"So can you give me an answer to what I was asking before?"
"Of course I can but are you sure that you want to know?"
"Dad" I more or less whined, I so wanted to know why he would tell them to stay away from us and not bother us.
"Okay, fine I'll tell you but you need to promise me that you won't be making any kind of scene or freak out and start a screaming match."
"I promise, scouts honor." I tried to joke but I'm not sure that he got that I was joking about the scout part, because he was just looking at me funny. "Dad I was joking about the scout part I know that I never was in the girls scouts, I was in the young adventures." And yet again he didn't get it; he must have lost his sense of humor that is something that we need to restore as soon as possible otherwise this will be one boring year. Apart from Alex, okay there I go again I need to stop thinking about her from now on.
"Marissa the only reason that I told them to leave you two alone is that there were someone that had heard the two of you fighting a couple of nights ago. And I wanted the two of ypu to have a chance to work that out."
"Okay so that is the only reason."
"Well." He said and scratch the side his head and that was when I knew that there were something more that he didn't want to tell me but I wanted to know what that was.
"Dad." I said and gave him a sterner look, "I know that there is something that you are hiding. I want to know what that is so just spill it."
"I will tell you but I know that you might react badly towards this."
"Okay, so you have warned me so just tell me and then maybe you can tell this to Alex too."
"Marissa, the thing is that some of the guys kind of heard that you two have been dating and was kind of joking around about that."
"Okay and that is so bad?"
"Well I don't want anything like that on my boat and if they can't keep something to themselves then they will be on their way from this boat." He said and looked at me.
"Dad, that is probably not thing I haven't heard before, you do know that you hear a lot when you are a girl and dating another girl in Newport, I thought that you would know that."
"I'm sorry I didn't really think about that, but anyway that means that they at least won't be bothering you guys about that."
"That is great dad but I would love if you also would tell Alex that."
"I can do that but don't you think that it might be a better idea that you tell her that."
"Dad, I don't think so. I don't want to push her it's up to her what we do next."
"Okay what happened?" when he asked that I just began to slowly break apart; I didn't know what I was going to do. It was just so hard for me all of this that had happened between me and Alex since we met up again. And I tried to explain it all in a good way just so that he would understand where I was coming from and as I told him what had been going on between us he finally understood that I wasn't able to tell Alex all of what he had told me earlier.
"Okay, kiddo I understand and I will tell Alex but you need to promise me that you will do your best to get all of this cleared up and I hope that you two can resolve that and I hope that it could be done before we leave tomorrow afternoon."
"I hope so too dad, I hope so too. But I know that it's going to be hard. We haven't been talking since that day and we live in the same house. We are just avoiding each other. I don't know what I should do."
"All I can tell you Marissa at this point is that you maybe should take the next step and not let it all is up to her to decide on what to do." He said to me and I know that sounds very good to do that but at the same time I can feel that I shouldn't be doing anything because that could lead to that I'm pressuring her in the direction that.
"I know what you mean dad but what if I make her make a decision that won't be in any favor for any of us and in the next step after that will make everything so much harder for everyone."
"Marissa I know that this might sound a bit strange to you but I think that Alex might want you to take the next step cause she isn't sure on what you are feeling. So maybe you two need to talk even more."
"Dad I hate it when you sound so wise and old."
"Hey, who are you calling old?"
I knew that I needed to talk to Alex once again and preferably before we leave Hawaii but I think that might be a bit tough for us. And if I can't talk to her then I might be needing to talk to Summer I know that she wants to talk to me cause she has been calling and texting me nonstop . I should do something about that.