Uncontrolled Love
His heart was pounding, and he reopened his eyes gazing at her watching to see what she was thinking, but the next thing he felt was lips against his own. She was kissing him. His entire body froze as he fought for self control, and he felt his hands grasping her shoulders, his emotions; the monster inside telling him, "keep going this is what you wanted." His brain telling him to stop, and let her go to not touch her. She was innocent, still a virgin, he couldn't steal that from her, but the beast was taking control slowly edging him closer, and closer...
"Stop!" He pushed her back away from him keeping his eyes closed as he fought to regain his breath, and his intense hearing picked up the sound of her heartbeat that was pounding in unison with his own making his urgency to have her much harder to control, "You have no idea what your doing Nessie" He opened his eyes looking up at hers as she panted trying to catch her breath from the kiss, "You have no idea what will happen..." his voice trailed off as he continued to look at her with his own worried hues.
"I want this, I want us!" She argued back shaking her head as she pried his fingers off of her arms, and took a step towards him, "I want everything with you, Jake..." She whispered softly, "You don't have to protect me anymore, "Look at me i'm all grown up." She said softly, and he looked at her the same trace of fear in his gaze as he shook his head trying to take a step back, but she took a step forward again standing before him, "It's my birthday, and you promised I could have anything..." She whispered a blush creeping across her pale skin as she spoke. He shook his head already sensing what she was asking, and he pleaded with her with his eyes. He didn't trust himself to speak, his mind told him to run, but his legs had rooted him to the floor.
"Nessie...please..." he pleaded with her shaking his head as he looked into her eyes, "We can't...I can't..." he shook his head, feeling her hand rushing to the side of his face, before he could say anything more she was speaking.
"You have no idea how much I want this!" She whispered, and visions rushed through his mind. All traces of the noise from the party inside of the house disappeared, and were replaced by what she wanted him to see. He saw darkness, before the sound of breathing, and moving bodies. He could see them intertwining with each other making love while the moonlight shone in through the window to the left. He could only see the outlines of the bodies, but he knew exactly whose they were without a doubt.
"Nessi-"
"Shhh," She whispered as more of the visions flowed through his mind of them moving together, "Don't speak, just feel." She mused leaning in pressing her lips to his, and this time he didn't have the will to protest all of his walls were torn down, because of what she had forced him to see, and feel. His body only wanted one thing.
Her.
She broke the kiss staring into his hues; his breathing was heavy within his chest, and his thoughts were racing a mile a minute, "Theres no turning back..." he whispered, "I won't be able to stop..." She shook her head grasping his hands in hers intertwining their fingers effortlessly pressing her forehead against his.
"I don't care." She said truthfully, "I really want you." She whispered, "Never anyone else, only you." She promised, and he closed his eyes allowing his mind to process what she was saying, but she didn't allow him to. She started to pull his hand leading him further away from the house towards the woods, "C'mon..." She whispered. He knew that they couldn't do this near her house. She was taking him back to his own. It was empty, for the weekend, because his father was off with Charlie doing a sleepover which was usual.
His heart was telling him not to do this. He didn't want her to regret the first time they did something, but she had pushed a barrier. A barrier that had taken him time, and energy to put up to stop himself from hurting her, and now she had broken it within minutes simply with her persuasion. She had always been a persuasive girl, and now she was taking it to a new level. The safety barrier being completely gone, as she lead him up the steps of his house, and inside closing the door behind them. She stood in front of him as his eyes continued to plead with hers, and she refused to let him leading him slowly to his bedroom, and pressed him back against the bed gently, and he fell onto it, while looking up at her. The sun was starting to set, and he listened for anyone approaching his house, but found nothing.
She was going to release him from this prison, and at the same time he was never going to forgive himself if he hurt her. He watched her, reach down, and once more press her hand to his face showing him more images of what she had dreamt about, and he gasped as his eyes rolled back seeing more of what she had showed him earlier, the bodies intertwined; moans escaped from both of their parted lips, before they once more intertwined with one another. He could hear, and see everything from the delicate moans to the sound of the skin rubbing against each other. The bodies became one as he watched, and his own heart started racing, and his desire for her made his member start to harden in his pants. He hated that she was able to do this to him.
He felt her pulling her hand back at last, and his vision came back to normal. She leaned down lightly kissing across Jakes neckline, while still standing, "Relax," She mused in his ear, "You want this too." She said, pressing a soft kiss to his lips as she stood before straightening her back, and slipped her fingers under her shirt allowing it to trail up the length of her body slowly teasing him as she lifted it revealing her soft, pale skin, and polka dot bra. She at last seated herself on top of him looking into his eyes as she felt his member poking her under her skirt, and she smiled slowly grinding her hips across it eliciting a gasp from his lips, before a low growl followed, "You don't have to hide it anymore" She whispered in his ear continuing to grind her hips against his hardened member.
Low moans erupted from his throat making him continue to thrust against her, "Nessie...this...is...wrong..." He whispered, and felt her fingers slipping beneath his shirt teasing the skin, and causing goosebumps to raise on his body. She pressed him back against the bed pressing her lips to him to silence him, and stroked her fingers all the way up past his toned chest, and pulled the shirt off of him, revealing his tanned skin. He couldn't speak as she continued to kiss him, his heart racing in his chest, and his eyes flicked closed as his lips moved on their own kissing her back without even a second thought about it.
She slipped her hands up his chest to where his were resting on the bed, and grasped them calmly, gently guiding them down her body starting at the mounds of her breasts. She gently brushed his fingers against them, and forced his hands down her stomach, and looked at him gently, searching his eyes as he gazed at her in general amazement, and longing. She could see all of it in his eyes. He wanted her, but he was still clinging onto the fight that he had inside, "Jake please..." She whispered, "I need you" She smiled kissing across his neckline letting go of his hands as he started to roam across her body exploring it for himself without her guidance.
He couldn't warn her anymore than he already had now he was completely at loss of all control. He flipped them, eliciting a gasp from her, and began kissing down, and across her body kissing every square inch of the skin that was already bare to him. He pulled at her bra ripping it off, in a sudden burst of strength, and she knew that she had forced him to finally snap. He was no longer in control with her. She had gotten exactly what she wanted out of him. She was finally going to be his, in more than just words, but in the most powerful way it was possible to be someone else's.
She moaned as his lips moved to her breasts sucking on them one at a time, and kneading them lightly forcing the nipples to harden, and moans escaped her lips as she laid there arching her back towards his lips. He traced his fingers down her stomach, before tracing his lips as well kissing every inch of her perfectly toned stomach. He yanked off her skirt discarding it on the ground, before yanking down her panties which she kicked off herself. She was completely exposed to his eyes, but she didn't feel embarrassment, or any self conscious feeling at all. She smiled softly, and he pushed her back up onto the bed so she was no longer hanging off the bed. She pulled at his pants pulling them down his legs, before he kicked them off.
He pulled the remaining material that was keeping them apart, his boxers, before discarding them into the growing pile of half shredded clothes. The monster inside of him was coming out as if he was in heat. She felt him quickly pressing his lips to her, the moans were passing from his lips as he held her tightly to him, and she felt him spreading her legs, before positioning himself at her entrance, and she gasped as she felt him pushing himself against her, "Your sure?" He asked, and she kissed him as an answer, and whimpered as she felt him starting to enter her breaking through her virginity walls. She felt her opening was so much smaller than his member. She closed her eyes, and gasped burrowing her face into his neckline, as he continued to push through her barriers.
She whimpered, and after the pain subsided he started to move inside of her. She felt him drving himself full force into her, the constant moans escaping both of their lips, and she clung to him consistently. She needed him more than she had ever needed anyone, and she continued to whimper as she felt him continuing to pound into her. She felt her orgasm coming, and his was coming as well. She felt him give one last thrust, before he exploded inside of her. She closed her eyes her heart was pounding, as they both laid against the bed.
He eventually climbed off of her, and laid beside her closing his eyes in shock, and disbelief. He had done everything he had sworn he wouldn't do. She was the image of perfection, and now he had tainted her soul. She was no longer pure, but his. He had claimed her forever. He looked away biting his bottom lip. He still couldn't believe what he had done. His eyes gazed at hers, and she smiled softly looking at him. He sat up on the bed running his fingers through his spiked hair, "We have to get you back to the party" he whispered slipping from his bed, he began pulling on clothes quickly, and silently.
He saw what remained of the shredded clothes of hers, and shook his head, "Here change into these" he whispered. He always had extra clothes of hers laying around. He knew that Edward was going to know about this the second that he came in contact with Nessie, and it was not going to end so well for anyone. He watched her furrowing her eyebrows, but obeying none the less. He took her hand, and lead her from the room towards her house, through the woods the same way she had brought them here, but somehow it was making him sick. What he had just done with her. He shouldn't have allowed himself to loose control like he had. he stood before the house hearing the sounds of the large party, and simply stood there quietly not wanting to go inside.
"Jake?" Nessie asked softly tugging on his hand, "Are you alright?" She asked him softly her eyes searching his, and he looked away ashamed to look at her.
"Fine, Nessie, c'mon..." He whispered not trusting himself to be alone with her for a moment more, and he lead her silently into the house.
AN: It has been 7 long months since I have done anything with this story, and for that I apologize! I am so sorry guys! Everyone who asked me to continue here ya go I hope you liked it! I will try to update this, and other stories soon, but I may be unable to for a while :(I keep getting my comp taken away, and such .