Thank you for the reviews and comments. Bonnie and Damon still have that something underneath it all...but Nate is starting to step up his game...
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I slid from under the blanket that Damon and I had been lying under. I put my jeans on and slid my shirt over my head as I made my way to the living room doors. I placed my hand softly on the knob, when Damon's voice cut through the air, "Leaving?"
I stopped and turned to him slipping my hands in my pockets, "I have to".
"Really?" he asked sitting up with the blanket only covering his lower body and allowing the moonlight to illuminate his chest.
"Yes…what just happened…it shouldn't have…it was…an ending", I choked out.
"An ending…and what…after that, you can go back to normal guy?"
I gripped onto the door. I didn't trust myself to answer truthfully. Every part of me wanted to walk over to that couch, get under that blanket with Damon and wrap his arms around me…but I knew that was just a fantasy that I had…one he didn't share. I would never fool myself into believing just because we clicked on every physical level, that he wanted me emotionally.
I turned to face him, "Yes…yes…I'm going back to normal guy…he likes me a lot…he doesn't set out to hurt me purposefully".
"But you don't feel the same way about him as you do for me…"
"That's right, but he can never break my heart the way you did", I whispered as I opened the door, "and he doesn't deserve to have someone that is still holding onto some old feelings for another person…soo…goodbye Damon".
I didn't wait for an answer as I walked out of the living room and out of the boarding house.
When I got out to my car, I let the tears that had been threatening to fall from eyes travel down my cheeks. I quickly wiped my eyes and drove away from the boarding house.
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I stood in the window watching her drive away. The normal guy didn't deserve someone that is still holding onto some feelings for another person? Well we're going to see exactly what that normal guy deserved.
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When I got home, I breezed past Caroline, Elena and Stefan in the living room and headed to my bedroom stripping off my clothes. I headed to the bathroom and turned on the shower. I stepped inside and let the warm spray cover me as I closed my eyes and ran my hands through my hair. The truth of the matter was…I wanted to wash away every part of Damon on me, but I know that I could never get rid of him inside my head and my heart. I love him…that's never going to change…it's never going to go away…I can imagine it being dulled, but I would never truly get rid of my feelings for him. I needed to…I wanted to get rid of my feelings for him. Damon was bad for me…he made me reckless…he made me do things that I never imagined I would do in a million years. Nate is good for me, he grounds me and I need that. I wrapped my arms around my body as I sat down in the shower and let the water cover me…maybe if I stay in here long enough, I could wash away everything that I felt for Damon.
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The next morning, I walked into the kitchen for breakfast and was met with stares from Caroline and Elena. "What?" I asked as I took the milk out of the refrigerator.
"What happened last night?" Caroline asked.
"What…what do you mean?"
"You came in, got in the shower and went to bed…it was like 9", Elena replied.
I sighed as I walked over to the table and sat down, "Damon".
"It's always him", Caroline rolled her eyes.
"Nate asked me to be his girlfriend yesterday".
"Ooooh yes!" Caroline grinned and clapped, "he's great for you and he's soo cute…Bonnie, this is good".
"Bonnie…this is good, right?" Elena asked looking at me.
I closed my eyes, "Last night, I went to see Damon…I wanted to tell him to leave Nate alone…leave Nate and I alone…"
"And what happened?" Elena asked.
"One thing lead to another and…I get soo confused around Damon…things are confusing…I want to hate him, but I can't and in those moments of weakness…"
"You didn't", Caroline sighed.
I looked over at her, "Nate is great…he is…and with time, I could feel the same way about him that I do about Damon…"
"Yes, you can…Damon doesn't deserve you Bonnie, don't go back there. So what you slipped up last night, you can move past it", Caroline went on.
"Care…it's not that easy", Elena replied taking my hand.
"It is that easy…is Damon compelling you again?"
"Caroline!" Elena scolded her.
"Fine…Bonnie, why would you do such a thing?" Caroline asked slowly and gave Elena a pointed look.
"I don't know…I don't know…but what I do know is that it will never happen again", I replied.
"And how are you going to ensure that, never be in a room with him again?" Caroline asked.
"I don't know…but Nate asked me to be his girlfriend and I am going to be just that…he's good for me…"
"But you don't feel the same thing that you feel for Damon when you're with him, do you?" Elena asked.
"Elena…what are you doing…Bonnie has a chance to be happy and not be driven crazy by Damon and his push-pull that he does with people, if she wants to be with Nate and if Nate makes her happy, then we should be happy for her".
"Ok…fine…Bonnie, I support you and whatever you want…whether it be Damon or Nate", Elena shrugged and smiled at me.
"Well I have class…soo, I will be seeing you two later…maybe we will have a girl's night tonight, no boys", Caroline smiled.
"I'm supposed to have dinner with Nate tonight", I replied.
"Ok…raincheck, but Bonnie…Nate is good, don't even worry about what happened with Damon…it was some goodbye sex…that's it", Caroline replied walking out of the backdoor with her bags.
Elena turned to me, "What is really going on?" she asked.
"Damon came to my house one day and told me that we needed to end…he wanted to live another 100 years and that did not include saving me…he said we were momentary insanity…he broke my heart, but there was always a part of me that thought that we would get back together…I mean, me and Damon…we're too ridiculous not to be together. But then he started bringing all his dates around and I realized he was sending me a message…and now Nate's here and when I'm with him, I feel like a regular person…there's no boogie man chasing after me, I don't have to cast a spell and he likes me and its not a constant struggle…"
"But…"
"There is no but Elena…Nate and I are it…Damon and I…we're over".
"Ok…", Elena replied in a way that signaled she didn't really believe me and the truth was…I didn't fully believe myself.
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I walked into the kitchen humming a tune as I poured a bag of blood into a cup and put it in the microwave to warm. Stefan looked at me from over his newspaper with a raised eyebrow, "What's going on?" he asked.
"Well I'm not sure if you heard last night, but Bonnie and I came to an understanding…she still likes me better than that normal guy", I smirked taking my cup out of the microwave and sipping.
"Uh, huh and what gives you that idea?"
"Did you not hear me…we came to an understanding and if you can read between the lines, you know exactly what I mean".
Stefan sighed, "Why do you do these things?"
"What are you talking about?"
"This thing with Bonnie…why are you doing everything halfway…if you want her, then tell her that you were stupid and made a mistake to break up with her…if you don't, leave her the hell alone".
"Why should I…she was mine first", I answered.
Stefan stood up and walked over to me, "Because you broke up with her and she is trying to move on".
"I don't want her to move on", I mumbled turning to the sink.
"What?"
"I don't want her to move on…ok…her actually finding someone that she may like almost as much as me was not really part of the plan…yeah, yeah you said it and all…but I didn't think she would find someone…so there…I said it…I don't want her with the guy", I confessed, "but she and I…won't work".
"Why not…I think you two worked fine together…she kept you from doing stupid things and you were actually a good person around her".
"You understand that I can't be with her…I would want to turn her and that one day when I lose control and I do…she will hate me forever and if someone is a vampire, forever takes on a whole new meaning".
Stefan sighed, "So nothing is going to stop you from this stupid charade?"
"Nope".
"Then I guess…you will just have to watch Bonnie fall in love with someone else, marry someone else and have children by that someone else and let me know how that works out for you", Stefan smirked as he walked out of the kitchen.
You know, sometimes…I really hate him.
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"Hey what's going on with you tonight?" Nate asked as he sat across from me in a restaurant not far from campus.
"Nothing…there's just been a lot going on and I've been kind of preoccupied".
"Want to talk about it?"
"You probably wouldn't believe me if I told you", I chuckled.
"Or maybe I would…you know, I took your grandmother's class my freshmen year here", Nate began, "and I know what she believed and the rumors about her".
I instantly tensed up, "What do you mean?"
"She believed in witchcraft and the rumors were that she was a witch…descended from a line of witches".
"But you know those were just rumors, right…witches aren't real", I replied.
"Aren't they?" Nate asked raising an eyebrow.
"No…they're not".
Nate laughed and sat back, "Sorry…I was just playing around, I know that…you're grandmother was really cool".
I sat back and tried to relax, but I don't know if I am truly convinced that he was kidding and that worried me.
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I hesitated before lifting my hand to knock on the boarding house door. I didn't see Damon's car, so that meant that Stefan was probably home alone. I stood outside biting my lip waiting for Stefan to open the door and when he did, he raised an eyebrow, "Bonnie, what are you doing here?" he smiled.
"I need to talk to you and I didn't want anyone else to be around", I replied walking in and looking around.
"Ok…what's wrong?"
"Nate…"
"Did he do something?" Stefan asked immediately on alert.
"No…no…it's just that…a couple of days ago, we were talking and he brought up my grandmother…he started saying that believed that witches were real…he laughed it off, but I don't think he was kidding…I mean…I don't feel anything weird from him, but I have been wrong about people before and I just don't want him to be evil…he can't be evil Stefan", I rambled.
Stefan grabbed my arms, "Bonnie…just because he thinks that witches are real, doesn't mean he's evil…this entire town believes that vampires exist".
"So you think I'm overreacting?" I asked.
"Yes…I kind of think you are…he seems ok to me", Stefan shrugged.
"He is…isn't he?" I smiled.
"Yes…but if you want me to check him out…"
"And how could you do that?"
"Well…I could compel him to tell the truth…"
"No…it's ok…I was just overreacting, its fine…Nate's fine…he was just kidding about the witch thing", I chuckled, "even when I am dating someone regular, I have to think that something is wrong with them".
"It's understandable, but if you need me to check him out…I will", Stefan replied.
I nodded and hugged him, "Thank you…I appreciate your help and can you not tell Damon I was here".
"If that's what you want…but…"
"Stefan…no…buts".
"Ok…I will see you later", Stefan replied walking me over to the door.
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I stood in the living room waiting for him to enter, "Judas", I seethed.
"When did you get here?"
"Does it matter…look…how could you let her believe that the normal guy is normal when he's talking about witches?" I asked.
"Because maybe he is and we don't need to worry about him?"
"Sometimes I wonder why people think you are the better brother…look, that guy is up to something and I am not going to let him worm his way into our lives without being investigated".
"Ok…fine…but I'm coming with you while you investigate", Stefan replied slipping on his jacket.
"Why…starting to rethink your position?"
"No, I want to make sure you don't do anything stupid", Stefan answered following me out of the door.
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After two hours of waiting in Stefan's car, Nate finally appeared and jogged out to his car. He was on his cell phone talking to someone when he unlocked his car and got inside. "Follow him", I said.
"I can't exactly be on his bumper", Stefan replied as he started the car and began following Nate at a close distance.
We following normal guy to an apartment complex where he parked his car and went into the building.
"Who lives here?" Stefan asked as we exited his car and made our way to the apartment building.
"Not his parents…he's from Richmond and this is not Richmond", I replied as we made up way up the stairs after normal guy.
When we reached the floor that he stopped on, we waited behind a wall as he knocked on a door looking around. I listened as the door opened and a female's voice drifted into the hallway, "What are you doing here?"
"I need to talk to you", Nate replied.
"You shouldn't be here".
"I know that…but I need to talk to you, I need more time…"
"Get in here", the woman said and the door slammed shortly after.
I looked at Stefan, "I'm going to kill him".
"We don't know what that was about…", Stefan began.
"Are you kidding me…he's in some woman's apartment when he is supposed to be dating Bonnie…I told him if he hurt her, I would kill him…and I want him to know I'm not a big liar like he is", I whispered, "so when he gets in his car, I'm going to tear his heart out…I will need you to write some kind of text to Bonnie or something…"
"You are not killing him, we are going to find out what's going on here and if its something that Bonnie should know, we will tell her".
"He is in there with another woman doing god knows what...we're supposed to let him carry on with that woman and Bonnie?"
"No…but we're not going to kill him either", Stefan answered.
"Then what do you want to do because he's not stepping foot near Bonnie again", I replied folding my arms.
Stefan shushed me as the door to the apartment opened and Nate jogged down the hallway.
"That was quick…that's a positive", I mumbled as we walked from behind the wall and headed towards the door.
"What are you doing?" Stefan hissed.
"If you are not going to let me kill that guy…we are going to find out exactly what he's doing with this woman", I knocked on the door and stepped back waiting for the door to open.
"Why would she tell us anything?"
"We will make her", I turned to him and then turned back to the door as it opened to reveal a rather tall, brown skinned woman with green eyes.
She looked from Stefan to me and then put her hands on her hips, "Vampires", she stated with a slight distaste, "well are you going to come in?", she asked walking away from the door.
I looked at Stefan who returned my look of wtfery.
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I sat down in front of Nate's dorm room door reviewing some of my notes from History earlier and waiting for him to come home from the gym. I wasn't sure why I decided to meet him at his dorm room, but after the last couple of days, I wanted to forget everything that I did wrong and just focus on what I am doing right…and Nate is that.
"Hey", he replied walking off of the elevator and over to his door holding out his hands. I placed my hands in his and he pulled me up off the floor, "you weren't waiting long were you?"
"No…only about 15 minutes", I smiled, "how was the gym?"
"I changed my mind…went to get a beer instead with one of new pledges…I know…totally opposite of what I said, but he needed to talk", Nate replied opening the door.
"That's nice…", I replied following him in.
"But I promise that I will never let you wait this long for me again", he replied pulling me into an embrace.
I giggled, "It was only 15 minutes".
"Hey…any guy could have come up and scooped you up", he smirked.
I smiled up at him as he removed my bag from my shoulder, "You know…I really do like you a lot Bonnie".
"I like you too Nate".
"I want you to know…that I like you…that I am not playing any games".
"Ok…I understand that".
"I want you to understand it…I know that people always talk about the big bad upperclassmen preying on the freshman, but I am honestly not doing that".
"I know that Nate…did something happen?" I asked looking into his eyes.
"I just really fell for a Mystic Falls townie", Nate smiled as he moved closer to me and lowered his lips to mine. The kiss was sweet, it made me feel warm inside. I wrapped my arms around him as I melted into him, "stay here tonight", he whispered in my ear.
I looked at him and nodded as he removed my jacket slowly and led me over to the bed.
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"Sooo…is there a reason why you two are slinking around outside of my apartment?" the woman asked as she lit a cigarette and looked from Stefan over to me.
"Who are you?" I asked.
"You come to my apartment door and ask me who I am…who are you?"
"How do you know we're vampires?" Stefan asked and I glared at him. This woman could have guessed and he was just giving it away.
"How does anyone know you are vampires before you show your true face?" she smirked.
"Who are you?" I asked again.
She looked at me, "Ok…fine…you two are Salvatores…and I'm…Bianca Bennett", she replied taking a drag of her cigarette and then raising an eyebrow, "any more questions?"
The plot thickens...