Ean: Finally, I posted something. Sorry it wasn't Pretty Little LOner.
Alexenne: THis is the long awaited rewrite of RIma Has Issues, the song is Issues by Sick Puppies.
Nexa: Suposedly, someone named Sweet Laya reviewed saying she wanted a happy ending. Instead, she got this.
Ean: FYI, the song is playing while Rima thinks.
I ran from his house, tears pouring down my face. He told me everything would be okay. He lied.
I want to wake up I've been walking in my sleep too long. Wake up. So sick of dreaming. I want to slow down. Want to be part of what is happening around me. Without breathing. Without feeling. Without screaming. So I'm leaving.
My radio was blaring as I drove my car down the street. I had to get away. Away from them. Away from everyone.
Dating Nagihiko Fujisaki had been a dream come true. But that's all it was. A dream. I was walking on air. I was too dumb to see what was going on around me. I don't need to feel this anymore. I'm tired of holding in the screaming.
I'm consciously unconscious. Why am I filled with hate? I'd like to blame my parents. I'm sure you'd do the same. Swallow the hurt Spit out the drug that's too afraid.
Haha. Yeah. It's my parents' fault I don't trust anyone. I hate everyone. I swallowed the hurt to a place where no one could see. And I had spit it out. I had told Nagi that I was afraid. Afraid that some other girl would come and steal him. He just laughed.
I turn the page to a chapter that they thought was just a phase, but it consumed me. Without feeling. Without breathing. Now I'm leaving.
Maybe Nagi was just a phase. That's what my parents thought. They also thought comedy was a phase, but they were wrong. I still love it, even if Kusukusu had returned to her egg.
I'm consciously unconscious. Why am I filled with hate? I'd like to blame my parents. I'm sure you'd do the same. Swallow the hurt. Spit out the drug that's too afraid.
I blame Mama and papa for that too. They never believed in me. They discouraged my dreams.
I've been hiding, drowning. I've been running, starving. I've been feeling, nothing.
I've been hiding my emotions and drowning in my insecurities. I ran from my true feelings until they starved me to the point that I blurted them out, without class, without thought. But he didn't reject me. I felt everything good. Now I feel nothing.
I'm consciously unconscious. Why am I filled with hate? I'd like to blame my parents. I'm sure you'd do the same. Swallow the hurt. Spit out the drug that's too afraid.
I really want someone to blame for all this. But the only person to blame is myself. My own stupid self.
The song ended. I pulled into a gas station. Instead of getting out, I rested my head against the wheel. What was I doing? What was really happening here?
Tap, tap! My eyes swooped towards the window. Outside stood a color I didn't want to see right now. Purple and I are in a constant love/ hate relationship.
Unconsciously, my finger pressed down on the lock button. I heard some more yells and knocks, but went back to my trance. Why couldn't I forgive him? Why couldn't he have told me the truth.
Snick! The passenger door popped open and he climbed into my Dodge Ram. Damn, I forgot to lock that door.
"Rima?" My ex- boyfriend whispered my name. His voice sent shivers down my spine. It brought back memories; good memories.
"It's not what you think." This time, I did look at him. I took in his concerned look that was masking his anger that was masking… love? Why couldn't he be easy to read? He's the one that is always in control and solves everything. I loathe him. I hate him. I… love him?
"Then what is it, Fujisaki. Please, share your infinite wisdom with me." I was being harsh. I didn't care.
"It's not what you think. I don't know what you're thinking, but it's not that. She's my sister." Things started to unravel. I needed to cover up my confusion.
"You not knowing something? That's a first. Your sister? That's not what your mother said. I quote: 'Rima, dear, the future Mrs. Fujisaki is coming so please make yourself scarce. You don't need to make more problems for poor Nagihiko.'"
"Why would she say that?" His mouth was open and he looked just as confused as I was.
"Maybe because it's true! That girl is your bride to be, so stop lying to me! Stop making up excuses and playing with my heart. You knew, we both know you knew." Fresh tears were wetting my cheeks. "Tell me why. Tell me why you came here. Tell me why you care. Tell me why you lie."
I struck something. "I may be many things, but I am not a liar. I am not God. I don't know everything. I can't solve all your problems." He leaned in close to me a breathed cool air on my neck. "But Rima, that won't keep me from trying. I came here because I care about you. I care about you because I love you. I love you because you're you: strong, beautiful, brave, stubborn, and honest. I lie to protect you."
"I don't need protection." It came out as a whisper. I wanted to forgive him, but I didn't have a reason yet. "You still lied. Who is that girl?"
He sat back and threw his hands up in exasperation. "I didn't lie! That girl is my twin sister, Nadeshiko. She is the new Mrs. Fujisaki because I gave her the estate so that I could be with you. The head of the household must marry into a rich family, and let's face it, that's not you."
My brain hurt. HE did it for me? He gave it all up for me? "Rima," he continued, "I love you. I plan on being with you as long as you accept me. I love you, got it?"
"I- I love you too." He captured my trembling lips in his own. MY anger faded away and was replaced with love. I had been missing this love for years, ever since my parents forgot what it was. I needed his love. "Forgive me. Love makes us do stupid and irrational things."
He chuckled, moving his mouth a few inches form my own. "I know the feeling. Please do one more stupid and irrational thing for me; please, Rima Mashiro, will you marry me?"
My heart pounded. "Yes! Oh, God, yes!" I threw my arms around him.
No matter how jealous I get or how angry he makes me, I will always love my soon to be husband, Nagihiko Fujisaki.
Alexenne: It was a happy ending!
Nexa: Unless you're an Amu and Nagihiko fan or wanted to marry Nagi yourself...
Ean: I hope you liked it. I finally got over writer's block, but now I have tests all next week...
