I sit in the corner of the room, thinking about what Kaede just told me.

Apparently Kaede remembers nothing of that day, but that she does remember much of what Kikyou told her. She told me that Kikyou would never smile that whenever she did, her smile did not reach her eyes. Kaede said it hurt her to see Kikyou so depressed and know that she could do nothing to help it.

When they finally obtained the Sacred Jewel, Kaede and Kikyou would never stay in one place for a long time. Kikyou always said it was too dangerous to stay in one village for more than a month at a time. She told Kaede it was their responsibility to protect the Sacred Jewel and the people. That was before Inuyasha came into the picture.

"I remember the night after my sister first saw Inuyasha. There was a spring to her step and brightness in her eyes that I had never seen before," Kaede told me. "Ye would never understand how much I envied Inuyasha. He somehow gave my sister the happiness I never could. I was glad that my sister was enjoying herself but I wished it was me giving her that joy instead of him."

After weeks of being at this one village Kaede finally asked Kikyou if they were going to move. Kikyou smiled and told Kaede a little longer.

"It was then that I realized that the moving wasn't just for the villager's sake, it was also for Kikyou to finally find someplace where she felt she belonged," Kaede had said to me. Her voice was soft and sad.

I shook my head and stood up. I couldn't help but think that in many ways Kikyou deserved Inuyasha a lot more than I did. But now it is the time to face Inuyasha and to know the truth.

I step outside and see him sitting against the house. His eyes look me over warily.

"Come with me," Inuyasha whispers and he leads me into the forest. We walk in silence Inuyasha a little in front of me. This situation kind of reminds me of before I stole the Jewel and one of my dreams. I reject that thought not wanting to think about all that crap right now.

We walk for a while. For too long, I stop and cross my arms saying, "Stop wasting time, Inuyasha. If you're going to tell me then tell me right here right now."

Inuyasha sighs and sits down motioning for me to sit down beside him. I quietly obey watching him intently.

"So I guess I'll start from when you passed out…"

And so I sit the story unfolding right in front of me-

"Inu-Inu-" Kagome called her eyes barely open. Her voice was breathless as if she couldn't get any air. The Sacred Jewel shown black beside her slowly disappearing from sight.

"Kagome, what did you do? What happened? Answer me," I called to her. It was no use I doubted she could even hear me know. I was about to get up and take Kagome with me finding help when a bright light bursts from her. I knew that light, I'd seen it before.

Kagome's soul flew through the air hitting Kikyou's ashes. Everything happened so fast. Kikyou, now before me healthy and alive, walked slowly toward me. I forget that Kagome was in my arms till Kikyou placed her hand on Kagome's shoulder.

"Kikyou," I whisper. I laid Kagome on the ground and Kikyou shifted so she is sitting beside her. I went to hug Kikyou; she seemed to be glowing with energy.

"Inuyasha, I've missed you," she whispered a smile playing across her face.

I've missed that smile. I leaned in for a kiss wrapping my arms around her. Kikyou only wrapped one arm around me though. Confused I start to lean away, trying to understand why she isn't as affectionate. My eyes dropped down to Kagome.

She laid on the ground, her face lined with sweat, skin ice cold. Her cheeks were a scary pale color, her usual lovely blush gone. I could barely hear her heart beat or her breathing. Kikyou's hand was still placed on Kagome's shoulder sucking the life out of her.

I pushed Kikyou away. "What are you doing? You can't kill her!" I hissed through my teeth.

"Getting the rest of my soul!" Kikyou cried pushing against me. But I couldn't let her get past; I wouldn't let her kill Kagome.

"Don't you love me anymore? Don't you want me to be alive?" Kikyou screamed at me tears start to stream down her face. She was not pushing against me anymore. Kikyou held me close to her.

"Kikyou," I murmured holding her as close as I can to me. I didn't want to fight, I just wanted to be with her. An unrecognizable feeling bubbled up into me but I ignored it.

"Inuyasha," she whispered in a seductive voice, "let's runaway. Come with me."

Without thinking I replied, "Of course."

Kikyou stood. "Then let us go."

I looked down at Kagome. She looked horrible. What was I doing? She was dying right in front of me and I didn't do anything about it. Kikyou was killing her, taking me away from her and I wasn't doing anything.

"What about Kagome?" I whispered tearing my eyes away from Kagome's limp body to Kikyou's healthy figure.

Kikyou gave me a look that pretty much said that it I had to choose between Kagome or her. I gritted my teeth, took a few steps away from Kagome, and motioned for Kikyou to get on my back.

Pleased, Kikyou hopped on. It felt wrong to be leaving Kagome all alone and to have Kikyou on my back. I whispered only audible to me, "Forgive me," and runaway from her.

The first month or so I couldn't enjoy myself. Every time I saw Kikyou all I could think about was Kagome. It reminded me the first time I met Kagome, only seeing Kikyou in her face. But soon Kikyou started to remind of the time before Nuraku. She told me the stories of us and how I changed everything for her. Telling me that I was her everything.

Between those stories and time I started to see Kikyou as she really was. Not with Kagome attached. It was the first time I really started doing that. Every day, every second, there wasn't a reminder of Kagome in her.

The next few months went by quickly. I thought I was falling in love again. I thought I was going to be with Kikyou forever. But by the end of the fifth month, things change.

I always thought that Kikyou was the only person I needed but that was before Kagome. Then I never saw Kagome as just Kagome or Kikyou as just Kikyou. I thought I knew the difference between them but now I realized. Like how when I got angry Kagome gave me attitude back and got over it quick but with Kikyou, she would be depressed for days. That when Kagome smiled there was a life it that flowed her around.

I was thinking about this for weeks trying to decipher my feelings. I sat in a tree that looked over the river. I was no longer watching Kikyou clean the clothes but lost in my thoughts of Kagome. Wondering, more of hoping that she would be alive.

"Inuyasha," I heard Kikyou call pulling me out of my thoughts.

I rushed down and helped Kikyou walk back to the village. She had gotten weaker in the past months because she didn't take the rest of Kagome's soul. We had to keep traveling farther and farther away from the village. I didn't regret stopping her. That's what confused me; I would rather have Kikyou suffering everyday then Kagome's death. Before last month I would have said it was because I didn't want a friend to die but now I'm not sure.

Kikyou pointed me to a different path. I nodded and led her over, a little confused. We didn't talk and soon the silence became unbearable. I was about to break it when she said, "Let us stop here so I can rest."

She sat down slowly letting out a quiet cry. I kneeled beside her. Trying to make her feel better but not sure how.

"Inuyasha, I must not stay much longer," she tried to say firmly but I could see past that act. She couldn't go anywhere, she could barely walk.

"What do you mean?" I asked taking her hand in mine.

"I mean that when your friend Kagome gave me part of her soul, it is not enough for me to survive."

But she was surviving alright right now. I didn't want her to disappear. "Kikyou, no you can't go, you can't leave me."

"Inuyasha, if you were to go back and repeat bringing me back to life would you? If you had the knowledge that it was the only way to have me but it may kill Kagome in the process."

I couldn't meet Kikyou's eyes. I knew the answer to that… I would have never even considered it.

Kikyou continued on, "I cannot change fate and neither can you. Not even the Sacred Jewel can. My fate was to die fifty years ago. Yours was to stay alive, to defeat Naraku, to…" She paused for a moment as if what she was about to say would pain her, "be with Kagome."

That's all it took; for me to sort out the confusion I've been feeling. I always knew what Kikyou just said was true but I guess I was just too stupid to fully understand it. I stared at Kikyou suddenly feeling terrible. She was going to be left behind; without even knowing it I had used her.

She stood up and turned away from me. "Now go get her," Kikyou whispered her voice shaking ever so slightly, "go find her."

"Will you be here when I get back?" I asked. Wanting to come back to make sure she is fine.

Kikyou turned slowly facing me again; a weak smile plastered on her face. She put her hand on my chest, right where my heart was. "I'll be right here."

I wanted to hug her or somehow comfort that sad faced girl but I don't. Partly because she is now walking away but mainly for I have Kagome now.

"You better hurry," Kikyou called over her shoulder, "for she may not have much time left."

Panic hits me. Was Kagome still not awake? Was she going to die? With those thoughts still in my head I ran to go save her.

Ok so I can't believe its taken me soooo long to update this story! I guess its just with school and everything. I also had to go back and do some research on my story because I dont know if you've realized but I started out with this story having a total different plan and by the fifth, sixth chapter I changed it. I hope you like this chapter. The ending wasnt my personal favorite but yah! I'm sorry for updating it so late but I'll try to update it sooner next time!