Authors note: oh my goodness...i am sooo sorry for taking fricken forever to update...what has it been? like 4 months..i can't apoligize enough :( i had a reason for like the first 2 weeks of not updating...then i just kinda got lazy and never wrote..but i promise to update wayyyyy more often!! please dont hate me :( i love every single one of you to death! your reviews make my day ^.^ even if it's not a so good one, i could use the feedback! anyway, on with the chapter! i hope you like it!!

Chapter 6

BPOV

I need time to think. Time to breath. Time to wrap my head around the idea that the world I live in isn't what I thought it was. When I got to La Push the always smiling Jacob was there greeting me.

"Hey Bella, to what do I owe this pleasure?" Jake says smiling.

"Just needed to get away ya know?" I say getting out of my truck. Then I notice that he had a growth spurt..quite a big one.

"Jake your huge!" I say in surprise.

He gives me a sheepish grin, "Yeah think someones been putting something in my food."

I laugh as he leads the way inside his house.

"Hey Bella" says Billy cheerfully.

"Hi Billy!" I say cheerfully back.

Jacob and I head to his room to talk. I look around and there's cloths and stuff thrown about everywhere.

"Sorry about the mess..." Jake says embarrassed.

I smile, "It's okay. I think it's charming."

"Haha thanks, so, Bella, what's up?" Jacob asks curiously.

"Oh, nothing really. I got an A on my test that Edward helped me study for." and I also almost had my blood sucked by a blood thirsty vampire when I accidentally cut my finger, I think to myself.

Jacobs eyes darken a little. "Oh so you and him are getting along now, he's just a jerk Bella I don't see why you like him."

"Neither do I..." I mumble to myself.

All of the sudden Jake's face brightens. "Hey Bella, are you going to participate in the fall sports competition thing?" he asks with a mischievous grin.

I bust up laughing. "Are you kidding me, I am the most uncoordinated person. I suck at like everything. I'd probably end up killing someone." I say when I finally stop laughing.

"Aww c'mon Bells it would be fun!" he says persuasively.

"pfft whatever, it would be fun for you watching me fall down every two seconds. But I can pretty much guarantee that it wont be fun for me." I say rolling my eyes.

"Please Bella, please please please." he says giving me puppy eyes. Jake really was kinda pretty in his own weird way.

"Ugh...fine.." I say giving in.

"Yes! Trust me Bella, we'll have a blast." Jacob says grinning from ear to ear.

We talk and laugh for a few more hours and then I decide that it's probably time to head to bed. "Night Jake, see you in the morning." I say getting up and yawning.

"Okay goodnight Bella, I stuck a blanket on the couch for you." he said heading to his room.

As I was trying to fall asleep I was surprised to find myself a little excited for tomorrow. I think that the Cullens are going to go too.

I fell asleep with thoughts of the odds being on my end and actually winning an event or something. When I get up in the morning I go downstairs to eat breakfast and me and Jake head out to the fall sports thingy.

When we get there I see that there's several events going on at once, but it was more like a bunch of friendly small competitions like tug of war, a little soccer match, relay races, it was all kinda fun looking!

"Why don't you sign up for a couple relay races? Then the worst that'll happen is you trip and lose." Jake suggests teasingly.

I roll my eyes at him, "Yeah I guess, ill sign up for a relay race."

I walk over to the sign up for two relay races and I pick one with everyone. I find out that im supposed to get a piece of paper that will tell me how to choose my relay partner.

"Ooh Bella, pick a good one, you dont want to get stuck with a slow person." Jake says snickering.

I glare at him, "I dont descriminate against slow people Jake. This is supposed to be fun."

"Yeah, yeah" he says dismisivly.

I pick up a random piece of paper from the table and it says, "The Person You Love." I stare at the paper in disbelief. I try to put it back and pick a different one hoping Jake doesnt notice.

"Haha no Bella, you have to go with the one you chose first, what'd it say?" He asks amused.

"Uhm...it said..that uh..i had to pick someone that I love.." I stutter out embarrassed.

Jakes face goes stoney, "So, who're you going to pick?"

"Uh..." I say stupidly not able to think of a response.

Okay wait, now its not like whoever made this is going to know who I love..so I could pick anyone and say I love them..I love Jake like a brotherly person..so I could pick him! But then again, he could end up taking it the wrong way..Oh man, why'd I have to fall for Edward...Okay I can do this, I can walk up to him and ask him to be my relay partner, he doesnt have to know why i'm picking him..

I walk over to where him and his family are sitting and start to get up the courage to ask Edward.. "Uh.." I say not being able to get the words right..and at before my pause makes me look like to much of an idiot I blurt "Carlisle!, will you be my relay partner?"

I glance over at Edward and he's giving me a funny look. "Why sure Bella, i'll be your relay partner!" Carlisle says grinning.

I smile at him, "Thanks Carlisle, I appreciate it."

"No problem Bella." Carlisle says nicely.

I walk over to where Jake is and he says confusedly, "What was that? You asked Carlisle?"

"Yeah...I love him like a second dad..." I say lamely.

"Okay, whatever.." Jacob says and walks off.

When it's time for the race to start I walk with Carlisle to the starting line. "Good luck Bella, have fun, try your best!" Carlisle says cheerfully.

"Okay..we probably wont win though.." I say slightly gloomily.

"It's all good." Carlisle says kindly.

"Okay" I say grateful that Carlisle such a good sport.

When the starter guy shoots the starting gun I start running as fast as I can. Erg I discover that as fast as I can isn't very fast...at all..I'm one of the people toward the end.

I try and hurry to the half way mark so that I can pass the baton to the cheering Carlisle. I hand it off to him and he's one of the last people to head off to the finish line. I cut across the crowd over to the finish line to wait for them. I see Jacob and Carlisle as the first two. What the heck? Carlisle was one of the last to leave. As they were just getting to the finish line someone pushes me and I tumble to the ground, in the same instant it feels like I was kicked in the stomach. All the breath leaves my body and I can sorta see stars. Someone is picking me up and carrying me somewhere. I can hear talking going on around me.

"What the hell Edward, put her down!" I hear a voice demand angrily. Woah, I guess this mean the person carrying me is Edward.

"No, I am taking her to lay down by my family where she can be tended to. I don't see why I should put her down when you were the one stupid enough to trip on her Black." Edward says coolly.

"Fine, whatever." Jake grumbles. Nothing else is said so I guess that he walked off. I'm going to have to talk to him later so he knows there's no hard feelings.

"Oh my gosh! What happened to her?!" I hear a girly voice say worriedly, I assume its Alice.

"The stupid Black kid tripped over her when he crossed the finish line." Edward says irritatedly.

"How did she get tripped over? Was she taking a nap in front of the finish line?" I hear a voice say teasingly that can only be Emmett's.

"No, someone pushed her and she fell." I hear Edward say, I can just picture him rolling his eyes.

"Oh..well that's a lot less fun." Emmett says clearly disappointed.

"uhhn.." I say being able to kind of find my voice again.

"Bella, are you okay, do you need anything?" I hear Edward ask.

I open my eyes and see Edward standing above me and see Alice and Emmett looking at me with curious looks on their faces.

"Uhm...maybe just some water, i'm really thirsty." I mumble blushing at all the attention.

"Haha she's blushing and no one even said anything embarrassing." Emmett says laughing.

"Shut up!" I grumble.

"Hahaha fine, let's go home." Emmett suggests.

So, we head back home and are all hanging out in the living room talking and doing our own things.

"So Bella, how are things at school?" Charlie asks.

"Uhm, fine dad, thanks for asking." I say pleasantly.

"Any guys out there caught your interest?" Charlie asks teasingly.

I blush furiously, "No, none are really my type."

"Oh, really, I must be mistaken. I thought that I was your type." Edward says arrogantly.

I look at him furiously and blush deeply, "You are most definitely not my type!"

"Oh reallly? Then please explain this.." Edward says holding up my journal.

"Edward!! That's my personal journal! What the heck are you doing reading it?!" I say in complete shock and embarrassment.

"Well Bella, if you don't want anyone to read it then you shouldn't put it in such an obvious place..someone could just be changing your sheets and stumble upon it..and any normal person wouldn't give up the chance when given the opportunity.." Edward says like he really did nothing wrong.

"Oh my goodness! Will you just give it here?!!" I ask burning with anger and embarrassment.

"Not until I share with everyone here how much I am your type." Edward says with a mischievous grin.

"Edward...you shouldn't.." Esme says not wanting to upset Bella anymore.

"Well Esme, she does say in here that she thinks of you as a mother figure." Edward says with a smirk on his face at me.

"Ooh! Really? Aww Bella that makes me so happy!" Esme says with a glow about her.

"Uhm yeah." I say blushing, but happy that I inadvertently made Esme happy.

"As it turns out, Bella here is falling very deeply for me, although she doesn't want to. She also thinks that i'm pretty fricken amazing to say in the least. By the looks of it here I would have to say that Bella loves me." Edward says slightly mockingly.

I walk up to him and slap him right across the face, "You ass hole." I say with tears gathering in my eyes.

I walk off to my room wanting to hide in a hole. When I get to the stairs all of the sudden someone bangs through the front door. I turn around curiously to see what it was...to my surprise it was an extremely angry looking Jake.

"Bella is what he said true?! Do you love him?!" Jake shouts angrily.

"What the hell!? Were you listening outside the door?!" I ask completely confused.

"Uhm..yes.." Jake says slightly embarrassed. "But only because I wanted to know what was going on! Bella I love you so much! It breaks my heart to find out from..from..that! That you love him..and the way he did it was completely awful too! Bella how can you pick him over me?!

"Jake! I don't like you like that, please stop! You're my best friend. Please let's just stop this..i'm really sorry.." I say in near tears and head up to my room.

EPOV

The family is in a shocked silence as Jacob lets himself out. Then all hell breaks loose.

"Edward you cannot date the human. We all know you have a thing for her, and it doesn't help that she now knows our secret, but you'll be throwing away her life by being with her Edward you can't." Jasper says persuasively.

"What are you talking about man?! I do not have a thing for her!" I say defiantly.

"Haha riiight. Then tell her." Emmett says laughing.

"I will!" I say angrily. It wont be hard to tell Bella I don't care about her. Because I don't..at all..I go into her room and close the door behind me..i'm not shocked in the least to hear my family behind the door to eavesdrop.

"What do you want?" she sniffles.

"I just wanted to make it clear that I don't like you at all, it's quite near hate with all the trouble your causing my family." I say coldly, feeling really bad about the hurt that shows so clearly in her big brown eyes.

"Yeah, okay I get it Edward, you'll never like me, you can leave now and stop rubbing it in." she says clearly devestated. I can't just leave her in pain...

"Well..maybe not never..sometimes some peoples feelings of hate turn into love." I say quietly. Just then the door crashes down and my family falls on top of eachother with embarrassed and shocked faces. Shocked i'm guessing because of what I said, and embarrassed for being caught in the act of eavesdropping.

Bella looks up at me with hope in her eyes, i'm sure hope at the possibility of a future with me. I'm not gonna lie..the thought of spending the rest of my life with her didn't sound that bad..not that bad at all..

End Authors Note: I hope you liked it :)? once i got going again it was easy to write..i just needed the determination and ability to focus..which im not very good with (the focusing part) anyway, i know i dont deserve it for taking forever to update...but it would be much appreciated if you reviewed! :D it might even bring the next chapter faster because well, who doesnt like encouragement :P