Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all
But you never give
Should've known you was trouble
From the first kiss
Had your eyes wide open
Why were they open?

Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love
Is all I ever asked
Cause what you don't understand
Is

I'd catch a grenade for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
You know I'd do anything for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no

Black, black, black and blue
Beat me 'til I'm numb
Tell the devil I said "Hey" when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman
That's just what you are
Yeah, you smile in my face then rip the brakes out my car

Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love
Is all I ever asked
Cause what you don't understand
Is

I'd catch a grenade for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on the blade for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
You know I'd do anything for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire
You would watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me, you're a liar
Cause you never ever ever did, baby

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes I would die for you baby
But you won't do the same

No, you won't do the same
You wouldn't do the same
Ooh, you'd never do the same
Oh, no no no

Grenade- Bruno Mars

But, darling, I'd still catch a grenade for you
Throw my hand on the blade for you
I'd jump in front of a train for you
You know I'd do anything for you

June 27: Rain Rain, Go Away! Come Again, Another Day! Once Again, Another Day of Hell

I sat there sitting in the arm of the window, staring out seeing my reflection and listening the sound of drip-dropping of the rain fall unto the ground. I hated rain, It was so depressing, and gloomy! Well maybe I should love rain since I am, myself depressing and gloomy. I bet It haven't rained In this old rusty dirt town they Albuquerque, In a long time. It been a couple of hours, since I ran away and came back home! Why did I come back, Why didn't I just go run off somewhere!

My thoughts were interrupted by the sound of knocking on my door and I sighed. And sat back straight in the window and sighed again, as the door crept slowly opened revealing Lucille. She had this large goofy smile on her face, while something was hidden behind her back.

"Good Morning" She hummed softly before awkwardly, taking a seat next to me causing me to frown.

"Um, Morning" I said, eyeing what she hidden behind her back.

"Well, I'm glad that you're up because I have something to show you" She said before placing the hidden object on her lap and her fingers brushed slightly over them, dusting It off revealing the large words that read: East High Class Of 78!

"Is that?" I questioned but she replied as If she knew what I was going to already ask!

"Uh, Huh. East High Class Of 78! God I'm Old" She mumbled before handing me the book and I skimmed through the pages.

I stopped when I saw one page, where the cheerleaders were. I skimmed the page until I saw one particular female. She had long brown hair, that went passed her shoulders, and she had green eyes that sparkled with joy, as she smiled and posed. She was beautiful, which made me envy her. I looked down at the name and froze when the name read: Maria Cortez

"Is that my mom" I asked and Lucille nodded softly

"And there goes me" She pointed at the girl with the long beautiful black hair and beautiful blue eyes, she stood right next to Maria, as they posed together.

"My Mom, I mean Maria never told me she was a cheerleader! Oh Yeah, she always too busy trying to save her stupid marriages"

From the corner of my eye, I could see Lucille eyeing me closely before leaning over and turning the page for me.

I looked down at the page and saw the title was Prom King & Queen. I looked down at the couple that was listed Prom King & Queen and frowned. The queen had a beautiful peach-colored gown with golden tanned skin sparkling with glitter and her long brown hair straightened down to her shoulders as the tiara sat perfectly on top of her head, as she was a real queen and her green eyes sparkled towards the direction of the male her arms were entwined with. The King however looked very familiar, he had a black two-piece, single-breasted suit, with peach handkerchief, to match his queen's dress. His chestnut colored eyes stared deeply into his queen's as they nuzzled their noses together, as if they were a sculpted picture.

I looked down at the names and I felt my eyes start to water as they read: Maria Cortez and David Montez! Prom King and Queen of 78!

"Is that..My dad" I cried and Lucy nodded

"He was so handsome"

"Yeah, he was and Maria was beautiful just like how her daughter is today"

"I don't remember what he looks like! Its all just a blur, All I can remember, is the day he he..hee"

"He killed himself"

"Why didn't he like me, Why didn't he love me" I cried and Lucille pulled me into a hug as I sobbed

"Gabriella, Your father loved you very much"

"Why did he leave me"

"Gabriella listen to me, a couple of months before your father's death, he found out he had cancer. Months and months, the doctor said he was gonna go everyday and everyday very painful! He didn't want you see him suffer, he didn't want you to see him loose all of his hair and see him get sicker and sicker"

"No! You're wrong! He didn't want me, he killed himself because of me! All because of me. That's why my mother hates me so much and she doesn't care"

"Gabriella everyone deals with pain different ways, and you're mother deals with It her way. How do you think she feels about her husband killing himself. All she had was David"

"She doesn't care. I haven't even seen her shed one tear, not one tear in the last 10 or 11 years. She doesn't care, she didn't even care about me at his funeral"

"Gabriella"

"No! All because of me, he didn't want me"

"Its okay, honey!"

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

Burying my face, into the pillow! The word cancer throbbing through my head. My Dad had…cancer! Why didn't they tell me? Why couldn't they just say Daddy was sick? Why Did He had to kill himself? Why? Why God? Why World? Why Me?

I lift my head from the pillow when a knock was heard ringing through my ears. The door slowly crept opened and I saw Lucille peeked her head in for the fucking a millionth time.

"Gabriella, you alright in here"

"Yes!" I snapped for the millionth time

"Okay" I heard Lucille reply hurt and I felt guilt pass through me and turned around

"Wait, Lucy"

"Yes?"

"Never mind" I said and she nodded before slowly before peeking head back in

"Oh and dinner is ready so, if you're hungry, you may come down"

Saw you fell asleep
While you were reading
Pages on your face
You had been weeping

And I saw
What it was
That I had done

But last night
We fell apart
And broke to pieces

Our love was in the hall
All packed in boxes

And I saw
What it was
That I had done
To you

I was wrong
I was wrong

Yeah...

I was wrong
I was wrong

Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh
Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh

Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh

June 28: Dear Dad

I leaned against the wooden dock of the pier, as I watched the waves crash unto one another and wash away sandcastles. I reached into my pocket and pulled the out the rolled paper and opened the cork to the bottle and squeezed the paper through the hole. I placed my notebook back into my pocket and push the cork back into the bottle. Before taking one breath, I through the message in the bottle out unto the shore, before watching shortly as It washed away.

Dear Dad,

Why didn't you were sick. I know that I was just a little girl, but I was a strong girl Papa. I could have stuck with you, through It all. Why did have to go and end your life. Now, look at me, I'm hopeless. I cant go to Father-Daughter Dances now or go to beach with you and make sand castles and enjoy Ice Cream or go to the park and you push me on the swings. Why did you leave me? Did you hate me? Why did you hate me so much? Why Did you do this to me. Why? I miss you so much and wish that you could be here with me right now. If you wanted to die, then I want to die too. Ill be with you soon again

Your Daughter,

Gabriella

Author's Note- I know Its very short! I'm sorry! I'm sorry I haven't updated in like months but the next chapter is going to be all about TROYELLA. And some new characters will be introduced. I will spice things up too. And also, I am searching for a story and It was an story on fan fiction that had been reading like three or two years! I know I been Fanfiction that long, huh! Lol! But anyways, Its was about Gabriella had been kidnapped when she had gone to the mall with her friends and then her so called new parents had changed her name to like something like Alicia or something that starts with an A. And she been missing and her brother finally comes to her school but he doesn't recognize her. I think the story is was called Shadows of the night or Shadow something? And also, I'm looking for another, Its about Gabriella had gone missing and that one day, Troy had thought he had found her but she doesn't remember him but the only difference of her is that her eyes were silver instead of Brown. I don't know, its just I had a list of stories I read but I lost it so yeah. But anyways Thanks for reading and please review!