"Abby...Are you ok?"Alec asked me. I looked up as I felt him place his hand on my shoulder comfortingly. I gave him a small smile and slight nod of my head, but he didn't look convinced, "Abby, I can tell you're lying to me. Don't do that. You know how much I hate it."
"I know... I'm sorry..." I dropped my head down and my bangs hid my eyes as the first of many tears fell. I just stood there for a minute and cried silently before pressing the heals of my palms to my eyes to cease the tears that flowed almost incessantly. As I looked back up, my soft, clear-as-water, blue eyes met Alec's dark-as-cobalt, blue ones. He gave me a reassuring smile and then hugged me tightly. I returned his embrace with just as much force. It felt great to be hugged by him again. I'd really missed it.
"Here for barely over an hour and you're already in tears. What's up with that? It's been four years since I've seen you. We should be laughing and having one hell of a time right now." he smiled at me.
When I let go of him and took a small step back he ruffled my hair, "Hey! Not cool man! My hair is bad enough as is. I soooo don't need you to make it any worse." I smacked his hand away and looked back at Clary, "I am so sorry about that... It's just like... That's the first time it's really hit me that they're gone and I hadn't cried over it yet so I just kind...exploded I guess." I smiled sheepishly at her.
She walked over to me and gave me a hug, "It's fine. My mum's only missing and I'm a complete mess, so I can only imagine how you're feeling right now." she let go of me.
"Thanks. You know, you seem pretty cool for a should-be mundane."
"Should-be mundane? What do you mean?" she looked at me with a slightly confused expression.
"You should be a mundane, but you're actually one of us."
"Oh... I see..."
"Yeeep." I heard the doorbell ring, "FOOD!" I shouted and bounded out of the kitchen to go answer the door. When I came to a stop in front of the huge double doors I quickly fixed my hair and checked my make-up. You never know if the pizza delivery guy is gonna be a cutey after all. When I opened the door I was pleasantly surprised. The boy holding my pizza was pretty tall, looked about maybe 5'11", which compared to my 5'3" is pretty damn tall. He had black hair that looked almost blue under the moon light, bright green eyes, snake bites, the body of a dancer, and perfect creamy white skin. He's pretty gorgeous, "Hey there." I smiled at him.
"Hey." he handed me the warm box of pizza. The smell wafted up to my nose and made my mouth water. Boy am I starved, "So that's gonna be fifteen dollars even."
I set the box on a small end table and started digging around in my pockets for the cash, "Sorry, I forgot which pocket I put it in..." I said and continued my search.
"Don't worry about it. You're cute enough that I don't mind the wait." he gave me a smirk.
"Oh really? Thank you. You're not too bad looking yourself. In fact... You're pretty hot." I pulled a crisp fifty dollar bill out of my pocket and handed it to him, "Keep the change."
"You sure about that? That's one hell of a tip." He looked down at me with surprise written all over his well defined features.
"Totally. I've got no use for it." I smiled him and took a pen out of pocket, "And here's my number. You should give me a call some time." I wrote down my seven digit number on his arm and put the pen back into my pocket.
"You know, I think I might actually call you back."He winked at me a turned around to go back to his car. I shut the door quickly and fell back against it.
"I can't believe that just happened!" I squealed and opened the box of pizza. I picked up a slice of the cheesy goodness and took a bite.
"You can't believe what just happened?" Jace asked as he rounded the corner to wait for his food to show up.
"Oh, nothing..." I shrugged and took another bite, relishing in it's awesomeness.
"I can tell when you're lying to me Abby. I'm not that stupid. Tell me what happened. You seem pretty excited about it." he leaned against the door frame.
"Really... It's nothing... I just gave the hot pizza guy my number and he said he might actually call me, which was probably a lie, but still. It's nice to think he might ya know?" I looked down at my shoes awkwardly.
"You're excited over a guy?" Jace looked almost shocked.
"Uh...yeah... Why's that weird?"
"Do you not remember the man hater you were the last time I saw you?"
"Oh yeah, but I was what...12? It's been four years, my interests have expanded, and I like boys." I even liked them that long ago, but know way would I let him know that. He was my first crush, he's the reason I started liking guys. That whole being locked away for four years just amped up my boy craziness.
"Oh... I see... Well I'm sure he'll call you back, and if he doesn't just know that he's missing out on a great girl." He ruffled my hair in a very brotherly fashion.
"Ha, right. What ever you say bro." I grabbed my box of pizza and started walking to my room, "I'll see you when the morning comes." I waved a hand and turned the corners where I felt the blood rush to my face immediately. I know he was only saying it to be nice, but hearing him tell me I'm a great girl really got me. I just wish he actually meant it. When I got back to my room I flopped down on my bed and set the box down in front of me and lifted my back pack into my lap from the floor. I pulled out my iPod and put in my headphones, almost instantly submitting to the music and ignoring the rest of the world. Pretty soon that moment of pure bliss was interrupted though; by a pissed off Izzy no less. She shouted something at me, but I couldn't hear over my music and when she saw my blank stare she walked over to me and ripped my headphones out.
"What the hell do you think you're doing?" she shouted at me.
"What do you mean? I think that I'm listening to music and just relaxing cause I've kind of had a long day. What's your problem?" I retorted.
"My problem is that you just gave some random guy your phone number. You've never done that. And don't give me that bull shit you gave Jace about being 'being away changed you', because I know better. I know better because you might look different on the outside, but in the kitchen back there you were the exact same helpless little girl you were four years ago."
Ouch, that hurt. I guess it's true though. Even back then I cried at the drop of a hat. Though I've gotten a lot better now. I really haven't cried very much lately, "Ok, so you're right, and I have my reasons for giving him my number... I know I haven't really changed yet, but I'm working on it. I'm working on my confidence. I gave that guy my number because I'm done standing still and waiting for the guy I really honestly like to notice me in that way, and even if he did it wouldn't matter because I can't be with him anyways. I'm just trying to move forward with my life. Is that so bad?"I sighed and looked down at the fists I had clenched without even realizing it.
Izzy stood there for a moment in silence, just looking at me. Her eyes showed that she was taking in and processing everything I had said. Finally she spoke, "I'm sorry... I didn't realize you were still crushing on Jace..."
"It's fine. I'm sure I'll get over it. It's just some silly school girl crush I was never allowed to get over because I wasn't able to see him change into the man he is today who I'm very sure is no longer my type."
"Ha, please. He's every girls type. Gorgeous face, great body, mysterious and charming personality, not to mention the most beautiful eyes ever..."
"Dude! Not helping here!" I smacked her playfully on the arm.
"Oh right...Sorry about that." she smiled apologetically at me, "Anyways~, how about you tell me about this cutie you gave your number to? Do you really think he's gonna call you back?"
"Well... He's tall, fit, piercing green eyes, seems nice, flirty...and I really hope he does. Going on a date with him would get my mind off of things I think."
"Yeah, I totally get that." she nodded, "He sounds totally hot."
"He is... Well I'm really tired... If you don't mind I'd like to get to sleep. I plan on starting the day early tomorrow."
"Alright, understood. I'll see you in the morning Abby." she gave me a hug before exiting my room and closing my door gently behind her.