The things you have promiced
"I will always protect you"
My heart stops and my blood runs cold as I watch him fall to the ground, his eyes are wide open staring upwards at nothing. I'm numb as I watch him bleed all over the floor where he has fallen. I can do nothing but stare in horror at the screen in front of me, I'm numb, I'm cold, I'm paralysed. Suddenly before I even realize it, Botan is pulling me into a tight embrace and I'm sobbing into her shoulder. I want to scream at the unfairness that I have just witnessed, I want to shout at the top of my lungs, I want to yell about how it wasn't happening even though I have seen only seconds ago. But I can't, I can't make a sound besides a sob escape my throat. I can do nothing besides cling to Botan desparately like a little kid to his mother after waking from a nightmare. I can hear her shusing me, telling me that it's okay, that every thing will be fine. I can feel her hand softly running through my hair. But it does nothing to soothe me. Her gestures though kind do nothing to help me, they only make my heart hurt worse.
"I told... you I'd... always... protect you," I hear the weak wheezed out words from the screen and I turn back to see what has happened. "I know... you're... watching," the speaker continues and I want to yell at him to shut up. To tell him to save his strength. Tell him that we'll talk once he's well again. But I know I can't, and not because I'm not there with him, but because I know he's not going to be well again. I know that this is the last time I will ever hear him speak. That this is last time I will ever see him alive, and that's the only thing stopping me from turning my head away from the screen. I know there is no sense in deluding myself into believing otherwise. It will only hurt worse in the end if I do.