Nessie and I swam around that day, and hung at the beach until it got dark. Now we were lying on the bed upstairs, watching TV.
She hopped up. "I'm gonna change."
"Okay," I said as I began getting up.
"No, Jake, you can stay. I'll go change in the bathroom."
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah, It's fine." She said, before she grabbed a bag, and headed in the bathroom.
I was so lucky to have her. I don't deserve her. I don't know how I was lucky enough to get her…
"Jake?" She called from the bathroom a minute later. "I'm going to shower really quick, okay?"
"Sure, Sure."
I heard the shower start up, and turned my attention back to the TV. I didn't even really know what I was watching. It didn't matter, though. I wasn't paying attention.
About ten minutes later, the water shut off, and I turned off the TV. But what happened next… I can't even tell you what I think of what happened next…
Renesmee walked out, and I could smell her sweet scent from there. She smelled like coconuts and strawberry. I smiled at the scent and turned to look at her. My eyes widened.
Steam was rising off her body, and her beautiful red hair was still wet, resting on her shoulders. She was wearing a really short black silky dress like thing. And let's just say it didn't leave much to the imagination. It cut low down her chest, and didn't even go to the middle of her thigh.
She walked back toward the bed, not looking at me. I think she was trying to act like she didn't know what she was doing to me. But the smile playing on her lips showed that she did. She took swift steps back, walking fast. But to me, it all played out in slow motion.
She lay on the bed next to me. Much too close, but way too far away. The strap of her lingerie was down her shoulder.
I looked at her. Her bright eyes, her kinked damp hair, down her soft neck, her perfect chest, rising and falling and she took deep breaths, the curve of her side, and her small waist. She popped up her knee, and the bottom of the dress, began drifting up… I felt a stirring in my lap.
I couldn't take it anymore. I met her lips, hungrily, and moved her on my lap. She straddled me again, kissing me hard. The tip of her tongue traced mine, and I slipped mine in her cool mouth. My warm tongue, on her cold one, made the most amazing sensation.
She started rubbing her hips against mine, making me harder, and making my blood rush. My hand started drifting up her nightgown… Higher and higher…
Jacob! I thought to myself, Stop! Before it gets too far! Stop now! I took my hand back and gripped her hips. God… What she was doing felt so good… I can't stop her…
I tilted my head back, trying to part our lips, thinking it would make this easier… It didn't… She started placing hard, passionate kisses down my neck. I gripped her hips even tighter. "Nessie..!" I gasped… "Ness… I… I can't…" I wanted to tell her that I couldn't hold on much longer… That I needed her... That we needed to stop… But I couldn't find the breath…
She pulled away, though, her face looking hurt… It killed me. It made my heart hurt to see her like that… She shouldn't be anything but happy. Ever.
"I… I'm sorry…" She whispered.
"Ness… No… I just… We…" I couldn't find the words to explain it quite right.
"What?" Her voice was still quiet as she looked down.
I sighed. I was so frustrated at all this… My words came out harsher than I meant them. "Nessie, we can't do this! You can't do this to me! It's not fair! I already hang on everything you do! The way you walk, talk, look, smile, laugh! It all puts me on edge! With this-" I grabbed a handful of the lace "It's just not fair! I want you, Nessie! All the time! I want to be with you! To have you! Every second of everyday! I love you! But we cannot do this! You're six! And what you do to me is just not fair!"
A small growl escaped her tiny lips. "Jacob Black. Do not bring my age into this. That has nothing to do with anything. I look, think, act like a fifteen year old. I am fifteen, Jacob. Not six."
"Ugh! That's not what I mean! It's just… Your dad has seen what I think about you! Everyone of my fantasies just from the last three days! He'll see what happens here in my head all the time! Sooner or later, your entire family will know! They will think it was my idea and kill me, Ness! I can't hurt them knowing it will hurt you!"
She pursed her lips, I think holding back a laugh. "Jake…" She giggled. "You're… scared of what my family will do?"
"Ugh! Renesmee Cullen! It is not funny! I'm not scared! I just… I don't want them mad at me. Believe it or not, I care what they think of me. I want them to know how much I care for you and that I would never do anything you didn't want to. That I would never let anything hurt you."
She smiled gently and hugged my neck. "Jacob. I love you, okay? What you and I do… has nothing to do with them."
I wrapped my arms around her, too, pulling her closer to me. I closed my eyes and sucked in a deep breath. "I'm worried about you, too. I don't want you to do anything you're not ready for. We've only been together for a couple of days."
"I know that, Jakey. I know. But… time isn't the best argument for us. We're still going to love each other in 100 years, right?" I nodded. "And we've known each other my entire life. And loved each other in one way or another through all that. Do you want to know something, Jacob?"
I nodded again.
"When mommy was pregnant with me… After the first week or two… I could tell who was who. I knew who Aunt Rose was… I know who mom and dad were… I knew Uncle Jasper… And… I knew you. You were the first voice I grew accustom to. You were the first person I ever loved. Before I was even born, Jake, I loved you."
"You… You did?… Why didn't you ever tell anyone?…"
She shrugged her small shoulders. "I don't know.. It never seemed important. I just wanted you to know, Jake. I love you. I always have and I always will." She smiled her beautiful earth shattering smile and brought her lips to mine again.
I kissed her slowly, savoring the taste of her lips on mine. One of her hands was playing with the hem of my shirt, the other trailed up my stomach making my muscles clench. It was crazy how the smallest things she did turned me on so much. The other hand, eventually, started making its way up my shirt.
Her hands kept trailing up until they wrapped around my neck. I instinctively crushed her body to me, holding her close to me. The feeling of her breasts against me made my breathing heavier. I moved my hands down, resting them on the small of her back, still rubbing her softly.
She slowed down our kiss just by a little, but it made the biggest difference. Now, instead of kissing lovingly… Our kiss was just hot. The way her lips moved against mine made me want her so bad. Why did she have to me so damn seductive?
My hands moved back to her hips, guiding her to move against me again, needing that friction. Once she started, though, I regretted it. I groaned against her lips. Mm.. Just doing that felt so good… I needed her so bad…
I don't know when it started but suddenly I was massaging her hips. She took in a deep breath, followed by a soft moan. Oh god… I was loosing it… I needed to hear her moan again… Just once more…
It was torture. It killed me. Having this beautiful, amazing, perfect, indescribable goddess in front of me, her wanting me, and me wanting her, and not being able to do anything about it.
I kissed down her neck. Each kiss slow and soft.
"Jake…" She moaned my name this time. Her sounds turned me on ever more, I noticed as I got even harder under her.
"Shit… Ness…" I cursed as I met her lips again. Why wasn't I stopping? I needed to stop. Now. Our conversation wasn't over. Neither of us were ready for this yet. She hadn't won.
I moved down on the bed, so I could lay back, and I pulled her on top of me. She straddled me again, so my attempt didn't help much. Much, much too slowly she rubbed herself against me again, causing me to half moan and half groan.
She moved her lips from mine. At first I thought she was finally getting her brain back and stopping. I didn't want to stop. Not at all. But, I know we needed to so I was grateful. Little did I know, she wasn't stopping. Not even a little bit.
She started kissing down my neck slow and hard, leaving marks. She continued to kiss over my shoulders… And started kissing down my chest…
"Fuck… Nessie…" I moaned.
She left a line of hickys down my chest, which led down my abs. All my muscles tightened as she did that, driving me crazy. She kissed once, right above the waistband of my jeans, making my hips buck forward.
I don't even know where my mind was at this point, but it definitely wasn't with me anymore. If it were, I would have stopped her. But I didn't. She carefully unbuttoned my jeans, and slid them off of me, releasing my intense erection.
My breathing got heavier as she moved my boxers down to my knees. Carefully, she kissed my tip, making me groan loud. She stroked me once with her hand, and I closed my eyes in some kind of attempt to control myself. She moved her hands around me a few more times, making me thrust once or twice. Then she kissed down my length, and back up.
"Shiit… Renesmee…" I breathed.
Slowly she took my head in her mouth, sucking lightly, making my hips rise a little, wanting more. Her mouth covered the rest of me taking in every inch.
"Ness… Ahh, fuck… Don't stop…That feels… so good…" I moaned out in between unsteady breaths.
She continued sucking lightly on me, eventually increasing her speed, moving her small mouth up and down me.
"Shit! Ness!" I gasped as I hit my climax. She brought my boxers back up and moved into my arms again, lying on top of me while I caught my breath.