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"Alice," I whispered.
"Why? She asked flatly searching my face, her expression full of sadness now.
"Oh Alice!" I said elated to see her after it had been so long. I rushed over and hugged her tightly. She didn't respond her arms stayed by her side.
"Alice what's wrong?" I asked concerned.
"I saw you," she mumbled looking at me still with no emotion.
"Yes I see you too," I replied confused.
"No I saw you and Edward…together," she said now visibly upset almost like she was going to cry.
"Yes I have decided that Edward and I were meant to be together," I whispered.
"No you chose Jazz that's who it was supposed to be," she said walking over towards me. "What happened? What changed?" She asked.
"It's just," I wanted to tell her everything but Edward walked in.
"Alice it's good to see you," he said giving her a light hug. I could see how stiff it must have felt. He heard the brief conversation between Alice and I and he didn't like it.
"Edward it is so good to see you too," she said snapping out of her thoughts.
"How is the new love?" he asked walking back to me and putting his arm over my shoulder.
"Oh Zackary he is excellent, I left him in South Africa. It is much too soon for him to be around Forks and well Bella in her human state still," she said smiling.
"I am sure Carlisle and Esme will be thrilled to see you have come to visit. They are out in town. Emmet and Rose are outdoors near the lake," Edward said gesturing towards the window.
"Have you seen Jasper lately?" she asked. The way she asked it though was not really a question it looked like she wanted to see how Edward would react.
"No I haven't seen him in a few hours but I would imagine you are well equipped enough to find him," he said with a smile.
"Yes of course brother," she said walking past him brushing his shoulder. "Bella we must catch up before I leave. We can have a girl's night later today," she said looking at Edward. It looked like he nodded slightly.
"Yes of course Alice I would love that!" I said excited to spend time with her. She was my best friend and I had missed her dearly. But the tension between her and Edward worried me, and whatever their little exchange was about could not be good. I turned and looked up at Edward. He smiled and kissed me lightly.
"What was Alice thinking?" I asked.
"It's complicated," he said his smile fading.
"Edward please don't keep secrets," I begged searching for the answer in his eyes.
"Later then," he said pulling me tightly into his arms. "I have missed you so much," he whispered.
"I love you," I said but my voice sounded sad and I knew he could hear it.
"I love you more than anything Bella, you are my life," he said. He brushed a piece of hair out of my face before pulling me out of the room.
"Where are we going?" I asked.
"To the meadow," he said now very excited. I smiled feeling warm the meadow is where Edward and I had fallen in love. It was one of my favorite places to be. Maybe going there with Edward would help. When we made it outside Edward very gently tossed me onto his back and began sprinting. I couldn't help the excitement that came over me. It was just like old times and it was very warming to my heart. I did still love Edward not as much as Jasper but the only one who would ever know that was me.
When we arrived at the meadow it was breath taking. Purple flowers were everywhere the grass so soft I wanted to lay in it. I think I might even have seen a rabbit in the corner. This place was magic and beauty. The sun was beaming and Edward was glittering, bearing his white teeth in a perfect smile.
"Edward its magic here," I said taking his hand and pulling him deep into the field of flowers. I traced my finger along his cheek bone trying to capture a few of the diamonds from his face. He was perfection under the sun light. It just occurred to me that I had never seen Jasper covered in diamonds. It made me wonder.
Edward interrupted my train of thought by pulling me onto the ground and wrapping his arms around me. I felt happy here with him by my side. Maybe it could be enough. I truly loved his man and he no doubt loved me. Why couldn't that be enough?
We laid there until the sun was covered by clouds and it began drizzling. I didn't want to leave because I was afraid my feelings would stay in the meadow. "Thank you," I whispered as we walked hand in hand back into the Cullen house.
"For what?" he asked smiling.
"For giving me the most wonderful day possible," I replied.
"Anything for you love," he whispered.
We walked up the elongated stair case and to my shock found Alice and Jasper headed down the stairs together. I knew I shouldn't have felt jealous but suddenly I was. They looked happy almost as if nothing had ever changed between them. Jasper looked at me as I passed him he smiled softly and then returned his attention back to Alice. This felt so wrong. I tightened my grip on Edwards hand and he gracefully pulled my up the rest of the stairs.
Waiting at the top was Esme and Carlisle. They were smiling at us. "It's nice to have everything back to normal," Carlisle said looking at me with an approving smile.
"It feels good," I agreed. They both smiled as they walked past me and down the hall. I rushed into Edward's room not wanting anymore awkwardness and closed the door behind him. My clothes and hair were all damp from the rain and I was beginning to shiver.
"Do you mind if I grab a quick shower?" I asked already stripping out of my jeans.
"Not at all," he said smiling at me as his eyes rolled over my bare skin. I laughed and threw the white shirt at him before skipping into the bathroom. I ran the water until it was warm and then quickly washed up before hoping right out. I walked into Edwards's room in the search for some dry clothes. Edward tossed me a deep blue V-neck shirt of his and a pair of black skinny jeans that I didn't recognize.
"Who's jeans?" I asked sliding them on.
"They are an old pair of Rosalie's, all your stuff is still in Jasper's room and he and Alice stepped out so I couldn't get them."
"Well that was generous of her," I smiled. They were very stylish and I had to admit my legs did look nice in them. I walked over to Edward and collapsed on his chest. He wrapped his arms firmly around me and we just relaxed that way for a long time. That is until our bonding was interrupted by little Miss Alice. I was happy to see her though.
"Ready for girl time?" she asked bouncing into the room. Edward's arms become stiff around me, but I pride myself free. "By the look of your outfit I would say that's a yes," she laughed pulling me by my arm.
"Don't be gone too long," Edward said rising and kissing me gently.
"No promises," Alice said yanking me out the door. It was nice to see her back to herself. She pulled me all the way to her yellow car and practically threw me in the driver's seat. Some where between Edward's room and the car her expression had changed. She seemed very rushed to get out of here now and wouldn't talk to me.
"Alice what is going on?" I asked.
She shhed me and pointed to Edwards window and then tapped her ears. She didn't want Edward to hear, which meant he was listening. I nodded and waited until we had made it out of Forks. She shoulders relaxed then and she seemed more Alice.
"Okay what is going on Alice?" I asked.
"We need to talk ASAP," she said.
"And what exactly do we need to talk about?" I asked already knowing the answer.
"Bella you do realize that I'm physic right?" she asked. I nodded once. "I know you want to be with Jasper and I know you love him more than anything in the world."
I started to shack my head but realized I couldn't lie to Alice she was my best friend really my only friend. "I don't know what to do anymore Alice," I admitted.
"Why did you tell Jasper you made a mistake why didn't you just leave with him? You two could have been happy together in your new home by now. What changed?" she asked.
"I was ruining everything. Everyone hated me, even Carlisle," I said.
"That's not true Bella, Carlisle could never stop caring for you. You're a part of this family for better or wost," she said trying to comfort me.
"It doesn't always feel that way. The second I chose Jasper everything changed the only one who cared about me was Jasper."
"And Edward," she pointed out.
"Well yea," I admitted.
"What I'm about to say is going to sound a little crazy but just hear me out. You need a friend Bella and I'm going to be leaving in the next day, what are you going to do then?" she asked.
"I have no idea," I said suddenly terrified by the thought.
"Whatever happened to Jacob you two used to be so close. So close in fact that he almost came between you and Edward. When was the last time you talked to him?" she asked.
Jacob Black wow it had been so long since that name had even crossed my mind. I had seen him at my dad's funeral but couldn't talk to him. Ever since Jasper had become presence in my life I had not really felt the need to have Jacob in my life. I missed him of course but with Jasper there was no burning desire to see him. Now that I didn't have Jasper and Alice had brought him up I suddenly felt like I needed t call him immediately and apologize for everything between us and tell him that I never wanted this to happen.
"Why would you bring him up? Last time I checked you are not a big fan of the wolves." I noted.
"Yes but Jacob is the only friend who can love and protect you when I am gone and until you get your head straight and go back to Jasper you are going to need him," she said. I was about to protest before she held up her hand.
"Don't bother with the I love Edward crap we both know its Jasper. The only thing I don't know is how you can be so stupid when it comes to love," he added.
"That is a little harsh don't you think?" I asked suddenly offended. "And where are we going?" I asked looking out the window. We were on some dirt road headed nowhere.
"I wouldn't say its harsh just true, and he are headed to here," she said stopping the car. It looked like we were at the edge of some cliff.
"Don't tell me you're going to throw me off the cliff," I joked.
"Now that would be harsh," she laughed. I opened the door and hoped out. When I walked closer the cliff I saw Jacob standing just a little down the way. He was looking back at me. It almost looked like he was smiling. I sprinted over to him and he caught me with open arms.
"Jacob," I said out of breath.
"I have missed you Bells."