Godrick's Hallow was breezy, and there was an eerie chill about this place. Minerva always hated coming here, there was too much pain facing what should have been. She walked past what would have been her childhood home, if her parents were not killed twenty years ago.
She soon found herself in the graveyard, she walked slowly towards her mother and father's headstone. "I am so sorry."
Harry was there, he hid in the shadows once his sister had arrived.
She looked down at the stone. "I am so sorry; I have not honoured your sacrifice at all." She began to tear up. "You died to protect Harry and I, and I have done nothing to thank you for that."
The cold wind howled as it hit her wet face, she fell to her knees. "I am the worst daughter in the world…" She was now in an uncontrollable sob. "I have hurt Harry and disrespected the Potter name…. I could have done so much more; I should have told him…" She looked up at the sky. "Things might have ended up… they may have ended up better…" She sat on the cold ground as she touched the headstone. "Mom, dad I am so sorry…"
Harry quietly came out of the shadows, and he knelt beside her. "Minerva."
She looked over at him, taking a deep breath in trying to calm herself. "Harry."
He reached his arms out and pulled her into his chest. There was a sense of warmth that they both had never felt before, like there parents were also wrapped around them.
"Harry, I am so sorry. I could have done so much more." She looked up at him.
He nodded. "We both could have."
"I should have told you, I should have told the world."
"Yes, but I think we need to leave the past in the past and move on." Harry took a deep breath in as he looked at his parents' headstone. "They would want us to."
Minerva gave him a soft smile; she finally had her brother. After all the time she longed to have him in her life, she was finally going to get that chance.
They both sat there in silence for a few moments. "Harry, I never stopped thinking about them."
He looked over at her. "Did you know of who they were?"
"No, not until I found out that I was your little sister in my second year." She sighed. "I used to have dreams about the four of us, they were so real to me."
"What kind of dreams?" Harry was curious as to what she meant.
"They started as far back as I can remember. They would be about a red headed woman, a messy haired man, and two children. At first their faces were blurred, and Remus would tell me they were just what I desired the most." Minerva looked over at him.
"Your subconscious memory was telling you the truth?"
"Now that I look back on it, yes it was." She smiled. "I should have followed my gut, all those years ago. Before I knew about everything, I almost ran into you a few times when you were shopping for your first few years of school."
"Let me guess Remus stopped you every time?" Harry stated.
"Yes. I remember when I was ten, which would have been your first year of school. That was when Remus told me that I will be going to school as Lupin and not Potter. Hearing that hurt me a bit, at that point all I knew was Potter."
"You were not always Lupin?" Harry was surprised.
"No, for the first ten years of my life I was Potter. I only used Lupin as my last name during school. It was not changed legally until Remus and Dora adopted me in 1997." She informed him.
"I thought you were Lupin your whole life."
She shook her head. "No. That afternoon when we were eating dinner was the first time, I learned of you. The daily prophet was reporting that you were seen for the first time in ten years. I asked Remus if we were family somehow and he told me that he knew for a fact that I had no living blood family."
"That is when the convincing that you were safer away from me started?" Harry sighed.
"Yes, in a sense. That year I was made to stay away from the daily prophet and any outlet that spoke of you. I was placed in a bubble and overprotected by all those who knew."
"Who knew at this point?" Harry asked curiously.
"There was Albus, Remus, Severus, Andromeda, Ted, Nymphadora, and I believe Hagrid." She answered.
Harry looked a bit upset when he heard that Hagrid had knew at that point. How did he keep it a secret, he was the worst at keeping things from people.
"I had received my letter for school the summer after I turned eleven. I was so disappointed when I seen that it was for Beauxbaton instead of Hogwarts, which was all on Albus. He made sure that we were not in the same schools, so we did not run into each other. You got Hogwarts because he felt that you needed him to watch over you more than I needed him." She went on, but there was so much hurt in her eyes. "We went to get my school supplies a few days later, and it was the same day that you and the Weasley's were there getting yours. Remus directed me to go wait for him at Flourish and Blotts, where I could get Lockheart to sign my books."
Harry smirked. "Please tell me that you were not a fan girl of his."
She chuckled a little. "I thought that he was cute, but it was a little girl crush."
Harry rolled his eyes. "He is a complete git."
"I have heard." She smiled and went on. "That was the first time I seen you. You were being pulled up to him, he made this big speech on how you two would make the front page. He then gave you a whole set of his books and announced that he was going to be your professor. I then followed you to the back of the store where Draco confronted you and the Weasley's. He was being foul to the group of you. I was going to jump in and say something when I was pulled out of the store."
"Remus caught you." Harry chimed in.
"He did, and never let me out of his sight the rest of the day." She sighed.
"That was the first time. How many more times was there?" He was curious.
"There were a few. The next big event that stirred the pot was when Sirius broke out of Azkaban." She looked at Harry, she knew that Sirius was a touchy subject for him. "The summer after my first year they started writing about him in the daily prophet. Every time I would read it out loud, I knew that it would bug Remus, but at this point I did not know why. Also, that summer Remus got a job, well you know that. I think that Albus wanted to keep a close eye on him, knowing how close Sirius was with Remus."
"That makes a lot of sense. I never thought of it that way." Harry nodded.
"Yes, so anyhow. That afternoon Remus, Dora, and I all went shopping. We went to stop at the Leaky Cauldron to have lunch. Remus left for a moment to grab something, and Dora had to use the loo, and I was left at the table. That is when you joined the Weasley family, once again I went over to talk to the lot of you when Dora pulled me out."
"You never had the best timing, did you?"
She shook her head. "No never. During the holidays I managed to get something out of Remus. He informed me that he went to school with Sirius. I than asked him if James was my father because I was reading up on some archives that my school had on Hogwarts students. He denied it and made up a lie that my father was a muggle Potter and that he did not go to Hogwarts."
Harry was angry at that, but he knew that it would do them no good for him to act on the feeling.
"Then he told me I was in danger of Sirius because he would think I was his daughter, and he might try to hurt us like he did you and your parents." Minerva took a deep breath, recalling all the lies and hurt. "One night at school I decided that I would run away, I needed some air. Remus had the whole school on alert and all eyes were on me. That was the evening that my whole world shifted."
"Shifted? What do you mean?" Harry was hanging onto her every word.
"Sirius was on the hill; he came from the shadows. At first, I was taking back by him, and I pulled my wand." Tears filled her eyes as she thought about him. "He tried to convince me that he would not hurt me, Remus had convinced me otherwise and at that point in my life he was always right. He did get to me, he told me he knew who my parents were. That caught my attention, and I lowered my wand."
"Poor Sirius we both pulled our wands on him when we first met him. All because of Peter."
She nodded. "I asked him how I knew I could trust him. He got lost in his own head and recalled the evening that mom and dad found out that they were expecting me. He told me that at first, they were going to get him to be my godfather but changed their minds and found it only fair to allow Remus to be the godfather of their second child. With that statement I called him out and told him he was lying. I told him I was an only child."
"He was probably so confused with that statement." Harry pictured Sirius 'reaction.
"He was, and I think that he was hurt that I did not know who I was. He told me everything that night, all of it." She sighed.
"Who got to him? Why didn't he tell me?" Harry stood up.
Minerva got up and stood beside him. "Harry trust me he wanted to, but the others were very convincing."
"I just wish that things were different, I wish we could have known from the start." Harry took her hand.
Minerva was in shock. "I wish we could have had that as well."
"The next year would have been the Triwizard Tournament." Harry broke the silence.
"Yes, and I was the top of my year. I was chosen to go to represent the school. I was excited, I finally got to see Hogwarts, but there was a condition."
"You had to keep away from me and tell me nothing." He looked back at her.
"Exactly. I am so sorry, I had so many chances to tell you, but every time Albus or Severus would be right there. I gave up on trying." She broke their hands apart.
"Is this when Charlie found out?"
"This was the year that he found out. I ran into him when he was there with the Dragons, and I grew to trust him. I told him everything. Severus wanted to erase his memory of me, but Albus let him keep it if he swore not to tell." Minerva hated even saying Albus' name. "He said I needed someone to talk to, and to confide in with this."
"Albus picked and chose who got to know?" Harry knew that was the case but did not want to admit it.
She nodded. "Gabby found out as well, but she was not trustworthy enough."
"Did he wipe her memory?" Harry seemed shocked.
"Yes, just of when she found out."
"Minerva that is unfair." Harry stated.
"I know, but not compared to what we did to you." She teared up.
"Like I said I am letting that go." Harry took her hand back. "I want you in my life as my sister, it is what our parents would want. It may take some time to get there fully but we need to."
Minerva hugged him. "You have no idea how much that means to me."
"I think I do." He smiled at her. "Now we should get back to the Burrow."
"Probably a good idea. Charlie, and Remus may send a search party out." She laughed.
