Chapter 4

On my way out, I stumbled forward after some twat seemed to think it would be funny to trip me up.

"Oh I'm , sooooooooo sorry didn't see you there at all, though to be honest I don't know how. I mean look at the size of you and that ring, so fake. Urgh, I hate cheap tat still can't all be like me."

I wanted to hit her, for one thing I wasn't nearly as fat as that gob of hers. Second she is the fakest thing I've ever seen bleach blonde hair, dyed obviously, shortest skirt ever and the brightest pink bra that you could evidently see threw her shirt.

Though I doubt it wasn't deliberate.

And third the ring I'm wearing is my mother's wedding ring; I wear it to keep her close to me. It's not cheap, its 20 karat gold. " Oh my apologies, couldn't see you either, must have been the layers of makeup, either way I'll be sure to look where I'm going next time" I lazily walked off.

I finally got home and quickly changed , remembering I was going to Kai's I put on my fave tight fitting jeans and a crop top, along with my favourite cardy and conversers. Not too much, just enough.

I got to Kai's and had to double check the number because it was huge; I felt so out of place. Insignificant. The old brickwork was stunning and had a certain royal charm about it. An old balding man opened the door,

"Can I help you my dear?"

I scratched the back of my head nervously.

"Uhm, Does Kai live here? He told me to come here for his ban-",

"Oh heeey, guys Trisha's here."

I heard Tala shout from the top of the grand stairs, making me feeling very small.

"OH, COOL SEND HER UP."

Came a familiar voice what was his name again,Jack? The old man smiled at me and told me to go with Tala. What? Tala was here? I complied and followed the stairs till I saw a grinning Tala.

"So you came eh? didn't believe him when he said he got you to join." He winked.

I suddenly realised how much i'd missed him. I jumped on him and he hugged me back. After my small display of affection he simply smiled and led me to a rather large door. I walked into a completely professional mini studio/ front room.

"Whoa."

Kai's smug look was easy to spot a mile off. I walked in

"So what do I do?"

"What do you feel like doing",

"Can you just get this over with, I'm bored already".

"Got a live one here don't you Kaiser."

I then turned my head to find another guy sitting in a love seat with a guitar,

"And you are?"

"The names Michael, toots." Toots? Who the hell says toots? Got a right dickhead here.

"Aha, I can just tell we are gonna get along."

I replied sarcastically, but it seems he wasn't quite the ticket and didn't comprehend my sarcasm. I heard Kai, Jack and Tala snicker in the background.

"I'm not going to ask again, what you want me to do.",

"Well I'll get you the demo for our new song and show you the parts, it's a remix on somebody to love."

"Somebody to love? Weird choice, Lets here it."

He played the demo, and it was pretty good, but he was right in the sense that whoever was singing had a good voice but was more of a back up vocalist.

He gave me my lines even though I would probably change them, led me to the recording room and sat behind the mixer, he gave me my kew and I didn't feel stressed of embarrassed. Probably because he was the only one in the room at the moment, he must have realised It would make me nervous.

"Go for it."

He encouraged, the rapper introduced the beginning until I was ready to join in, I hummed myself into the beginning, I began my lines flowing fairly well but I wasn't really trying, I think he must have noticed.

"Hold up",

"What?"

The track had stopped and I was scared that I was cocking it up but to my relief he said

"I know you can hit that note a lot better than that it's important we get the last line"

"Sure, sure"

"Go from: I just can't."

"Right we have it, thanks that was great." I was pleased; I knew I was an ok singer, but they could have got anyone for that.

"Thanks."

He twisted towards me again,

"I think that's it for now , I'm just going to edit it in , and see If I need you to re do anything , wanna watch?"

"Sure."

I watched in amazement as he fiddled with everything, making it all flow perfectly, we left the room after he had tweaked around. I heard front door slam and the force of it must have been physically powerful as I felt it as well.

"Grandson!"

He rushed down stairs and I followed, not knowing that I shouldn't have.

"And who the hell is this? Another one of your whores?"

Kai took a quick look at me with dread in his eyes, but that soon turned to a look of hate.

"Get the fuck out."

I wouldn't give him the satisfaction of an answer so I slammed the door on the way out hoping to break something. How could I be so stupid, I recorded the rest of it with him so they have all they wanted now, god how I hate myself.

I sprinted down the road, I could hear Jack and Tala calling me, I reached a park suddenly grateful for being fast. As soon as I got to the nearest bench I broke down, I was livid, trying my hardest not to hit something or cry. My tries were in vain as I felt hot salty liquid falling down my cheek, I cursed myself I got up and started inflicting my anger on a tree. After about ten minutes, my hands were covered in dried blood and I felt sick from crying. Now I'm going to have to go home with nothing to do, and my mum will be there asking shitty questions , I sat there for an immeasurable amount of time listening to my iPod, when the crisp breeze came I could still feel the sticky tears that had left streaks down my face.