Imperfect

by TemariWindQueen

'- You would know that from the moment I allowed myself to feel, I loved you madly' What would happen if you found out that your great love is forbidden? Would you go after it or leave it behind? Choices are made. Actions are taken. Consequences are felt. A story for the brave in soul, for those who believe that love never ends.

6. Chapter 6

Kakashi

It was sunday morning, six o'clock. The sun had just risen, and I had a beautiful view of the immense Konoha. That slightly dark sky mixing with the rays of the rising sun, giving a perfect contrast to the city's buildings. It was a calm day and I needed to relax, be at peace with myself. I decided to take a walk to my father's country house, I always did that. Alone in that place was where I could think best. Think about what happened in the last two days. And why am I feeling this way, why am I so affected by simple things.

I got out of bed, went to my closet, grabbed a backpack, put my stuff inside. And again she came and invaded my thoughts, I slammed my fist on the cupboard. That delicate kiss she gave me, even over the mask, made all the difference to me. I looked at my hands and remembered the soft touch of hers, was I too evasive? I never cared what others thought of me, but she, what she thinks of me I care. I remembered the message I sent her last night, I'm very grateful to Hinata for giving me the number, but... Was that message enough? I feel in a minefield not knowing what to do. A fucking teenager with mixed thoughts.

I went to the shower and after I just went to the kitchen with a towel and grabbed some fruit to eat, especially today I woke up hungry. I went back to the room to put on clothes, the same as always. As soon as I was ready I left everything organized for my return. I locked my apartment, pressed the elevator button and waited. I dangled the car keys as I walked down. - what could this be? Anxiety? For what? I never felt like this before - I went out in the garage, I looked at my car it was a 67 Impala, my father liked old cars and I didn't have the courage to get rid of him, he is one of the memories that stayed with me. It's a good car, big and roomy. I got in and threw my things on the passenger seat, I watched the people on the street, the cars in front of me and how this city has grown in the last twenty years. Many things have changed since then.

I took the road and observed those beautiful plains. Its plantations, the rural part of the city. And to think I grew up far from this metropolis, in a small town west of here. Memories invaded my thoughts, when I walked this path with my father, our moments together and all the conversations we had along that same path, all the lessons he taught me throughout my life and the legacy he left for me. I missed him. Immensely. Now I was alone. At least here inside this car feeling the wind come through the window as the sun finishes rising. It didn't take me much more than two hours to reach my destination.

When I arrived at the house and that breeze invaded my lungs, I felt renewed. That old wooden residence with its particularly familiar smell, brings back so many memories... Its antique furniture and the way it reflected the incoming sunlight. I put my things in the room and went to the backyard... The house still looked like new even after so much time, I dedicate myself a lot to leave her as she is. But by far my favorite part is the back of the house. It has a large green area with a lake at its end, I go there every time I'm here, I pass by the trees and come out on the edge of it - the crystalline waters making the reflection of the sun hit my face - I felt extremely ecstatic . I lay there reading my book, it was a really nice day, I was grateful to be alive. For the first time in a long time.

My sunday was going to be good, that's a fact. Staying here in this quiet place is my favorite thing to do. But it would be so much better if she were here with me. I thought.

Temari

I woke up disoriented after the intense night I had with Shikamaru. I'm sure it left marks all over my body. As soon as we got home after dinner with the guys it was crazy, asking him to marry me was the best thing I've ever done. I know how much he loves me but I know even more how scared he is to admit it. If I didn't ask, I know he wouldn't. And let's face it, I don't have much patience for that and he knows it. We were drunk and that just made things even better. I'm happy for his achievement and happy for both of us.

I looked to the side and saw how lucky I am, he was beautiful all disheveled and without clothes, only the white sheet rested on top of his body, there are few times I see him without his hair tied up and those moments are usually the best and most intimate. I had the most impure thoughts seeing that vision of the gods. Until he woke up.

- Good morning, dear - I said first

- Morning... Did you watch me sleep? - he asked with his sleepy face still

- Of course not - I let out a muffled laugh - And you can call me fiancee, now

- So come here, my fiancee - he pulled me

Shikamaru started tickling me and he knows how much I hate that. But even as I ask him to stop I keep laughing and I also hear the sound of his laughter, and it's just the best thing to hear in the morning. As soon as he stopped I kissed him on the cheek and we got up to go to the bathroom.

- I'm going to visit the girls today - I said while I watched him brush his teeth - And you're going to take me

- Who? - he asked still sleepy - Wait... What?

- The girls... Sakura, Ino, Hinata... And I'll call Tenten to meet us there - I said

- And they know about it? - he looked suspiciously at me - I didn't hear you say anything last night

- Not yet, but they will find out - I ended up laughing - When I knock on their door, they will know

- Only you, Temari - and he smirked.

That smile broke me up in so many ways I couldn't even explain, that's how I fell in love. Finally, I went to prepare our breakfast. I made some eggs, some fruits, yogurts, cereals, breads. The table was set, I just waited for him to appear, until he came, shirtless and in his gray sweatpants, my heavens, how I loved this man.

- The smell was going into the bathroom, it must be delicious - he said.

- You'll only know if you try it, now eat - I said

- All right, lady Nara - he said ironically

I confess that I could get used to him calling me that way, I felt a shiver down to my fingertips. We agreed to have lunch out and after lunch Shikamaru would drop me off at the girls' house and go out with the boys, weekends are the only days we have to enjoy it since the the rest of the week is busy for me, I have to travel to neighboring countries, approving and disapproving projects, and even more so now that my winter fashion show is coming up, my head is racing, so these few days that I have off, that's what I want to do it, enjoy my now fiance and go out with the girls.

I wasn't going to their house for nothing either, they would be my bridesmaids, they just didn't know it yet - I kept laughing to myself - I had a lot of things to organize and I would definitely need help, their help in particular. Ino was practically my sister-in-law, and the other girls, they always helped me so much with so many things. Plus I have a bonus, Hinata is an art major, so who better than her to help me with those details? I only had a few months to prepare and I could never do it alone.

Sakura

Right after I got up I saw a message from Temari on my cell phone saying she was going to come visit us, I nodded to myself that it was okay, who would I be to stop her, no one could say no to her and besides, we had no nothing scheduled for today. A sunny sunday and pleasant weather with the girls, it seemed like a good dream. Before I could turn my thoughts to other more "important" things, I remembered the message he sent me last night. What did he want with me? What was so important that we should talk? We stayed once and it was good, but that was it, right?! I promised myself that if we talked I would ask him to forget about it all, we live in different realities and he was a good few years older than me... Not that that's a problem but... Argh, I don't want to think about it - I was trying to convince myself that it was just that - without success, I was still thinking about it for a while.

It was still early and I was lying down, I was tired after yesterday. But I didn't have much time to feel like this, I needed to prepare my material for tomorrow's class, so I got up and sat on the edge of the bed. I sat for a while working up the courage to actually get up. Once I did, I walked over to my study table and organized the things I'd started yesterday. Luckily I'm organized and I almost never leave things for later. As I sat in the chair, I smelled breakfast, Ino was definitely making amounts of food. Whenever she wakes up with a hangover this happens, we have a breakfast rich in all things one could imagine.

I quickly changed clothes, taking off the nightgown I was wearing and putting on a stay-at-home outfit. I splashed some water on my face to wake up for real and combed my hair. It was already huge, I was wondering if I should cut it or not... As soon as I left my room I was guided by the smell of the pancakes that Ino made, which plagued the whole house. As soon as I went down the stairs and through the living room to the kitchen, everyone was sitting at the table enjoying the wonderful food that Ino had prepared, laughing and talking. Living with people you've lived with your whole life was wonderful.

- Morning! - I said happily and smiling - Are you better?

- Well... Someone woke up in a good mood - said Naruto - I'm fine, especially after eating Ino's food and thanks for taking care of me

- I'm happy to hear that - I smile - And it's true, Ino's cooking makes everything better and also my good mood is not thanks to you or Ino, I had to bathe both of them and put them to bed, like babies - I said

- You know we are your babies - she said squeezing my cheek and laughing - But we can already imagine why the good mood

- How are you, Hinata? Better? - was worried if she took her meds, I knew she didn't like them

- Yes, I am, I'm taking the medication correctly, if that's what you're worried about - she smiled shyly.

- Great! - I said happily - By the way, did you get Temari's message?

- Yes, she comes here after lunch - Ino replied

- What does she want to talk to us about? - I was curious to know - We met yesterday

- It's definitely about the wedding, Sakura - she said as if it were obvious - Temari wouldn't be able to organize everything by herself, even more so with her fashion show coming up, she's so famous! -she stated- And Temari works unlike us students

- Sometimes I forget that detail - I said, shrugging - But it's a girls' afternoon, at least, that's what the message said

- So does that mean I'm not invited? - Naruto said with a sad face

- Of course not, you idiot! - screamed Ino

- No need to shout! I understood! - Naruto yelled back at her.

- No need to shout, neither! Heavens! - I said in a lower tone - In the message she sent me she said that Shikamaru was going to leave her here and take Naruto with him, no need to worry

- Then it's good - they both said.

- It will be good for you to get along more with the boys, Naruto - I said calmly to him - There's one you even know, Kiba

- Is that big dog from Shikamaru's group? I don't believe! - he said smiling - That's great

We finished having breakfast, I wanted to live with them forever, but after this year everything would be different... My mornings might not be as fun as these. I will have to do everything to enjoy these precious moments I have with them. We will never stop being friends, but the longing I will feel.. It's too much. But there are decisions we need to make, to mature and move on with life. I also want to have my house. My family...

As the clock still showed 11 am I decided to study a little before starting to help Ino with lunch and we were planning to clean up the yard and make some cookies, cakes and treats for when Temari arrived. It would be like afternoon tea. I'm feeling ten years younger, me and Ino did this practically every week, when we were fifteen. It was our girls' day, we did it with some acquaintances who lived nearby but most of the time it was just me and Ino, we loved it. And it looks like we're going to recreate that.

Today would be a perfect sunday, just with the girls, talking about girl things and I could get him out of my thoughts. Focus on the important things I have to do and stop feeling so vulnerable, like he's right here beside me reading my thoughts. Who would have thought that a kiss and the fact that we almost went to bed would trigger this everything I'm feeling right now. And just thinking that tomorrow is monday, the inevitable could happen anyway, our meeting.

Naruto

As soon as the girls decided my life for me, I finished eating and went upstairs to organize my things. My things were still scattered around the room, I didn't pack anything but I'm not known for being an organized person either, so... Spending the afternoon with the boys would be nice, I was tired of so much estrogen around me. The high-pitched giggles and chats about periods or which shade of foundation would look best on each other's skin, and not that I didn't like it, but I wanted to stop listening to it just for a bit. When I went to enter my room I saw the door of Sakura's room open, her room was almost opposite mine, I could see by the reflection of the mirror that she was studying. She always looked beautiful when she was so focused like that. I walked over there and knocked twice on the door.

- I can enter? - I gave a crooked smile

- Hi, of course, you can come in - she made a positive sign with her head - Just don't notice the mess

- You were never messy, Sakura - I replied smiling - How are you? - I asked, I was interested to know about her life, I had only been back two days ago, and on top of that I had lost contact with her in the last year, so for me she was very different but she still awakened things in me

-I'm fine, studying, you know.. I finish the course this year, it goes by fast - she said and threw that beautiful smile at me - Seems like it was yesterday, doesn't it?! I got into college

- Yeah, it's true - I blushed - And we haven't spoken this last year, I... I missed you, a lot

- Me too, I missed you, you left so suddenly and I was so busy that I didn't have time to... Talk to you better - she answered me and I had the impression of uncertainty in her voice - But, what you want? If you came to see how I'm doing, I'm fine - she asked - Really

- Haha, yes, that was just it... - and unfortunately it wasn't just that

Ever since I came back and saw Sakura for the first time my heart started beating again like it did for so many years. For a while, she was the only one on my mind and I honestly didn't know if that was because of our coexistence or... Because we had sex whenever we could. Something affected me in the middle of this process, I wanted to help her but I ended up developing something that I promised I wouldn't develop, that I wouldn't feel, and now... After a year without seeing her, I'm feeling again, like nothing had changed that much. We were like that.

- I don't want to disturb you or anything - I said finally, I better forget about it

- You don't get in the way, you know - she said shyly.

- Actually, I wanted to tell you something... - I said in a low voice.

- Go on, you're not hiding anything from me, right?! - she replied in a playful way, I loved seeing her like this

- Why we... Didn't work out? At that time, we got along so well, we spent so much time together - I asked dryly, I wanted to remove this doubt for a long time

- Close the door, Naruto, please - she asked, when I closed it she started talking

- All right

-There are several reasons, but the main one is that you are my friend and I love our friendship the way it is - she said - If we were going to try it would have to be back then, but now... Time has passed and changed us

- But if we're such good friends, why don't we turn it into something better? - I replied - What I feel for you... It can't be because we're just friends

- Believe me, I feel the same thing... I felt jealous of you with Hinata when you came back - she seemed to do it as a kind of confession - But we've grown up, we're adults now and I see and understand that some kindred spirits were born just to be friends - I could see the tears in their eyes

- Are we soul mates? - I asked in disbelief of what she said

- Of course we are, there are not only soulmates in love... and I feel ours is different, I can't understand it either - Sakura smiles

- So you're going to say you don't feel anything about it?

- What?

Before she could finish speaking, I grabbed her face and kissed her, her mouth on mine, I could feel her kissing me back, but it was different than before and that's when it hit me, I realized what she was talking about, I was feeling different too. I loved her, that was undeniable, she will always be my first love. Tears flowed from my eyes, not understanding why in this life, we weren't born to be together. And I hoped that the next one would happen.

After everything we'd been through, this was still where I wanted to be by her side. For a long time I fought for this, for both of us, as a couple. But that never worked and it seems that now I understand why. If you only knew how much I love you, Sakura. How much I love you, my darling. Even if it's not with me, even if it's far from me. I will always watch over you and cheer for your happiness, even if she is not by my side. Even if we are far from each other.

I didn't want to stop kissing her, it reminded me of many, many things. Good stuff. I wanted to live in that moment forever. Our last kiss. I could feel that this was the last one. Things really had changed. Her kiss was still good, amazing. It made me feel good, but it wasn't like before... I let go of her face and looked at her, she was blushing, she was the most beautiful thing. We were out of breath, I leaned her forehead against mine and felt her scent dominate me completely.

- I'm sorry about that, now I understand what you're talking about... - I said crestfallen - Forgive me, Sakura

- I'm glad you understand, I missed that too... Thank you for understanding, really - she held my hand

- Do you like this guy? Kakashi? - I asked - Because if you think it's worth it, Sakura, go for it and don't be afraid, you deserve to be happy, know that

- I could ask the same thing about Hinata - she said - You deserve to be happy too, Naruto

We spoke and we could understand the reasons, our time had passed. Now it was time to live other things. Meet other people.

- I don't know - we said together

- Well - she started - I think we'll have to find out... Why don't we help each other? - she completed

- That would be great, I would love that - I smile

- Come here, give me a hug - she said

We held each other for a while before I left her room, I understood the reasons and it was good that we had this conversation, it made everything clearer, so to speak.. I went to the bathroom, took a shower and went to my room, even though tomorrow is Monday and I have some issues to attend to, I was happy to be here in this house with the girls. This year would be so worth it.

Shikamaru

After dropping Temari off at Sakura and Ino's house and picking up Naruto, we set out to look for the others who will be leaving with us. I really wanted Kakashi to be available today, but I sent a message and it wasn't even delivered to his cell phone, I didn't even think to call. I knew he wouldn't answer. In any case, I would do my best to enjoy this sunny sunday. Kiba, Kankuro and Neji, they were the same as always, but now with Naruto included, now that he's back from the exchange. I miseed him. As I was thinking about the route I was going to take and smoking my cigarette, I was pulled out of my thoughts.

- Shikamaru? - I heard Naruto calling me

- What? - I replied friendly

- How is being with Temari for so long? - asked seriously

- But what kind of question is that?

- Any question... What's it like to be with her, even after all this time? - he insisted - It's strange to like a person for so long, isn't it?!

- Look man, I'm not very good with these things... - I said openly - I don't know if you remember but she was the one who proposed to me yesterday - I started laughing inside, what a situation...

- True, are you ashamed or what? - he started laughing at me

- It's not that, I'm just not that kind of guy, but I love that woman - I replied - And she knows that, that's enough

- So you're a romantic inside - he continued laughing.

- Something like that... But what's going on, are you liking someone or something? - I asked curious

- I liked the same person for a long time, but only nowI understand that we weren't made for that, to be together, you know? - he told and I already realized who it was

- Aren't you going to tell me it was Sakura? What does this girl have? Honey? - I said in disbelief

- How do you know that?! - he said yelling in my ear.

- Hey Hey! No need to scream, just connect things - I said calmly to him - No need to be a geniu, everyone knew that you liked her, and that you stayed together for a time, you didn't fool anyone, we just never said anything about... But you remember, don't you? The problems...

- Yes, it was Sakura - he said with his head down - And yes, I remember, we went through a lot together and for a long time she was the one who came to my mind when it came to love

- Got it... So you realize it's nothing more than that? - I asked, I was more curious about Kakashi

- I kissed her today to clear up a few things but nothing important...

I braked the car sharply and he crashed headlong into the dashboard, it didn't hurt too much but I must admit it was funny. I did that when he uttered those words... I was hearing more from Sakura than from my own wife. She was pretty, smart, but so is Temari and so is Ino. Heavens. I didn't want to be thinking about it. What is happening?

- Hey, why did you do that? Are you trying to hurt me?! - he asked putting his hand on his head

- Sorry, I got scared with what you said... I have a friend who I think is into her, so I was surprised - I said

- I know..It's Kakashi... - he said and made me look at my face, after all he wasn't that stupid after all - I saw the way he's looking at her at dinner yesterday, it was the same way I did looked

- Yeah... but wait, how do you know?! - I asked

- I'm not that stupid, am I? - he said angrily - If that's what you were thinking

It felt like he had read my mind... Anyway, we arrived at Kiba's house and dragged him into the car. Next stop Kankuro and Neji, they were already at the meeting point I had set. I told them that we would go to the beach to see the sunset, the day was too beautiful not to be used in the right way. As soon as I picked them up, we talked until we got to the beach, which wasn't too far away, a maximum of 30 minutes by car.

As soon as we arrived, I was mentally preparing myself for the order I was going to place for them. It was an important thing and Temari made sure I was going to do it right, my arm is sore sore from the beating. We stayed in a tent drinking and eating. The sea air on our faces and the smell of the beach, everything was perfect.

- But then Shikamaru, why did you call us here? - asked Neji

- Does there have to be a special reason? - I retorted

- Obviously not, but I feel that you have - he replied

- Okay, you won - I replied - I called everyone here because I wanted to know if you would accept being godparents at my wedding - I said with an immense laziness, that would give me a headache

- REALLY?! IS IT REALLY SERIOUS? - shouted Naruto and it looked like he was very happy

- Of course, I didn't bring you here for nothing - I said.

- For me, it will be a great honor - replied Neji

- Well, I was already aware, right?! But yes I accept - Kankuro said laughing

- Oh thanks smart guy, surely Temari talked to you - I replied sullenly

- But of course, I'm the best brother in the world - he said trying to tease me - And I'm your best friend too

- Then you must be aware of the important role you carry - I stared at him

- I already know that I'm responsible for the rings and Gaara for the flowers, trust me - he said winking at me

I confess that I was a little emotional with everything that was happening there... The weather was perfect and this is definitely the year I am happiest. My friends, my wife, my work... The most important things in my life, everything working out. I enjoyed the rest of the day with them... We talked about everyday things and how our future would be from that year on. There was only one person who wasn't present and who would also be the godfather, Kakashi. I thought about sending a message but that's not something you talk about by message, I needed to talk to him in person. Temari would kill me if she knew I asked him this via text. Tomorrow I would talk to him.

My thoughts don't leave Temari, what are they up to?

Sakura

Temari had just arrived and brought a lot of things, plans, information about the salon, fabrics, colors, flower tones... But everything was for the sake of the wedding, I invited her in and sent her straight to the garden. Ino and I had organized everything there, the delicacies we were going to eat, the drinks, the atmosphere, everything was perfect. We helped Hinata to sit in the outside area and started to pack things up, I heard the doorbell ringing and Ino went to answer it, it was Tenten. Temari met her in Suna, her home country. They were great friends and she ended up joining our group.

- So Temari, tell us your plans for the wedding - yelled Ino - Let's get this party started!

- Where do I start... First, it is with great honor that I invite you to be godmothers at my wedding - she said a little blushing

- OF COURSE WE ACCEPT! - we said all together

We were all emotional, some tears ended up escaping, that moment was magical for all of us. She was the first of our group to get married, it was something very special for us. And to think that in a bet a few years ago, we placed that Temari would be one of the last to get married, it seems that we were wrong.

- And how will it be? - asked Tenten

- I wanted something more simplistic, as I said before, it will be in spring, the most beautiful time of the year. I'm here with you to organize these things, see the colors of the dresses, buffet, salon, guests... There are many things, I need help - she said scratching her head

- I think I understand your point - said Ino, she would certainly be ahead of everything, she just loves these things - We will certainly help you

- Don't worry, Temari, everything will be perfect - I consoled her - We are with you

- Why don't you have the party at Konoha Palace? - Asked Hinata - That hotel is five stars and I heard that the food is delicious

- About food, why don't we bring some typical foods from Suna? - asked Tenten

- I can already imagine everything, it's going to be the most beautiful wedding in the world - sighed Ino - Oh, how I wanted to get married too!

- Temari - I looked her in the eyes and held her hands - You can let us make everything perfect, you will be the most beautiful bride in the world

I could see the tears in her eyes.

- You can concentrate on your parade, we know you're super busy with that - said Ino - Of course we won't do anything without your permission, don't worry

- You're right, Ino... We're about to enter winter and my show is for the winter collection, I'm going crazy, I don't think I'll be able to handle it.

- Of course you will! You're Temari, you never back down or give up on anything - Ino shouted that and it made all of us scream too

- Let's do this together - Hinata agreed

- And you are all invited to the show, you will be my guests - she smiled

That moment was amazing with the girls there and for a second I realized that I didn't think about him, and I failed... He invaded my thoughts, what is he doing? Are you thinking about me, Kakashi?

- Hey, earth for Sakura, are you with us? - asked Tenten

- Y-yes, I'm here - I replied.

- What were you thinking? - Asked Hinata

- In nothing - I lied

- Just say you were thinking about Kakashi... It'll be nicer of you than lying to our faces - said Ino crossing her arms - More than twenty years of friendship and she thinks she's hide something of me

- Kakashi Hatake? Your director? - Said Temari surprised - Shikamaru's friend?

- Yeah, yeah... - I said

- Sakura! When were you going to tell me? Yesterday I thought I saw things back at the restaurant, but then it's true, are they together, Ino? - Asked Temari more relax

- Together? N-no, of course not... We only kissed once and I didn't even know who he was, meeting him at the restaurant was also a coincidence - I lowered my head I was ashamed

- Ah Sakura... Even if he was the Hokage! A man like that... - Tenten said - And you're not going to say anything to him? He wanted to stay with you and he doesn't stay with anyone! You are too lucky!

- Guys, you're just forgetting the main thing, HE IS THE DIRECTOR OF OUR COLLEGE! - I yelled to see if they understood

- So..? - Temari replied dryly

- What's wrong with that? - reaffirmed Ino

- Even if I wanted to, it would give me a lot of headaches, I don't want it for this year - I explained

- So you want! - Temari replied

- And who wouldn't?! If she wants to trade places with me I'll accept - Ino joked

- We have more important and urgent matters to deal with than my love life - I wanted to change the subject

- That's true - Hinata said.

- And Hinata, I need to tell you something... - I started to speak

- You don't need to tell me anything, I know you and Naruto talked today

They all looked at my face as if I had killed someone, and besides they knew that I was with Naruto sometimes, but this time Hinata was involved... Which weighed a lot more on me.

- How did you know? - I asked trying to calm down

- First in the hospital... I noticed the way he looks at you, he has much more affection and today I saw it with my eyes - he said

- Sakura, apologize to Hinata NOW! - screamed Ino - I don't belive! You and Naruto? After all this years?

- She has no reason to apologize to me, Ino - she said - Even if that were the case, the person who should tell me something would be Naruto, and I wouldn't leave my friendship for years for someone I just met

- Ah Hinata - I ran to hug her - First, I want you to know that it was nothing like that, we really talked, we kissed, but it was to show him that we can only be friends, we were born to always be best friends with each other, nothing more than that and... He told me he's been enjoying being with you

Even hugging Hinata, I felt her body get warmer with the last words I spoke, I was happy to have an opening to talk about it with her and I'm grateful that she was so understanding. The other girls stared at us and could see the importance of our friendship. I was extremely grateful for all the friendships I developed with these girls, they were my safe haven. Everything was moving forward, everything was working out. Nothing could stop us now.

- Going back to the subject of the wedding - said Temari - I'll tell you who Shikamaru chose

I was curious about this and I already imagined that he was in the middle, I got goosebumps just thinking about it.

- The first, Neji, followed by Kiba, Naruto and finally Kakashi... Feel free to choose your pairs - Temari said

- I'm not even going to say that I want Kakashi - Ino said with a giggle at the end

- No fun - I said ironically but I really didn't want anyone with him, I don't know why

- Hinata is going with Naruto, of course - I said

- I'm going with Kiba - Ino said - I'm more intimate - she said maliciously

- Looks like you're staying with my cousin, Tenten - Hinata said

- Oh, Tenten, lucky you - Temari said.

- Neji Hyuga is so beautiful and amazing, it must run in the family - I said

- Stop drooling a little Sakura, do you want all the men for yourself? - Ino said with a smirk.

- We're just good friends - Tenten said.

- Drop it! Giving kisses never killed anyone and neither did other things - Ino said

- Ino, how can you be like this? - asked Temari.

- Oh, it's in my blood - she said jokingly.

At that time we all laughed, the mood was too good, we made some more small talk and it started to get dark, Temari sent a message to Shikamaru telling him and the boys to come here to the house so we could have a little social before the day ended. It didn't take long for them to arrive. I thought Kakashi would be with them, but when the boys showed up, I realized he wasn't and I missed him. Am I going crazy? How do I miss someone I've known for two days? And how am I going to tell him we're paired up at Temari's wedding… Will he be okay with that? We would definitely spend more time together now, having to organize things, especially my head...

- Are you wondering why Kakashi is not here? - Shikamaru said accurately, it seemed he was reading me

- It's not like that - I said, trying to hide it

- I don't know where he is either, sometimes he does that, disappears - he concluded - But then he always appears

- I see... It's just that he and I are your godparents and we're going to enter your wedding together - I said - speaking of which, how are you feeling?

- So... - he started speaking low - In the middle of four men you chose him to accompany you, interesting

- Believe me, it wasn't really a choice - I said.

- I know... Anyway, I have nothing to do with it - he sighed - I can't say how I'm feeling, me and Temari already led a married life before she proposed

- That's true - I said - I'm happy for you

- But this woman surprises me every day, I'm a little scared, now everything will be official - he said shaking his head

- Ah Shikamaru, I lived to see you like this, all in love - I squeezed his cheek

- Oh, you're hurting me, mom - he said taking one with my face

- Funny! - I gave him tongue

The hours passed and I felt like the luckiest being in the world to have those people there with me. Everything was in perfect harmony. I kept looking at the sky with its thousands of stars... Could it be that he is seeing the same ones I am? Tomorrow is monday and I still didn't want to meet him, I didn't want to have the conversation he asked me to have, I was still scared of the fact that he was my director. By the way, what would he say? A thousand things are going through my head right now and none of them have a happy ending, and they need to, he and I have a bigger goal, bigger maybe than our feelings, being Temari and Shikamaru's godparents. We couldn't fight or stay without talking, that would be a disaster.

I guess my plan of asking him to forget about everything isn't going to work out very well. But, heavens, I can't, I can't get involved with him like that right now. Like I said — I have bigger reasons — Besides, I don't know him! I know some things but I don't know him. I'm already getting a headache. I didn't want to get involved, I didn't want to stay with him. What's the use of thinking like that? Even I know it's a lie, I'm trying to convince myself of that but I can't. I was lost inside my head until I felt someone pulling me.

- What are you thinking, Sakura? - Kiba asked, almost startling me.

- Nothing, just Temari's wedding and everything else - I replied and smiled at him.

- Yeah... True - he agreed.

- And how are you? Is having fun? - I asked innocently, we were alone in the backyard, I was enjoying the night breeze

- I'm fine, it's been a while since we've seen each other, the group gathered in general - Kibe smiled

- That's true - I smiled too

- You know, Sakura... I always thought you were very pretty - he said

- Ah, thanks Kiba - I blushed - Very kind of you

- What would I have to do to get you to kiss me? Like now? - he asked in the can, I knew Kiba was thrown

- Huh, what do you mean? - I almost choked on my own saliva.

- One kiss, just one - he said - Come on, there's no one looking, it's going to be our secret

At that moment I was thinking about the things I had to lose, which was: nothing. I had no commitment to anyone, I wasn't doing anything at that time and I wasn't going to do anything wrong, or hurt anyone. Ino had already told me about Kiba and how good he was at these things. I just nodded my head and gave him a sly look. He came to me holding my face gently, I put my hands on his shoulders. It was a quick kiss under the moonlight. It wasn't bad, but it wasn't his kiss. Kakashi. Only he knew how to make me feel that way. But anyway, it was there to satisfy whatever it was, Kiba wasn't ugly, he was far from it and it sure made me feel goosebumps. But that was all it was, just a kiss. Nothing more.

- Now I know why Naruto was always running after you - he stopped and stared at me

I must confess that I was feeling very thrown on the boys, but what's wrong with that? Anyway, things with Naruto won't happen anymore, Kiba is... Nothing. So to speak, we're friends, that kiss happened and that's it. After all, I'm a woman and I have needs just like men do, and it's been a while since I've been kissed and wanted like this. Better like that than at square one, and there's him... With him I wanted it to happen again, but I stopped thinking and wanted to concentrate on what I was doing.

- This is just one of the things I know how to do well - I gave a muffled smile and continued kissing him, I was the one who took the initiative this time and I must say that he really liked it

We stayed outside together for another 10 minutes and he said to repeat what had happened, but... I don't think so. He went in and I stayed outside for a while, thinking about life, then I heard one of the girls calling me and I went in... It was late, the boys were saying goodbye. Temari hugged us tight, thanked us for our help, and said she'd be back next weekend so we could straighten things out. We also saw Tenten get on her bike and leave. After me, Ino and Naruto put Hinata to bed, we talked about how the day had been. After that, everyone went to their respective rooms. I took a shower and brushed my teeth, put on my pajamas and started packing my stuff for class the next day and that's when Ino knocked on my door

- Sakura? - she said softly

- Hi - I replied - You can come in

- Can I sleep here with you? Like we did when we were little? - she asked

- Of course - I said - But I take the left side of the bed

- Oh, how you like to tease me! - he said making a grumpy face

- Just let me finish packing my things here and I'm going to bed - I said shaking her head - Go get your pillow

I still had a lot of things to study, this weekend I studied a little, I hope the next one will be easier, the final test is coming and I have to be prepared. I finished things and put everything in my backpack. When I looked at the bed Ino was already sleeping, hugging her pillow, that girl doesn't exist. I wanted to tell her what happened today but I couldn't, her sleep spoke louder. She had also been with Kiba, they had already gone to bed together. But that was a while ago.

I made a space for myself in bed and my thoughts of him have been recurring as soon as I lie down, it's working as if it were on automatic, I lie down and he appears in my head and I keep wanting him here with me. There's something very wrong. I tried once more to put it aside to go to sleep and was unsuccessful, I stayed another half hour before falling asleep. I didn't know what to expect in the next few weeks.