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Title: The Way I Loved You
Summary: Jake was… perfect. He was sweet, caring, and handsome… So why am I still wishing he was Eli?
Thanks for all the amazing reviews :D This chapter is rated M for sweet, beautiful Eclare sex ;)
I have summer work up the ass so I won't be updating a lot until it's all finished. Just letting you know. xD
Chapter 3: The First Time
Clare's POV
Eli kisses me roughly and pulls me into his arms. I wrap my arms around his neck and pull him closer to me. His body topples over me as he lays me down on the couch, our lips never disconnecting. I lick his lips anxiously with my tongue, begging for an entrance. His lips part slowly and my tongue darts into his mouth.
I had missed this. I had missed his smell, oh God, his smell. The taste of his lips. The sound of his voice. I've missed him.
My tongue explores his mouth, the way it used to. I cling to Eli, letting his body surround me. His arms envelop me and hold me tightly against his chest as we continue to kiss. I feel Eli pick me up off the couch and I gasp. He stumbles through the hallway as he tries to find his way to his bedroom, his eyes still closed, our lips still attached. I hear Eli opening a door and he puts me on the ground, breaking the kiss.
I silently note that there isn't a lock on the door and realize why when I look into his room. It's… clean?
"You finished?" I ask, smiling at him. He nods, smiling back at me proudly. "So," I start, wrapping my arms around his neck. "Hotel Eli is officially in business?"
"Only for you, Clare," He says, pecking my lips.
"It is only me, right?" I ask quietly.
"What do you mean?" Eli looks at me with a curious look in his eyes.
"You didn't sleep with Imogen, right?" I ask, biting my lip and avoiding his eyes.
"I don't love her, Clare. Of course I didn't sleep with her," He says, wrapping his arms around my waist. "You and Jake?"
"Nothing has happened. We've barely kissed. He just tried to touch me and I don't want his gross little hands on me," I say. "It always just makes me miss you more," I add, rubbing the back of his neck with my hands.
"I've missed you so much," Eli whispers, crushing his lips over mine dominantly. I wrap my fingers in his hair and move toward the bed, pushing him down and straddling him, never breaking the kiss. He grips my hips tightly and pulls away from the kiss. He smirks at my red cheeks. "Have I told you that I love you?" Eli asks, pecking my cheek.
"Have I told you that you're cute when you're sucking up?" I joke, chastely kissing his lips.
"You're cute all the time," He says and I roll my eyes.
"Suck up," I tease, yelping in shock when he flips us over so he's hovering over my body again. He pins my wrists to the bed with his hands and attacks my lips with his. Eli's tongue pushes in to my mouth swiftly and rocks his hips against mine experimentally. My pulse pounds in my ear at the contact and I stifle back a moan.
I blush, feeling his erection against my bare thigh. Eli breaks the kiss and moves to my jaw line. He moves down to my neck, kissing it lightly at first and then becoming more aggressive, biting and nipping at my skin. He sucks on my neck and bites down hard, causing a moan to erupt from my mouth. I blush as Eli pulls away and chuckles at me. "Nice hickey," He whispers, smirking at me.
"Eli!" I yell, rolling my eyes at him. He kisses my lips softly. "What if Jake sees this?" I ask.
"I love you," Eli whispers, letting my wrists free and brushing his fingers through my hair softly. I push him over and straddle him again. I pull his shirt over his head and toss it on the floor. I suck on his neck until a purple mark appears.
"Nice hickey," I mock him, kissing his lips softly.
"Oh Clare, you little minx," Eli says, smirking at me. "Now we have matching hickeys. That's not obvious," He says, chuckling.
"You started it," I tease, sticking my tongue out at him.
"Don't tease me with that tongue, Edwards," He says, his smirk still plastered on his lips. I blush and he rolls his eyes at me. "You're so shy," Eli whispers, chuckling quietly.
"Shut up," I joke, smiling at him.
"Make me," He says, raising an eyebrow. I roll my eyes at him and kiss him. I graze my fingers over his toned chest and stomach, feeling his muscles. I grip his shoulders and wrap my arms around his neck. I break the kiss, gasping for air. I reach down and start to unbuckle Eli's belt but he stops me. "I want to take this slow," He says. "It's your first time and it's my first time. I don't want it to be rushed."
I nod, bringing my hands up to play with his hair. He leans up and kisses me, rubbing my stomach through my dress. The way he used to.
His hands graze my sides lightly and he stops at the underside of my breasts. Eli breaks the kiss and asks, "Can I… touch you?" I giggle at the blush on his face and nod. He cautiously cups my breasts through my bra and dress. He kneads them in his hands and my back arches into him. He smirks at me and pulls his hands away, moving them down to hold my hips.
"You can…take my dress off… if you want," I say, blushing and avoiding his eyes.
"Are you sure?" Eli asks, kissing my cheek.
"Yeah, I'm sure," I say, quietly, almost a whisper. He slowly pulls the spaghetti straps of my dress down and kisses my shoulder. He grazes his hands down my side and finds the bottom of the dress. Eli slides it up my body cautiously, waiting for me to tell him to stop. My white cotton panties are revealed to him, then my stomach, and then my bra. I blush and avoid his gaze. He sees my nervousness and places soft kisses on my stomach. He pulls the dress over my head and tosses it on the ground.
"Is this okay?" He asks. I nod. "Are you sure about this?" He asks. I nod. "Clare, use your words," Eli says, smirking at me.
"I'm just a little uncomfortable… not because of you. It's just that…I'm just nervous," I say, rambling.
"I don't want you to feel uncomfortable. Clare, I love your body and I love you. Nothing can change that," Eli says. "You're perfect."
"How the hell did I get so lucky to know a guy as perfect, sexy, and nice as you?" I ask, smiling at him. He smirks.
"I ask myself the same thing all the time about you," He says, pecking me on the lips. I can't help but smile at his perfection. "Don't be nervous," He whispered, kissing my neck softly. I tilt my head to the side, allowing Eli more access. He bites the skin again and I swallow back a moan. Eli glides his hands down my bare sides, memorizing my curves. "Your skin is so soft," He says against my neck. I rub his back lightly, pulling him closer to me.
Eli pulls away and kisses my lips roughly, forcing his tongue into my mouth. He cups my chin in his hands and lightly rubs my cheeks with his thumbs. His hands slide down my neck to my shoulders slowly. He reaches around my back and his hands linger on the clasp of my bra.
"Can I take this off?" Eli asks, breaking the kiss. I nod sheepishly and devour his lips again. I grab his hair and play with it as he slowly unclasps my bra. Eli pulls away from my lips and slides my bra off my body. I blush and bite my lip. "I told you not to be nervous," He says, kissing me chastely.
"I trust you completely, but this is the… first time I've ever been naked in front of a guy…" I whisper nervously.
"I'm nervous too, Clare. I love you so much. You're perfect," He repeats, kissing my lips softly. He rubs my shoulders tenderly and kisses my neck. Eli's fingers crawl down to my chest, cupping my bare breasts in his rough hands. A loud moan escapes my lips and he smirks at me. He lowers his face and experimentally licks my nipple. An animalistic noise erupts from my mouth, a noise that Eli seems to like. I blush and twist my fingers through his hair while he swirls his tongue around my sensitive and hardened flesh.
"Eli!" I yelp as his teeth lightly nip at my nipple. He chuckles against my skin and pulls his mouth away, only to envelop my neglected nipple. I arch my back and bite my lip hard. I tug on his hair and earn a groan from Eli. He pulls back, kissing me eagerly and roughly.
His tongue dominates my mouth forcefully and he pushes me over so his body is lingering over mine again. I reach down and grab his belt, unbuckling it quickly. I unbutton his jeans and he helps me slide them down, still kissing me. My whole body burns in embarrassment when I open my eyes and look at the tent in his boxers. Eli breaks the kiss, a bright red blush on his face.
He kisses my neck softly, showering kisses down my neck, breasts and stomach. He stops at the waistband of my underwear, moving back up to kiss my belly button. "Can I take these off?" Eli asks. I swallow loudly and nod. Eli's long fingers pull my panties down, tossing them in the pool of clothes in his room somewhere.
Eli grabs the waistband of his boxers and looks at me. "You're positive you want to do this?" He asks.
I nod. "I love you, Eli," I whisper. He pulls his boxers down and we both blush deeply. I have nothing to compare his size to, but seeing it gives me a weird sense of pride.
I had never thought I'd see the sight: Eli standing in front of me with all his walls down, his nerves sending his heart to beat frantically against my skin.
Eli stands up, going to his desk, pulling out a condom and rolling it on. He climbs back on the bed, hovering over me. He positions himself between my legs and pushes into me slowly. "I'm sorry," He whispers, breaking my resistance. Tears fall down my eyes and I bite my lip so hard blood pours out; the pain is unbearable. I look up at Eli and see him looking at me with sad eyes. Those goddamn eyes.
He feels bad for causing me pain while he is in pure bliss.
He kisses my lips softly and starts moving in and out of me slowly. The pain fades away and I wrap my arms around Eli's neck. I meet his thrusts, sending the heat in my stomach to feel closer to exploding. Loud moans escape my mouth without my knowledge. Eli grits his teeth and reaches down to rub my clit. A moan rips from my throat at the sudden contact. "Clare," Eli moans softly. He starts to thrust faster and his pace becomes uneven. I grab his hair tightly in my hands and arch into Eli's body. His eyes roll back and a slur of profanities fall from his lips. With one final low groan, Eli falls against me, panting. He pulls out of me, tossing the condom in the trash.
"I believe I have unfinished business to attend to," He says, kissing my lips and moving so his face was in between my legs. He licks my center teasingly. I arch my back and a loud moan escapes my lips, wanting more.
"Eli," I whine, anxiously squirming. He uses his talented tongue to tease my clit. He pushes a long finger inside me and pumps it in and out of me. "Eli-i… oh God… d-don't stop," I moan, gripping the sheets underneath me. Eli's tongue rubs circles on my clit. He pushes a finger inside me and I groan. He curls his finger inside me and I feel my walls start to clench around his finger. An unfamiliar feeling consumes my body.
I cum with a loud moan that echoed through the empty house. My legs quiver and Eli licks up all the juices that pour out of me. Eli kisses my lips and lays next to me in his bed and kisses my sweaty forehead.
"I love you, Clare," Eli says, wrapping his arms around me.
"I love you, too," I whisper, feeling tired.
.
This is the way our relationship is. Once a week. One night together. One beautiful morning in each others' arms.
We aren't 'fuck buddies' or 'friends with benefits.' I can't define us, but I know it's perfect.
I know it isn't the way it's supposed to be.
But it's the way Eli and I are meant to be together…
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