I woke up early that morning, but didn't move a muscle. I didn't even bother to open my eyes. I was too perfectly content in Jacob's arms.
I thought about when I was little, and we used to play hide-and-seek. And this once, when things got out of hand…
We were playing on the beach, and he was about to start counting.
"Wait, Ness. Before you go, remember not to go too far into the forest. Not past the first three trees, okay?"
"Mmhmm, I won't, Jakey. Promise."
"Alright." He closed his eyes. "One… Two… Three..." I ran off into the woods, and quickly hid behind the second tree, being careful to obey his rules. But then, after about 20 seconds, I heard him coming closer. And I ran. Deeper into the woods.
It scared the heck out of me when I was knocked off my feet. But it was Jake, and he crushed me to his chest.
"Renesmee! I told you not to go past the third tree!" He yelled. And Jacob almost never yelled. Especially at me.
"I... I know.." I wasn't quite sure what to say.
"You promised, Ness! Promised me! We're on newborn alert! You could've gotten hurt!"
"I know, Jakey!" I was sobbing now, "I'm sorry!" He was taking deep breathes now, trying to calm himself.
"I just... I can't loose you, Nessie. You can't do that to me…" I would've sworn I saw a tear roll down his cheek.
"I'm sorry!" I wrapped my arms tight around his neck.
I thought about what he had said, about not loosing me. I realized I couldn't loose him either. What would I do without him? I felt a tear roll down my cheek, and suddenly Jacob shifted under me.
"Ness?" He said, sleepily. "Renesmee, what's wrong!?" I turned myself around in his arms, so I was hugging him tight.
"Jacob, don't ever leave me!" I wasn't sure when it happened, but suddenly there was tears flooding down my cheeks. He hugged me back, seeming surprised.
"Ness… why the… what…" He seemed at a loss for words. "Why… why would you ever… even… think that I would do that?"
"I just can't loose you, Jacob! I can't!" I sobbed, still hugging him.
"You need to listen to me, Renesmee. I would never, ever leave you. I couldn't. Ever. I mean… even if you left me… I don't think you understand. I physically can not stay away from you. If I weren't with you… I wouldn't even be able to breathe. I would hurt too much. I am being serious. I couldn't take more than three breathes without collapsing…"
I just continued crying into his chest, until I calmed down enough to control my breathing and stop my tears. I pulled away from him and looked into his eyes.
"I love you, Jacob. So much I can't even explain it to you. You just give my heart the weirdest, most amazing feeling."
"I love you, too, Renesmee. I can't explain it either, but you're my whole life. I don't know what I would do without you. No, I wouldn't do anything. I couldn't. You mean everything to me, Ness. All I want to do is hold you, all the time. I'm never truly happily unless I'm with you. Everything you say, everything you do, is so perfect. Everything about you is so indescribable."
I blushed and kissed his cheek. "What do you want to do today, Jake?"
"Uh, the beach?" He asked, nodding toward the back door, where our private beach waited outside.
"Sure, Jake." I smiled. "Sounds great! How about you get something to eat, while I shower and get a bathing suit on?"
"Alright, I could go for some food." He agreed. I laughed and kissed him quickly, before skipping upstairs.
I rushed through my shower, knowing Jacob was probably already getting ready. I washed out my hair, and shut off the water.
I dried off fast and grabbed a dark red bikini, slipping it on. I brushed out my hair, too, not bothering to dry it, and then skipped down the steps, slipping down them.
Jacob caught me at the bottom. "You okay, beautiful?" He asked me, sweetly.
I nodded. "Mhm." I looked him up and down. "You're not ready yet."
"I made eggs. Took me a while."
"Oh, okay."
"I'll meet you on the beach." He winked and went upstairs to grab his bag. I giggled and went out the backdoor, seeing a towel already laid out.
"Aw." I said to myself. "Jake's so sweet." I lay down on the towel, propping one of my knees up. I felt a warm hand trail up my stomach, and I moaned lightly, opening my eyes. Jacob kissed my lips warmly.
"I love it when you sparkle." He winked.
"Do you?"
"I do."
"And what do you think of this bikini? Is it your favorite so far?"
"Well, the deep red is pretty sexy." He nodded. "But you look beautiful in everything, baby." I giggled and pushed his shoulder, so he was lying on the sand, and I moved on top of him, kissing him romantically.
His hands drifted down my body, and I slowly slid my tongue in his mouth, tasting him. And it was amazing. His taste was as addictive as his scent. But as I did this, his breathing hitched, and he dueled his tongue with mine. "Ness-" He gasped in between strong kisses. He grasped my hips, hard enough that it would have left serious bruises on a human.
"Hm?" I asked, not letting my lips leave his.
"Nessie-" He gasped again, as I straddled his waist, "We- You…" I kissed him a little harder, as I rubbed my hips against him, slowly loosing my control. "You gotta stop…" He continued, yet didn't stop kissing me. "You don't know what you're doing to me… I can't handle it… Please, Nessie…" I wasn't quite sure what he meant by that, but I let him go, rolling over next to him.
We both lay there, gasping for air.
"Shit, Ness. What. The hell was that? Where did that come from?"
"I… don't know…" I breathed. I really had no idea where it came from. A sudden confidence boost? I wasn't sure.
"Damn… It was pretty freaking amazing."
I bit my lip, and smiled shyly. "You think so?"
"Hell ya. My god, Renesmee… I was about to loose it…" He wrapped his arm around me, pulling my closer. "I mean, I always want you, but I was about to take you if you didn't stop…"
I giggled. "My dad is going to kill us. I won't be able to keep this out of my head."
"It'll be worse when he sees it in my mind. Sees what was going through my head…"
"Do you want to tell me what was going through your brain…?"
"Uh… Not really…"
"Hmph."
"Don't worry about it, Ness."
"Okay," I sighed, and rested my head against his chest. "I love you, Jakey."
"I love ya, too, Ness." He exhaled, kissing the top of my head, holding me tighter. "You're mine, promise?"
"Of course I do. And you're mine. You don't even have a choice." I giggled.
"I don't want one. I don't want to be anyone's but yours."
"Question, though. Who else's would I be? Why would you even have to clarify that?"
"Just thinkin' about that day at the bonfire… I'm kind of mad that Em got to touch your butt before I did." He grinned.
I smiled innocently, and grabbed his hand from my back, moving it down lower, to my butt. He grinned and squeezed it once, making me giggle.
"It didn't have nearly the same effect when Embry did it." I admitted. "When he did it, it was just obnoxious. And annoying. But when you did it…" I giggled again.
He rolled his eyes and kissed my forehead. "You're right. Ed's gonna kill us."