I stare blankly at Inuyasha as he finishes his story. "So then I ran in and well you know the rest," he finishes sheepishly.
I sit there numb, my mind completely blank.
"I know it's kind of a lot to process but I chose you. Even if Kikyou were still alive it would still be with you," Inuyasha whispers quietly.
Inuyasha's words go through one ear and out the other. I can't think but soon an emotion started to boil in me. It slowly starts to heat me up. My anger fueled by the fact that Inuyasha left me.
My voice is soft as I say, "You left me when I was going to die, I did something for you and you left me to die."
"No, no its not—" but I cut him off.
"When I was lying there dying, you were loving Kikyou. Koga's right, now that one's gone you move on to the next," I say my voice as cold as ice.
"No that wolf is wrong! I love you not Kikyou."
"Then why didn't you come to me sooner? Why did you just leave me?" I start to yell anger rising in me.
"Hey, I stopped Kikyou from taking all your soul didn't I? And the others found you!" Inuyasha's anger rising as well. But he shouldn't be the one angry, I should be. He should be the one feeling bad.
"What hell? You're lucky they found me alive." I snap back.
"I'm lucky? You're lucky! You would have been dead! You should be on your knees thanking me for waking you up!" Inuyasha yells.
I can't believe he just said that. I glare at him emotions filling me up, anger, disbelief, betrayal, sadness, frustration and a bunch others that I can't explain. Tears that I can't stop flood my eyes and poor out. Inuyasha's face falls.
"Kagome, no don't cry. I'm sorry," Inuyasha whispers trying to put an arm around me but I push it away.
I stand up the anger now pulsing through me even stronger. "I can't believe it! Inuyasha you might as well go back to where ever Kikyou is because I hate you! I don't even want to deal with you," I yell at him. Tears keep flooding my eyes as I walk away from that jerk.
"Kagome! Kagome!" He calls anger rising in his voice every second. Well be it then. I didn't care; he could hate me all he wanted. "Aren't you going to tell me to sit?" He dares me.
I stop and push away all the tears off my face. Taking a deep breath, I turn around. I glare at him taking in the way he's standing cocky confidence in himself. I can see a smirk on his face. "I know you want to. I know your dying to hurt me."
"No," I whisper knowing he can hear me and all the hatred in my voice, "you're not even worth it." I turn back around and walk away ignoring his calls. I make sure that no tears escape me as I walk somewhere deep into the forest not wanting to see anyone.
When I think I'm far enough away I slump to the floor and cry. Inuyasha was so mean, so inconsiderate. I just couldn't stand him. I mean the least he could have done was taken my yelling it's almost as if he doesn't even care anymore.
After awhile of crying, I take a shaky breath and stand up. Stepping forward, I make my way back to the village. I'm determined to not shed another tear about him. I am not going to be the one depressed.
"Kagome!" Shippo yells jumping onto my back.
"Hey Shippo! What's up?" I ask glad that I had made sure no tears were still in my eyes.
"Oh just training to be a full fledge fox demon! See look how good I've gotten!" Shippo exclaims pulling out a top.
Then he yells fox magic and I watch as the top grows a thousand times bigger and spins around us. The force from the top causes my hair to fly around my face and causes my shirt and skirt to fly up. I silently thank that only Shippo is around to see this. I push my skirt down and laugh in embarrassment.
"See I can control it better," Shippo says with a smile not realizing how embarrassed I am. The top shrinks to normal size and jumps back into his hand. "Come on let's go to the hut."
He's about to go when he looks at a tree and then quickly looks away. "Oh yah," he mumbles and then looks back at me, "Uh…. Ummm." Shippo pauses to turn back at the tree.
"Wait a second Kagome." He says running behind the tree.
I stand with my arms crossed eyes glaring at the now whispering tree. I quickly walk up to it.
"I'm supposed to ask how you guys do it?" Shippo says loudly completely confused.
"No, no, no," I hear Inuyasha's voice whisper back.
I walk up just as Shippo says, "Well speak louder I can't hear you!"
I walk up to see Inuyasha bent down to Shippo; Inuyasha's facing toward me and Shippo's turned toward him.
"Care to explain what's going on?" I glare down at Inuyasha. They both turn guiltily to me at the same time.
Before Inuyasha can open his mouth Shippo exclaims, "Inuyasha saw you crying so then he asked me to ask you something. He was watching the whole time!"
My glare shifts to Shippo, "So you went along with him. Why couldn't Inuyasha tell me?"
Then my mind starts to process what Shippo just said 'He was watching the whole time!' The whole time… the top… my skirt… my shirt…
"You pervert!" I scream at Inuyasha jumping back all the sudden feeling exposed.
"Wha—" Inuyasha starts to say but Shippo screams over him.
"This wasn't my fault! I didn't do it!" Shippo runs away crying. Great another problem I have to fix.
I focus my attention back at the perv. He has his hand stretched out. "Kagome, what? I don't understand. What's a pervert?"
I shake my head. "I know you saw when the gust of wind blew," I accuse crossing my arms.
I watch as his face slowly starts to decipher my words. "Oh that," he mumbles looking away, "I turned away I promise."
There's a long pause as I just stare at him. "Damn Shippo," Inuyasha mumbles still looking down, "should have never trusted him."
"Sit boy!" I yell. He is not going to blame other people for what he did.
Inuyasha goes smashing to the ground. "Oh so I'm worth sitting now?" I hear him mumble in pain.
"Sit boy, sit boy, sit boy!" I yell.
"Why Kagome?" He whispers.
"One of those was for seeing under my shirt and skirt. The other was for blaming this all on Shippo. And the last was for you to quite being such a jerk!"
There's a long silence as I watch with glaring eye when he gets up and brushes himself off. Then he walks over to me. "Kagome," he whispers, "I'm sorry for what I did. I am sorry that I left you and yelled at you back there. That was so wrong of me. I'm sorry that I had Shippo do everything and blamed it on him. I promise I didn't see anything."
I look up at him; his face is so sincere and so believable all I can manage is to weakly snap back, "I'm sorry your apology was so long."
A sad smile appears on Inuyasha's face. "I know you have more to apologize for but we'll get to that later."
"What are you talking about?" I yell. I shouldn't be the one to apologize. I can't even think what I'm supposed to apologize for in the first place!
Inuyasha's eyes acquire an angry flame but he quickly puts it out. I roll my eyes, "Oh so know you're the calm one here."
He takes a deep breath trying to prevent himself from yelling. "Kagome," he says with a nice smile on his face. His golden eyes have the softness I love. I'm getting stuck in his trap.
"Kagome. I know you don't believe me or trust me but I love you. I know it took me forever to realize that," He pauses as if waiting for me to say, 'That's for sure.' And believe me I'm trying to but without knowing it, Inuyasha has me bounded. I'm bounded so tight I can't more or even talk all I can do is stare blankly at him. He decides to just go on, "if you asked me to go find Kikyou and be with her, I wouldn't be able to. I only want to be with you."
Everything about him is so sincere. I look away. Inuyasha's hand reaches out and touches my cheek. "Please," he whispers.
I am falling, falling fast. This isn't fair he had the upper hand. I mean, he had Kikyou to figure out what buttons to push. I shake my head.
"No, I can't forgive you. Not today at least. Maybe in a few days maybe but… but not today," I finally look up at him. His eyes are sad and all I want to do is to hug him saying I how much I really did forgive him but I can't. I can't let him get off that easily.
Inuyasha lifts up my head and kisses my forehead as if already knowing that the fight is over. That now I'm just trying to buy time.
"We better get going. It's getting pretty dark," Inuyasha says observantly
We start our walk back. I realize for the first time how late it has gotten. We both look at the sun set. The colors pink, red and orange engulf the sky. I stare up in wonder never remembering seeing such a fabulous view in the modern day era.
I catch Inuyasha smiling at my amazement. I smile back. We head back to the village, both for a first time in awhile peaceful.
