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I woke up bright and early the next day to say goodbye to Alice. Edward had not given us any more alone time and I was sad to see her go. The sun was not even up but Alice said she had to get back right away.

"Oh Alice please don't go," I begged.

"Don't worry Bella you will see me again I am not jumping off the face of the earth," she teased.

"It was great to have you visit don't be a stranger," Edward said hugging her tightly. He released her and ruffled her hair.

"Take care of yourself and my dear sister," Alice said smiling sweetly.

She turned her attention on Carlisle and Esme and wished them all the best. Hugs and kisses were given out. It broke my heart to see Alice leave again. Jasper was last on her goodbye list after Emmet had finally released her from and iron bear hug grip.

I could not hear the whispers exchanged between the two of them but I saw Edward smile slightly. It made me so curious about what they could possibly have said. This was the first time that Jasper and I had been in the same room for more than a few moments. I could not peal my eyes away from him but he never even glanced at me.

"Well goodbye all and I shall return again," Alice said waving her hand dramatically as she made her exit. Everyone laughed at her antics and wished her a fair well.

After she had disappeared I wanted so desperately to grab Jaspers arm and talk to him but Edward was by my side our hands intertwined. Jasper exited never giving me a glance at all. I pulled myself tighter to Edward and he securely wrapped an arm around me.

"Are you alright love?" he asked.

"Just hard to see Alice go," I said weakly. It was true having Alice leave was hard but it was even harder seeing Jasper walk away without being able to even look into his golden eyes.

"Don't worry she will be back before you know it, and we can even go visit her in a few months.

"Okay that sounds great," I smiled and looked away.

"I need to go hunting soon would you prefer I wait until tonight or later in the day?"Edward asked trying to be delicate.

"No I hate when you are gone while I am sleeping, just go now. I think I am going to nap and then shower you don't need to be there for that," I said encouraging him.

"Okay if your sure," he said kissing my head. I nodded and he walked out the door. I jogged up the stairs and went into his room. I laid down and closed my eyes to think, all I saw was Japers face and I suddenly realized that this was going to be one of the only chances I could talk with Jasper. With a house full of vampires it would be difficult to have a private conversation. I walked as lightly as I could over to Jasper's room and opened the door. He was leaning against a wall reading a book. He looked like a statue of perfection.

He glanced up and me surprised. It looked like he was about to talk but I put my finger up to my lips to signal him to stay quite. He nodded and understood. He walked over to me and put his hands up to signal that he wanted to pick me up so no one could hear me clumsy walking around. I nodded and he lifted me gently off the ground. He cradled me and walked over to his window. He gently jumped out and it was a rush. Being in his arms again was like breathing it was so easy and I already dreaded losing my air.

When we were far enough from the house he gently put me and stepped back but said nothing. "Are you going to say anything?" I asked.

"Did you want me to?" he asked casually.

He didn't seemed phased by me at all almost like nothing had never happened between us. "Jazz you have to know I am sorry," I said looking for a response. He shrugged.

"Yea I get it," he said and then looked around the forest almost as if he was bored.

"Am I boring you?" I asked angry now.

"No not particularly," he responded.

"Why are you acting like this? I understand I messed everything up but that is why I want to talk about it and apologize," I explained.

His expression was still care free. "You already apologized, what else is there to talk about. I mean you ended it and I am moving on, what part did you want to discuss further?"

"Jasper please stop acting like that I know you are hurting I am too please just talk to me," I begged starting to tear up.

"Honestly Bella I think it is better if you just stay with Edward and we go back to being what we were," he said.

"You were my best friends boyfriend, how can we go back to suck a basic relationship?" I asked stunned by what he was suggesting.

"Simple, I never see you except when Alice visits or when family matters come up. I mean we can still be friendly towards each other but why force anything else?" he asked still having a very casual tone.

"I can't lose you while I am going through this," I whispered.

"Going through what? Your life? You chose to be with Edward that is that and now we move on that is how vampires do it you need to do the same," he said frankly.

"Japer you have to know I still love you," I said looking around feeling guilty for saying it while technically being with Edward.

"Just not enough I get it no need to talk it to death," he said rolling his eyes.

It was so difficult to talk to Jasper when he seemed so uncaring. He had never acted like this around me so indifferent and unemotional. "Don't you understand? Didn't Alice explain it to you? I love you more than anything and anyone, but it doesn't seem to be enough for everyone else including you," I explained trying to choke back the tears.

His mask broke and it looked like he was shocked. "You were always more than enough for me. All I need is you but you need more meaning Edward," he said reading every move a made now.

"Jazz if things were simple and easy it would be me and you. Just like kindergarten… simple."

"What is so complicated?" I love you and you love me what is not enough?" he asked stepping closer to me and grabbing one of my hands.

"Your family was going to hell because of me. Carlisle would barley talk to you and Rosalie wanted to kill you. Just because I don't have vampire hearing doesn't mean I am deaf. And the second I was back with Edward everything was great, it was things as usual everyone loved everyone again. Don't you see it has to be this way even though I don't want it to," I said out of breath.

"Bella we were going to leave and all the hate would have been gone why couldn't you just leave with me we were so close?" he asked desperate for an answer.

"I don't want to cost you everything just for me, I am not worth it. Nothing can be guaranteed to last forever except for the family you have here with the Cullen's. I cant risk you losing that for me."

"Oh Bella," he said grabbing me tightly. His iron arms around me left like the safest place in the world. I knew going back to Edward would never give me this feeling but still it was for the best and I needed to hold onto that.

"Jasper please you can't give up family for me," I whispered.

"I would give up anything and everything to be with you. We can leave and live happily ever after," he said breaking away from me.

I laughed just a little by the irony of his words. I had told Alice I could give up my happily ever after but now with Jasper offering it to me, it seemed like the only way. How could I go eternity without his arms around me? The end didn't seem like enough, not when I had a chance at perfection

"What am I supposed to do?" I whispered. After everything I had done how could I leave Edward for Jasper again? It just seemed cruel. To the Cullen family who was truly my family now. And also to Edward after everything he did for me and the pain he suffered the first time, it was just so cruel to put him through that again so soon.

It was like Jasper could read my thoughts as I was thinking them. His face looked understanding but also devastated. "It is too late now isn't it?" he asked letting go of my hand.

"I don't want it to be, I messed up so badly and now I can't fix it," I said beginning to ball now.

"You are being dramatic Bella, everything is better than okay things are great," Jasper said covering his emotions and raising his voice slightly.

"What?" I asked.

Just then Edward was by my side and I understood. Jasper didn't want Edward to know the contents of our conversation. He knew it was wrong what we were doing out here and the Edward deserved better. He was a good man and I cared for him deeply. I smiled and put my arm around him for support. He easily held onto me and looked from me to Jasper.

"What is going on?" he asked.

"Your girl is crazy man," Jasper joked and Edward immediately relaxed at my side and let out a smile.

"I could have told you that," he responded.

"Hey, hey I am standing right here. Just because I am concerned with Alice leaving everyone seems to think I am over reacting but what I can say it is a human thing," I whipped out. I surprised myself suddenly I felt light and easy going. It was Jasper helping me I realized and looked at him with a thank you smile.

"Get her out of her bro she needs you to get her head straight," Jasper said walking past Edward and hitting him in the arm.

"Sure thing," Edward said looking at me now.

"Hey we are still on for that chess game right?" Jasper asked looking back at me.

"You know it," I responded casually having no idea what he was talking about, but any chance to be in the same room with him was an opportunity I was willing to take. He disappeared into the forest after that and my emotions seemed to hit me like a ton of bricks, I did what I could to cover them myself but it wasn't easy.

"You think you can beat Jasper in chess?" Edward asked doubtfully.

"Hey I happen to be pretty good so shut up," I said playfully hitting his arm.

"Alright then shall we head home?" he asked.

"Yes please I never got a chance to nap," I said yawning. "And I am sure you didn't finish hunting," I said looking at his dark eyes.

"You are correct my dear, so lets go back and I can tuck you in and before you know it I will be waking you up," he said pulling me onto his back. "Ready?" he asked.

"Yes, and yes," I said ducking my head and closing my eyes as he raced back towards the house.

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