Oh my god so so so sorry for not posting please forgive me and for the wait i will be making a new story. Without further ado here is my story.

Logan pushed me up against a wall and my back felt the cold hard surface I wriggled my hands away and put them on his chest. I took one hard shove pushing him away wiping my hand on my sleeve, "I'm not like that. I'm not going back with you, Logan you hurt me. And you can not change that," I said and walked out of the room. I walked up to my room and threw myself at my bed, "Ugh," I said telling my friends about everything. I grabbed my things for my next class before walking with my friends to our next class.

As soon as I walked into the tea room I saw Logan standing there and walked passed him and took a seat at my favorite tea table by the window next to Hailey and Paige who must have a short cut because I left before them. I leaned my head against the cold window and took a peek out. I took a shaky breathe exhaling. A single tear slipped down my cheek, and I knew it was the last I would ever shed for Logan.

Enough years later that she is 21. too lazy to do the math.

I leaned my head against the window taking a shaky breathe exhaling. A single tear slipped down my cheek and I brushed it away looking up at my driver who apparently asked a question while I was thinking, "I'm sorry what?" I asked. "Where are we going Mrs. Goode?" he asked again. "Oh just to the apartment," I responded. He nodded and turned right toward where my apartment is. Once we were there I stepped out in my white high heels with white skirt and matching jacket and shirt. The driver handed me my briefcase with a smile and I took that along with my brown and cream checkered suitcase and carry on bag. I walked into my apartment building and waved to the door man before walking to the elevator.

I pressed the button twice for good measure before waiting patiently for the gold doors to open. I stepped in and felt myself descend higher up until I was on my floor. I picked my bags back up and stepped out going to my apartment building and opening the door. Walking in I threw my keys on the table and dropped my bags shutting the door. I took off my shoes throwing them to the side then threw off the jacket going to my bedroom. I changed into my sweatpants and a t-shirt and then turned on my stereo really loud. I fell to the floor crying clutching my stomach. "WHY!" I screamed crying the breathing coming out jagged as I sat on my feet. I fell back toward the wall crying really loud. The noise was drowned out by the loud music. I looked around my room crying not knowing what to do.

Finally I finished crying and picked up my phone. First I called Paige's mom. "Hello, It's Lilly, I'm sorry to say that Paige has just been in a plane crash," I informed her mother once she picked up. I heard her sobs cut through and I felt tears well up, "I'm sorry m'am." I hung up quickly and then dialed Hailey's home phone, "Hello, It's Lilly, I'm very sorry to say that Hailey has just been in a plane crash," I choked on the last words. He dropped the phone, I could tell and a loud buzz went through the phone so I knew the line was disconnected. I called the final number, my mother, "Mom, Alley was in a plane crash. Paige, Hailey, and Alley were on a plane coming back from an aborted mission. The- the plane had a bomb, they're all dead." I began crying and then heard my mom start crying, "Honey, I'm sorry. Please calm down. I will call headquarters everything will be fine. Just calm down," She said and hung up.

Finally I stopped crying and let go of the phone I was clutching so tightly. They found the plane, they rescued the bodies, they were in the hospital now. I sobbed more I was supposed to be on that plane, I should have been there. I went into the bathroom and removed the hairpins letting my blonde hair fall down to my waist. I looked at myself in the mirror and tried to smile it faltering with every sob. I changed and stepped in the shower letting the hot water calm my nerves. I poured some strawberry shampoo in my hair and began scrubbing trying to stop thinking of everything that was going on.

I conditioned and washed with soap before rinsing and stepping out. I wrapped myself in a towel drying off and wrapped my hair in a towel. Then I brushed it and grabbed my scissors and snipped it until it was five inches below my shoulder. I put it in a high ponytail on the top of my head and snipped it straight they let it fall in layers. Then I angled my bangs and dried my hair more. I stepped back in the shower rinsing off any hair that was on me. Then I changed into shorts and a t-shirt. I put my hair in a high ponytail and laid down on the couch falling into a gentle sleep. This was my first sleep since two nights ago.

I woke up to a gentle knocking on the door. "Good morning Logan," I said opening the door. I ended up eating with him and falling asleep on his lap. We had been friends now, for a while. But he was still in love with me. I woke up and his arms were around me. This lead to a fight about him wanting me and me not wanting him. Which ended when I started making out with him.

He pulled away, "Lilly," he pleaded looking at me as I pulled him closer. "Why if you love me will you not kiss me?" I asked stepping back. "Because you don't love me," he replied simply. I rolled my eyes and went to the fridge pulling out a bottle of wine. I opened it and threw my head back chugging it. He came closer and pulled the bottle away. I rolled my eyes, "I'm not going to drink it all," I said already having drank a lot. I stole the bottle back and chugged it again this time he pulled it away again and threw it out the window. I had drank more than half the bottle in that short while and I was a little tipsy. I was a really light weight. I grabbed a beer from the fridge and drank all of that and then another and this time he just stared at me with a sick look on his face.

This was what I did when I was upset, I either tried to get to kiss me and when he didn't I drank too much. But this time was different, he pulled the bottle away and put it on the table pulling me toward him. He picked me up easily and kissed me. We stayed like that for a while before he moved away setting me down. I don't quite remember how the rest of the night went but I woke up alone in my room my hair messed slightly. A note was next to me on the pillow, 'Went out to get food hope you don't mind, -L,' I smiled and went to the shower changing into some jeans and a t-shirt. He came back when I finished changing with two bagels and a coffee for me. I kissed him on the lips, which is something I never did unless I was upset which I wasn't.

I smiled, "Thanks Logan. And I... I want to try again. Because I do love you." He dropped the bag he had in his hand and luckily I had already taken my coffee. I kissed him on the cheek and picked up the bag setting it on the coffee table and sitting on the couch. I turned on the tv and we started watching the news report about the plane crash. I felt his eyes watching me as I curled my knees close to me and started eating the bagel. I smiled slightly and bit my lip. Then feeling guilty that my friends and family were hurt and I was spending my time with some boy.

Hope you enjoyed the chapter. Sorry it took such a weird turn but I hope you like it.