A/N: here you go the Twelth, I will upload to day another one. To compensate that I didin't update yestarday. Bu now enjoy!
Clay saddled his horse, two weeks ago he had came to Ponderosa, two weeks ago he hoped to have something with his little brother. Two weeks ago he had forgot, that Joe Cartwright wasn't his brother. Of course he was his brother by blood and genes, but not by soul. Little Joe Cartwright already had two brothers, who he loved more than Clay, even if he didn't admit it to himself.
Clay had known that he wasn't very much of a brother. But he had understand that more when he watched Adam and Hoss interact with Joe, they had fun, they argued, they fought, they were always there for each other. Clay knew that he could never to that. So he packed his things and saddled his horse at pre-dawn hour, before Joe, his brothers and father woke up. He left a letter with apology. Nevada and Ponderosa wasn't his place, it belonged to Joe and the Cartwright's. He left, forever, Joe didn't belong to him, he belonged here, but Caly didn't belong anywhere.