Disclaimer: I don't Degrassi, but I own Munro Chambers ;)
Title: The Way I Loved You
Summary: Jake was… perfect. He was sweet, caring, and handsome… So why am I still wishing he was Eli?
A/N: I'm working on a one shot now that will be posted sometime next week maybe? I have another chapter of Our Little Adventures mostly done, so that will be posted sometime this week. If you haven't read it, check it out :)
On to the story…
Chapter 2: I'm Yours
Eli's POV
I lay her down on my bed and hover over her body, kissing her cheek. She giggles and pulls my head up to look her in the eyes. Her blue eyes pierce mine as she smiles at me.
"I love you so much, Eli," She says, kissing me.
"I love you too, Clare," I say and she hugs me closer to her. I press my lips against hers and she gasps. I take that as an opportunity to plunge my tongue into her mouth. Her tongue follows mine, battling for dominance. She pulls away only when she needs to breathe.
She reaches up and pulls on my shirt, tearing it over my head. I lace my fingers through her curly hair and play with it, as silky as it always was. She kisses my neck and licks my Adam's apple. I let my hands fall from her hair and land on her neck, moving them to cup her cheeks.
"Don't ever leave me, Clare," I whisper huskily in her ear and she smiles.
"I will never leave you, Eli," She says, her voice as quiet as mine. I start to unbutton her shirt and pull it off her body, throwing it with mine. I stare hungrily at her breasts, nearly pouring out of her bra. I can feel myself grow hard behind my skinny jeans.
I reach around her back and unhook her bra, pulling it off and letting her breasts fall out. She flips us over and straddles my lap, kissing me hard. I trace her curves with my hands softly, before inching up further and cupping her breasts in my hands. I tweak her nipple and she moans loudly in my mouth, turning me on even more.
Her hands move down my stomach, feeling my muscles twitch beneath her touch.
My breath hitches in my throat in surprise when I feel her stroking my erection through my jeans. She unbuttons my pants and pulls them down. Her hand pushes their way into my boxers and she grips my length. I grit my teeth and moan. Her small hand moves slowly up and down, applying more and more pressure every time she reaches the tip, using her thumbnail to collect the pre-cum spilling out of the slit and coating the tip.
She pulls away and tugs my boxers down. She kisses my neck and rubs her hands up and down my chest. She moves her head lower, licking my nipple experimentally. I arch my back slightly and grip her short hair. Her whole mouth envelopes my nipple and chews on it greedily, while twisting my other one in between her fingers.
"Clare," Her name falls off my lips and I feel her smirk against my skin. She pulls away, kissing down my stomach. My body stiffens when her soft lips wrap around the head of my throbbing dick.
She swirls her tongue around the tip and then stabs it into the slit, making my eyes roll back. I buck my hips up and thrust into her mouth. She giggles at my eagerness and the vibrations in the back of her throat feel amazing. She sucks harder and I know I'm already on the edge.
She pulls away right before I cum and gives me a weird look. "Eli, wake up," She says, her voice soft.
"But Clare," I start to protest in confusion and she stops me.
"Eli, just wake up," She says, before leaning down and sucking as hard as she could on the tip of my dick. She strokes what isn't in her mouth and I cum in her mouth. She swallows all of it and crawls next to me, placing her head on my chest. "Wake up," She whispers.
I wake up with a start, a light sheen of sweat covering my face. I feel a familiar throbbing in between my legs and groan, grabbing a tissue and cleaning myself off.
It was just a dream.
It is always just a dream.
I am psycho. Clare wouldn't want me back.
I mentally slap myself.
I'm going out with Imogen, not Clare.
Her brown eyes could never compare to the beautiful light blue that used to light up whenever I walked in the room… Now they just darken and she avoids my gaze.
Imogen's hair is stringy and black.
Nothing like the silky, auburn hair I used to wrap around my fingers.
The way that beautiful blush always painted her cheeks. The way she was always so shy around me.
The way I never got enough of her. The way I could never get enough of her.
The way I knew I'd always love her.
I snap myself out of my thoughts when I hear the doorbell ring. I tug a pair of jeans on quickly and walk downstairs.
I open the door and my heart drops.
"Hi," The blue eyes avert my shocked stare. Her normal curls are a tousled mess. There are bags underneath her eyes and I know that she hasn't been sleeping.
"What are you doing here?" I ask. I couldn't stop myself.
Here she is. This is what I've been waiting for for three months. And here she is on my doorstep. Talking to me.
"I wanted to let you know that… that I miss you. I miss you so much, Eli. I miss you so much that it hurts me," She says, causing me to snap.
Tears prick the corners of my eyes. "You left me in the hospital. How the fuck do you think that felt? I gave everything up for you. I loved you," I hiss in her face.
"I've regretted leaving you ever since I did," Clare whispers, tears pouring down her rosy cheeks.
"What about that stunt you pulled with Jake? Huh, Clare? You didn't think that would hurt me? You went out with him less than a week after we broke up. How the fuck do you think I felt?" I yell and she backs away.
"I was stupid, Eli. All I know is that I still love you," She says, her voice hoarse.
"You had your chance. I wanted to die, Clare. You left me alone. You know I had stuff to deal with. Why the fuck would you just leave me?" I shout, throwing my arms in the air.
"Eli, I love you," Clare repeats.
"I have a girlfriend, Clare. You have a boyfriend. And you aren't my girlfriend and I'm not your boyfriend," I say sternly. She shakes her head and pushes past me, sitting down on my couch.
She starts to sob and I close the front door. "I can't stand Jake," Clare whimpers. I sit next to her and rub her back. "I love you so much, Eli," She whispers.
"Clare, calm down," I say. I feel my composure start to break seeing her like this. She looks at me with her innocent blue eyes and I know that all my anger towards her for leaving is gone. "I love you too," I whisper, pulling her into my arms.
"I have something for you," Clare says quietly. I look at her questioningly as she grabs my hand.
"What is it?" I ask.
"It's the way that I'll always be yours and you'll always be mine. I want you to have this," Clare says, letting go of my hand and pulling the ring off the ring finger on her left hand. She drops it in my hand shyly.
"I can't take this, Clare," I say, holding my hand out to her for her to take the ring back. "Your virginity means so much to you."
"Eli, this way, we'll always have something special between us. It's the way we can show that we love each other more than anything," Clare says.
"Is this what you really want?" I ask. A small smile spreads across her face and she nods slowly. I lean in and connect our lips.
A lemon next chapter? Yes? No? :)
Review please :D
*Eli didn't have sex with Julia, so he's a virgin too.*