Well this is all she wrote folks for this one. It was hard to end this one, but I am satisfied with this ending (for now). I want to thank you all for reading and reviewing, it is a pleasure to write these fics and have people actually read them. Thank you all once again and until next time...
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"Bonnie, you really should come to the party with us tonight", Elena whined in my doorway dressed in a short black dress and her hair in big barrel curls, that almost resembled a Katherine Pierce hairdo.
"Elena…you and Caroline go, I'm just not in the mood and I would only bring you two down".
Elena looked at Caroline who had just joined her in the doorway and sighed, "I'm going to fix my make up", Elena answered walking away.
Caroline stared at me with her arms crossed, "You know, I thought over and over about saying this to you—but I realized that it needs to be said. You are happy with being unhappy, Bonnie", Caroline declared.
I raised an eyebrow.
"You know that Damon loves you, you know that you love him, but you would rather let him have all the say in the relationship that you two both want. If you want to be happy with Damon, be happy with Damon. I know that you are still reeling from what happened to your mother and I would be too. However, I know that you are close to me and Elena, but you and Damon have some type of connection that's not going away".
"I can't force him to want me Caroline".
"But you can force him to realize that you want to be with him and you don't want to take no for an answer", Caroline went on, "look, he was fine with risking everything to save you from Klaus, he was willing to kidnap you and strip you of your powers to do it. I know, I hate to say this but you leave me no other choice….I am a fan of Bamon".
"Bamon?" I chuckled.
"Yes, like Brangelina…you and Damon are Bamon…and I am a fan of you guys…well, mostly you", Caroline twisted her mouth, "but together, I like Damon well enough".
I smiled, "Caroline, he doesn't want us to be together".
"Yes he does, but you need to act like you want to fight for it. Come on Bonnie, you are willing to fight Klaus, werewolves and other vampires, but you don't want to fight for a relationship?"
I nodded, "I hope you have a really great time at the party, Caroline", I answered.
"I hope you're not here when I get back, Bonnie", Caroline smiled as she walked over and hugged me tightly, "I know it will take a lot, but I want you to be as happy as you can be and for better or for worse, you love that jerk".
"Go to the party, Caroline", I smiled.
She let me go and headed out of the door.
I looked towards my closet and sighed.
SSSSSS
Stefan left to attend some college party with Elena. I was sure that they would drag Bonnie out and probably try to match her with another coed. Hopefully after what happened with Nate, she was hesitant to align herself with another normal guy so soon. Yeah, I'm a bastard for being happy about that, but I'm also a jealous, selfish bastard that doesn't like to share anything.
I looked at my cell phone and began to go through the numbers; maybe, I can find a nice little blond to take the edge off tonight. A little dancing, a little drinking and whatever else that caught my fancy. "Joanna…Rebecca…Daisy…yelch…Heidi…yes…Heidi", I thought out loud as I pressed her name and the phone began to dial just as someone knocked on the door, "ok Heidi, you may have to wait. Maybe I have some food being delivered right now".
I rose from the couch and walked over to the door, opening it to reveal Bonnie. She was standing on the stairs looking at me with a slightly unsure look, "Caroline and Elena went to a party. I didn't want to be in the house alone, I took a chance on you being here".
"So I am", I replied leaning in the doorway.
"Is Stefan here?" she asked peering over my shoulder.
"Nope…he went to the party with Elena".
"Oh…can I come in?"
"Do you really want to do that without any chaperones?" I raised my eyebrow and smirked at her.
"Do you think I would drive all the way over here if I didn't?" she countered.
"My Little Witch gets feistier and feistier as the days go on", I moved to the side as she walked in and headed towards the living room.
"Soo Bonnie, what brings you by?" I asked, "since we've been having a contest in avoiding each other, what made you break your streak?"
"I wanted to say something to you", she replied turning to me and I noticed that she was playing with her fingers as if she was nervous.
"And that would be…"
"I'm miserable", she replied.
"What?"
"Ever since that night that we faced Klaus, I've gone over every single moment in my head over and over again. I've wondered about my mother, she spent years with Klaus. I don't know if any of them were happy ones and did it because of me. She wanted to protect me from a fate that was written hundreds of years ago".
"Ok…"
"And I don't want that, I don't want anyone else protecting me and I don't want anyone else making their life hell to protect me…so I'm offering you something", she replied.
I leaned in closer, "And what would that be?"
"A spell", I replied, "a spell to make us forget about what we had, a spell that would make it easier to move on".
"But why would you want to do that?"
"Because after everything that's happened between us…the hate…the love…the obsession…the passion, if we are going to continue circling each other…being jealous of whomever the other dates or gets involved with, I rather not have those memories".
"So you can do that? Wipe out every memory of us being together? Make us forget what we meant to each other?" I asked leaning closer to her.
She looked up at me and I could see the steadfast look in her eyes, "Yes".
"Do you want to do that?"
"I don't want to hurt anymore", she whispered
I looked at her and took a deep breath, "I think you should do whatever is best for you".
I watched as she swallowed and turned to walk towards the door. This was for the best…
SSSSS
I expected him to tell me no. No, he didn't want his memories erased because being with me was something that he never imagined, but when it happened—he realized that he didn't want to live without being with me. I thought that was what he would say to me, boy was I wrong. I opened the door to walk out of the boarding house and I felt him grab my arm.
"Bonnie", Damon whispered as I turned around to face him, "I need you to know something, I don't want to be apart from you…"
"Then don't be", I cut him off, "Damon, I know...I know that you are selfish. I know that you can be totally immature, petty and mean…"
"Wow…I thought that you would try to flatter me", Damon snorted.
I smiled, "But I also know that when you love someone, you are dedicated to them and you will risk everything and sometimes anyone to keep them safe. It took me a long time to realize that beyond that cocky, arrogant demeanor there's a good guy and one that although I fought against it…a guy that I could see myself spending the foreseeable future with".
"Bonnie, that future…how do you see it…With children? With me? Because one of those things is impossible", Damon replied walking away from me, "and that is the problem, that hasn't changed".
"I know that. I know that we could never have children, but human couples have the same problems…Damon, I am far off from wanting to be a mother, but right now…I want to be with you now and that's really all that matters".
"So tell me. What happens if I suddenly have a moment of selfishness and try to turn you so that I can have you forever?" Damon asked looking down at me.
"Do you know what Stefan did before we went into that house?" I asked.
"What?"
"He made me drink his blood. He said that if I died, there was no way that he would spend eternity with you hating me. He would turn me into a vampire first and you know what, I had a moment when I thought he was joking…I realized he wasn't and I drank from him. I don't know if I will ever be ready to be turned, but I do know that I want to be with you, whatever that means and if I have to burn down this house to prove it to you, I will", I smirked looking at him.
"Oh…burn down my house huh?" he asked taking my hand and turning me around so that my back was against his chest and his head rested on my shoulder, "and what else will you do?"
I turned to meet his crystal blue eyes, "Anything it takes to let you know that we can't end this now, not as long we are both walking this earth".
Damon reached across and captured my lips into a kiss.
SSSSS
The moonlight drifted into the room and I watched as the trees danced against the wall. I was sitting up in a MSU t-shirt and shorts (much to Damon's chagrin) and I watched as he slept next to him. Sure, there is never a sure way to know if Damon is truly sleeping. After admitting to him that I wanted to be with him and we shouldn't for one moment give up on each other, Damon naturally tried to express his happiness over our new agreement by getting me in bed, but I somehow got him to just come upstairs and wrap his arm around me and sleep next to me. He complained for awhile and then he decided that he would make it his duty to wear me down.
Now, he lay next to me fully clothed with his eyes closed and his hand on his heart. I leaned down and placed my head on his chest. I heard nothing, it was very hard to adjust to. I know that he's a vampire…I know that he's capable of horrendous acts, but I also know that even though he doesn't have a heart beating that there is something…something inside of him that makes him care, love and make sure that everyone that he cares about is ok.
I know now that I want to be with him for as long as I can. The thought of not being with him scares me and makes me not want to consider the possibility. I know that there is a way for us to be together forever. It 's always in the back of my mind that with a few swift moments, I could be with him for the rest of my life…for decades…for centuries…and we could be happy…well Bonnie and Damon happy, whatever that is.
"What are you doing?" he asked with his eyes closed startling me for a few moments.
"Is it weird not to have a heart beating?" I asked tracing my finger alongside the place where his non-beating heart was enclosed in his body.
He spoke without opening his eyes, "It's been so long, I'm used to it".
"How long do you think it would take me to get used to it", I asked.
His eyes flew open and he sat up looking at me, "Bonnie, we are not having this conversation".
"I want you to know something", I said looking down at the blanket and playing with a loose thread, "you're not the only one who has thoughts of me being with you forever. I think about it. I have thought about it".
"Bonnie..."
"And I have to tell you, it scares me. It doesn't scare me knowing that I could possibly be with you forever, the transition scares me and the person that I may become scares me".
Damon sat up and touched my cheek, "Trust me, when you are ready to make that transition…if you are ever ready to make that transition, I will be here and I will help you…"
I rose my eyebrow.
"Ok, Stefan will be here to help you too".
"But the question is...will you be able to wait until I am ready for that?" I asked looking at him.
"Well I have forever…" he drifted off with a roll of the eyes.
I giggled, "You sure do…"
"Now that we've had this talk, can we have sex now?" he wiggled his eyebrow.
"Hahaha…no…you have forever remember", I laughed settling down into bed.
"Bonnie...", he called.
I closed my eyes and turned over.
"Bonnniiiieeee", he sung.
I smiled in my sleep…I knew we had forever…and one day, we would both be sure of it.
That's it!
P.S. I am very slowly working on a continuation of 'For Their Own Good'...I mean, we can't have Sam out there somewhere alone.