DISCLAIMER: i dont own anything, not even most of the plot. all belongs to stephanie meyer.
The day of my funeral.
Edward cried the most.
I never have seen a guy, his age cry.
It was twilight. The end of a day and start of the night. Darkness can be so predictable.
Edward was still there. I knew my family was still hiding behind the trees to let me out of this stupid coffin.
But Edward didn't budge. He was there writing.
He stood up a tear came down his eyes.
He said, "I love you Bella. You're my life now."
Then he turned and left.
After he was out of view, Alice and Carlisle and Esme came to help me out.
"We still have to put this dummy in, just in case they tried to open you up."
I looked at my look-a-like and smiled.
"Nice." I told Alice.
"Thanks." She looked at me as if I did something wrong.
Are you okay. Bella I know that you aren't happy with whatever has happened for the past month but you—
"Alice, I'm fine." I smiled and headed to where Edward dropped the note.
Bella.
Why would he make a letter for a dead chick? Emmett's thought came in.
I looked up and glared at him.
Emmett instantly kissed my cheek and ran behind Rosalie, who was pushing him away.
"Emmett! Get off my back!" was all we heard.
"No! Bella's gonna kill me! She would have to kill you first to kill me, right Rosy?" Emmett said holding onto Rosalie's neck.
"I would gladly give you over if you keep holding onto my neck like that." Rosalie said trying to throw him over.
"Rosy! No! you don't mean that! You love me!" Emmett exclaimed.
"No way loser." Rosalie said pushing him off her.
Aww. Bella don't be jealous! You know he's in love with you! Jasper thought and chuckled aloud.
"Meanie." I mumbled and opened the note.
I'm sorry Bella. I'm sorry I couldn't protect you from that drunk driver. I'm sorry I wasn't there. I'm sorry it was you. I wish it were me instead.
I gasped.
Edward you don't mean that. I thought.
Bella, I love you, you know that right? I know I sound stupid and pathetic. Heck even phsyco to write a letter to someone who's already buried underground. But I miss you Bella. You don't know how much pain I went through.
But I do, Edward. I watched you cry yourself to sleep every night after you found out I was dead. I watched you sit at the lunch table and just look at the seat beside you, where I used to sit. I see you watch the skies and tear up every time it rains. I see you get hurt. And all because of me.
I really wish you were alive Bella. I love you. I wanted to marry you so bad, Bella. You are everything. Hey, my parents said we were moving. They said a change of environment would help me. But all I ever want now is to be close to you. To never leave your side until I die. Even after I die, Bella. I will find you with everything I have.
I love you, I always will.
Edward.
"I love you too." I whispered.
"Let's go find out where he's going." Emmett suggested.
I looked at him in surprise.
"Bella, I know how much you love him." He whispered.
Everyone was looking at Emmett.
"What? A guy can't be sappy now?" He asked. Totally serious.
"To only make things right" Jasper nodded, understanding
"I'll write a letter." I said
"But then he would tell your mom?"
"I'll make sure it looks like I wrote it a long time ago." I shrugged.
"If that is what you choose." Jasper said.
I was still thinking of what to write to Edward.
What am I worried about? Alice could see where this would go. So I shouldn't worry too much.
How the hell am I suppose to do that?
I wish I never suggested this.
What kind of life is this?
Some life I have.
But I do enjoy the fact that I became a vampire.
I could do everything perfect.
Except for writing a letter to the one I love the most.
Dear Edward
Hey Eddie. Okay I know that you're coming over and stuff but I got bored so I wrote this.
I stopped and crumpled the paper and shoot it in the garbage can.
I started again.
Edward,
I was bored so I wrote this.
I want you to know that I love you a lot.
I just need you to know that. And that I would do anything to be with you. I miss you constantly and
Again I crumpled the paper and threw it out of the window.
"Hey!" Emmett shouted.
He threw the paper back and it went right into the trashcan.
"Sorry Emmett! I was writing!"
"Whatever! Wanna play ball? Alice said there would be a thunderstorm tonight." He said. He was already at the window.
"Sure, but I think I have to go somewhere. When I get home 'kay." I didn't want to bother to that letter. Yet.
But I started again.
Dear Edward
Hey Edward! Hey, I know you're coming over in a few minutes to pick me up for our date but I just got bored so I wrote this. I know that you won't ever read this, but it's nice to write and not send right? you always said that if I have something in my mind that I didn't want to tell out loud, I could write it down and throw it away? Well, I'm taking your advice and doing so right now. well going to the point. I love you.
I know we only started dating for only a month, but I think you're the one. I feel so cheesy saying this but, I wish you would feel the same about me. I miss you constantly and I just sometimes want to feel you beside me. Everything you do makes me smile. When you do something stupid for me, I giggle like a little girl. When you call out my name I feel like my feet are melting. When you hug me and kiss me, it feels like there's this spark that goes off every time we touch. Your touch it quite enough to set me off flying really. I plan on telling you tonight, Edward. But I think I should tell you somewhere more private than the fancy restaurant you're taking me tonight. I love you Edward. I wish you felt the same.
Bella Swan.
I remembered that day.
Edward took me out for dinner in this fancy restaurant and led me to the forest after. He said that he wanted to give me something.
In the woods we stopped at some meadow.
Before I could say anything about it, Edward kissed me and held me for so long.
Then he took out a heart necklace and put it on me.
"Oh!" I gasped.
"You like it?" Edward asked looking in my eyes.
"I love it." I whispered and pecked him on the lips.
"Bella?"
"Yes, Edward?" I answered touching the necklace.
"I love you. You are everything to me. You can't imagine how many times my dad has to shout at me to get me back to reality. You're always on my mind. I know it might be too early but I—." He babbled on nervously.
He's just too cute.
I smiled and said, "I love you too."
"Bella! I have been looking for you everywhere!" Alice shouted from the door.
I read her mind.
We're finding out where Edward is heading to.
I nodded and followed her out of the house.
We ran to his house.
When we got there we hopped on Edward's roof, intentively listening on his and his parent's conversations.
They were having dinner in this time.
Alice and I could hear them perfectly.
It's just one of the things vampires are able to do.
"Edward, have you packed you're bags yet?" Elizabeth, Edward's mom said.
"Yes." Edward answered.
I shivered at the emotionless tone he had on.
It scared me that he could be like that forever.
"Edward." Mr. Masen sighed heavily.
"Yeah?" Edward answered as if Mr. Masen called him.
"Edward I know you're hurt. But this move might be good for you." Edward's dad said.
"Good for me. Right." Edward whispered to himself.
Elizabeth sighed and thought, Bella, if you are out there, please watch over my son. He loves you very much. why did you have to go. You were a sweet child.
Venom started filling in my eyes, blurring my vision.
It was sad to know these tears will never fall out of my eyes.
My dark cold eyes.
"Alice." I said as I sobbed.
"Keep it down!" she hissed.
"Someone's on the roof." Edward's mom was suspicious.
"It's probably a bird or something." Edward rolled his eyes.
"Edward we can't possibly leave you here. Who would take care of you?"
"The Cullen's." I gasped and looked at Alice. She just shrugged and I listened back to the conversation. "They're like family to me so I could stay with them." Edward explained.
"Now this would be helpful." Alice took out a note form her jean's pocket.
"I was ready for any possible actions his mom would do."
Edward's side of the story.
After dinner, I excused myself and went out to the backyard.
They just don't understand.
I saw something move.
I turned around to find my angel.
She looked a lot like Bella.
No it was Bella.
She stared wide-eyed. I looked at her. I blinked and she still was there.
She opened her mouth to speak. But nothing came out.
Just then a wind came flying by and Bella came with it.
Gone in seconds.
It was too quick.
Bella reappeared again.
I walked toward her.
I looked into her eyes.
They were different.
Her eyes used to be brown.
Now they were as dark as the night itself.
Then when I was inches from her, the wind blew and she was gone.
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