Here is the next chapter hope you all will like it. I have managed to lose my notes on the chapters for this story so I have to start over with the rest of the chapters but I hope that I'll be able to find them soon.

I would love to get to know what you all think of this chapter, the next chapter is half done at the moment I hope to have that written soon.

Chapter 10 Leaving home?

The rest of the day past by just like that and there was nothing more to add, Julie now knew everything that had happened and that meant that Marissa didn't have anything that she had to tell her mother later on.

Well it could be some things that she might have to tell her later on if anything happened and that was something that she wanted to but at the same time she wished that everything would just get on by and it would all be great and no troubles but this being Marissas' life it only meant that she was going to have some troubles.

It was time for them to leave the port for the first time and sailing to the first destination and it looked like they were going to go to LA and stay there for a day or two and then sail alongside the coast down to Mexico and after that Marissa didn't really know and she didn't care that much either all she knew was that they were on the way to start this and that this was a year that she was going to remember both the good things and the bad things. And as for now it felt like there was just good things that would be coming her way.

She had a year that she could spend with her father and that was something that she was looking forward to and had for the longest time and something that was even better was the chance that she had to make something right with Alex. Sure at the moment they had agreed to be friends and that was a start and a good one.

This was like leaving home for the first time and it felt right.

"Marissa, are you ready for this we are leaving in an hour?" Jimmy asked as he walked up to his daughter.

"I have never been more ready in my entire life and I can't wait." Marissa answered and looked out the window in her room seeing the ocean and her thoughts began to drift to her friends that still was in Newport and that would be starting college in the fall and to her family, her mother and sister that still was in Newport too and to Alex that was here with her and the fact that they would be spending a lot of time together and she wanted to know where all of this was headed.

Down at the beach

Alex was sitting alone and all that she could think of was Marissa. She thought that she never would see the girl again and she had been so sure that she was over the lanky brunette but that was as far from the truth that she could come and she knew it.

This was not the life she had hoped for this coming year that she was going to sail just to get her priorities straight as she had told her parents. She needed the time to think, to deiced where she wanted to go to college and more importantly what her major was going to be.

Alex knew that she wanted to own a bar but at the same time she didn't want all of that alone, she wanted someone there with her and she now knew that it was Marissa that she wanted there when it all came down.

She had told the girl that she wanted to be friends but she knew that was something that never was going to happen, Alex knew that she never could be just friends with the lanky brunette. She had known in her heart that the moment that Marissa had confessed to the fact that she had loved her back then and still did and that the biggest reason that she had for the whole thing she did with getting closer to Ryan had been to the fact that she had been afraid.

The brunette had been afraid of her own feelings and besides the fact that the girl knew that and she could confess that and knew that she couldn't blame Alex for all of that showed how much Marissa had grown during this time they had been apart.

Alex knew that there was just one thing that she could do from now on and that was telling Marissa the truth but at the same time she knew better than throwing herself in a relationship with the girl just like that once again. There needed to be some foundation that they could build the relationship on this time because she knew that if it didn't work this time it never would and she wasn't sure if she could bounce back this time. It had been hard enough the last time.

But that was something she hadn't told Marissa or anyone else that might tell the brunette. Jodie was the only one that knew about that part but she wasn't here but then again she was supposed to be and that might have helped the blonde.

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It was time for all of them to board the boat and Marissa hadn't had a chance to talk to Alex and this was it, she didn't know where this was going to go. Sure they knew that they wanted to be friends but at the same time the two of them knew that there was no chance of that happening.

It was more of a question of when all of this was going to fall apart even more than it already had or that they would hook up and be together and that could lead to other problems.

Marissa was just walking around on the boat, thinking of how she would approach Alex so that she could talk to the blonde she knew that it was something she needed to do before they got to Los Angles, that meant that if they got to the conclusion that this wasn't going to work one of the could leave the boat and that was highly likely Marissa.

"Alex!" Marissa said as she saw the blonde standing at the railing just looking out. Alex turned around to see who it was that said her name; she kind of had a feeling that it would be Marissa.

"Rissa." Alex said just to let the brunette know that she had heard and let Marissa know that she could approach her.

"So, I know that we talked before and then something happened and I don't know what that was and I think that we kind of need to talk about that fact." Marissa rambled and she would have continued if Alex hadn't stopped her.

"You are right." Alex said and continued "Why don't we go to one of the tables so that we don't need to stand and mostly so that neither of us has the need to throw the other one over board I don't think that would be so appreciated by either of us."

"I couldn't agree with you more there." Marissa said and they had finally made peace for the time being. "So that means that we can both be on this boat until we get to the next harbor and then we have to make a new decision."

Alex just nodded when she heard what Marissa said, but deep down she knew that this was not going to go as easy as the two girls was hoping.

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Jimmy had heard the two girls talk, not that he had listened but when you pass by your daughter and her friend talking.

And the two of them are trying to solve something, and then you have to listen just to see if there will be a solution for them, and as far as Jimmy could tell it looked like they had made some kind of progress, meaning that they both were going to continue this trip.

Jimmy had a feeling that this meant much to Marissa, the fact that they had gotten this solution. He had seen how happy his daughter had been at first when she had realized that Alex was the one that was going with her and she had been even happier when the two girls had started to talk and work on some issues that were in the way for them. He had seen how bad Marissa had felt before she had talk to Alex again and explained this.

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The first day of sailing passed pretty fast and nothing major happened during the day and it was time for dinner.

Marissa and Alex hadn't spend that much time together and there for not been talking that much so this was going to be interesting to see if there was something that they would be able to do.

"Kiddo how was your first day?" Jimmy greeted his daughter when he saw her coming to the table.

"It was okay, it was some things that were kind of hard but I think that it will be better later on." Marissa said, and when she thought about it, it had been pretty fun.

"I can guess but I'm sure that you will get the hand of it." Jimmy said and smiled, he was happy that Marissa would be staying and he hoped that she would be enjoying this too.

"I know, but it was kind of new all of this, I mean I'm kind of tiered, I'm not used to work." Marissa said and she couldn't believe that she said that.

Alex walked in she saw that Marissa and Jimmy were talking and she didn't want to disturb them but she wanted to sit somewhere and have a chance to talk to Marissa.

"Hello Alex." Jimmy said as he saw the blonde come walking, "you can take a seat here."

"Hi and thanks I just needed somewhere to sit." Alex said and she smiled, this could work out if it was like this every day.

"So how was your first day? Marissa is complaining about the fact that she is tiered." Jimmy said and smiled. He was nice and that was something that Alex had noticed, he was nothing like Julie, the blonde still had some problems to see that relationship.

"It was pretty good and I do understand where Rissa is coming from." Alex said and looked at Marissa and the brunette smiled she was happy that it seemed like the two of them would be able to hold a normal conversation.

"So do you think that you'll like it here?" Jimmy asked he wanted to help the girls to have the conversation going so that it wouldn't be any annoying silences' during this conversation.

"Yeah, when I get the hang of all of this stuff that I need to do and all of the terms. I was going to clean the floors and when I said that some of the men that work here just looked at me like I was crazy." Alex said and laughed when she thought about her day.

"I know what you mean, I had the same problem I wanted some directions on how I was supposed to go to get to one of the rooms and they started to talk about going to the starboard and port and I wanted them to tell me in left and right but that was something that they wouldn't do." Marissa said and smiled maybe this was going to go okay after all.

They three of them continued to talk and have fun and Jimmy got to know Alex a lot better and he found out about a lot of the things that they had done together and some things that Julie didn't know and he had promised that he wouldn't tell his ex-wife anything about those things.