I woke up the next morning to find myself in Yuka's bed. The sun seemed to be shining to bright and my head was pounding. Hangover.
I sat up slowly trying to remember what happened last night. Without warning memories flew through my head. I still remembered everything including the part with Inuyasha.
I got up and found that I still barely had anything on. I walked over to Yuka's closet picking out whatever I could get my hands on first. Guessing that Yuka went all the way and probably wouldn't be up for the next four hours, I headed out of the room.
When I reached the stairs I stopped horrified; cups, beer bottles, food, everything that we had put out for the party was now on the floor. I don't stand there for long, I have to keep going, I have to keep remembering last night, I have to do this before I would forget.
I walk past the mess on the floor. A few people lay there asleep probably too drunk to bicycle home last night. But I had been the exact same way. How could I look down on people knowing that I was just as bad, maybe even worse?
Running out of the house I jump onto my bike. As I ride through the forest I remember how I felt as if someone was watching me. It must have been Inuyasha. He must have been there looking over me. Tears started to weld up into my eyes making it hard to see. I brushed them away and tried to think of something else so that I wouldn't end up crashing into tree.
Unfortunately, it was harder than I thought. My mind kept drifting to Inuyasha. Swerving in and out of the many other bicyclers I thought about how ignorant, how shallow how stupid I had been the last few days. I had thought of no one but myself. I was so ashamed and tired and my head was killing me. I just want to go back in time and stop myself from ever wishing for this life.
Finally, reaching my house I run up the stairs to the shrine that held the well. I have this feeling that Inuyasha had been there and I don't need facts to confirm it. The well must have started to work again.
I took a deep breath and brushed away the tears that kept reappearing. I was going to face Inuyasha; I was going to tell him that I was sorry and that I loved him. Before I could talk myself out of it, I jump into the well.
The bottom of the well hit my feet. The feeling wasn't right it brought back déjà of the last time the well didn't work. I pulled myself up hoping that I was wrong, hoping that I did make it to the feudal era.
But as I get out of the well my heart sinks for I don't see any fields or trees… all I see is a wooden shrine.
I forced my legs to walk to carry me outside the shrine and towards my house. My head was starting to pound but this time I could tell it wasn't just from the hangover it was also from the Sacred Jewel. It was working its horrible magic, making my memory fade.
I began to walk faster; I knew I didn't have that much time left before the memories would disappear completely.
I opened the door to my house and start for the stairs hoping to sneak in before my mom can interrogate me.
"Kagome?" I heard her call from the kitchen. Great.
"Yes," I call back hoping that she doesn't come near me and smell the stench of stale liquor that surrounds me.
"How was it at Yuka's house? Did you have fun? Did you guys stay up late? How are her parents?" She asks question after question not even waiting for me to answer.
"It was great mom. We did stay up pretty late and her parents are fine. I'm going to go up stairs and take a shower I feel really gross," I say trying to make my quick escape.
I'm already all the way up the stairs when she replies, "OK, but then you have to tell me all about your day."
I close the door to my room and go into the bathroom. I turn on the shower and while waiting for it to warm up I look at myself in the mirror. I look horrible, my hair is an absolute mess and I have great big dark lines under my eyes. Not being able to take much more of my reflection I step into the hot shower.
I close my eyes as the water runs down my body. I had to get this stench off of me. I grabbed the bar of soap that I usually never use and rubbed all over me.
I wasn't really thinking about anything in particular when a thought crept into my head. A one word thought. Inuyasha.
I couldn't believe it! I had almost forgotten. I had forgotten. My head started to pound punishing me for remembering again but I ignored it.
Jumping out of the shower, I dry myself off and through on Yuka's clothes again.
I pull out a piece of and start to scribble down my letter before I would forget. Everything I needed to say to Inuyasha I put it down. My head was pounding, making it hard to remember. Tears flooded my eyes but I didn't let them stop me from writing.
It wasn't very good but I didn't have much time. I reread it making sure at least it made a little bit of since:
Inuyasha, I love you. And what you saw there was nothing. I was drunk and I wasn't myself and I know that none of what I am saying is helping at all. I'm sorry I really truly am. I love you and only you. If I could go over to the feudal era and tell you I would but I think the Sacred Jewel won't let me. I know I shouldn't ask this from you but please don't give up on me. If I don't remember you please don't run away from me. Help me remember. I'm so scared Inuyasha. I need you. Every time I forget you it gets harder to remember you again. I don't want to forget you completely. Please Inuyasha BRING ME BACK.
-I love you with all my heart
Kagome
Finally when I was finished I folded it up and put it in an envelope that had Inuyasha's name on the outside.
I walked down the stairs repeating Inuyasha in my head so I wouldn't forget. At the same time I was trying to stop myself from bawling. It was a pretty hard task.
"Hey Kagome, want to play hero and villain?" Souta asks. He's blocking the front door so I can't get out without messing with him first.
"I can't maybe some other time just not right now, please let me pass. I really need to send this letter before it's too late." Or before I forget, I add to myself. I follow his eyes to see them looking down at what is in my hand. I quickly cover the name.
"Since when do you send letters," he says testing me.
It takes all my self-restraint not to shove him so hard that he hits the floor as I walk past him and to the door. "Since now," I reply letting the door close on his face.
I nearly run to the shrine. Once I get there though I can't make myself run anymore. I slowly walk down the steps and to the well. Before putting the letter down I kiss the envelope and hope that Inuyasha will receive this, that he will forgive me and save me.
It's as if the world moves in slow motion. When I bend over, put the letter down and walk away, it seems as if I'm moving through jell-o.
I keep on walking straight not wanting to go inside the house just yet. My memories of Inuyasha start to seem more like a dream.
Stepping over the fence that surrounded the sacred tree, I walk up to it.
Uncontrollable tears streamed down my face. I felt as if someone had punched a hole through me chest. I felt so afraid and alone. I held out my hand touching the rough edges of the bark remembering when I first went to the feudal era and met Inuyasha.
My knees clasped and I fell to the floor crying. Why? Why did I have to make that stupid wish? I hate the Sacred Jewel for doing this to me!
"I hate it so much!" I screamed out into the air. I hit the tree with my fist not very hard but pain still shot up my arm. I look down at my knuckle to see I happened to hit the one that was already black and blue.
So I sit there and cry and cry. Dreading the moment the memories completely disappear.
But as time passes the pain begins to subside. Wiping the tears away from my eyes, I wonder why I was so worried. It wouldn't be so bad to forget. It would be so much easier.
I look out into the sky and am surprised to see that the sun is almost down. I shiver as the breeze rolls by. My hair is still wet from the shower.
I get up and brush the dirt of my clothes, well Yuka's clothes. Walking back to the house, I wonder why I even went outside in the first place.