Alright, we're back to Sirius pov. This is the last chapter, hope you like the ending, I was having trouble with it, trying to decide if I wanted a happy ending or a sad ending, or a questioning ending. Anyways, read&respond if you want to because I would really like if you did. Thank You!
I messed up big time. How could I have been so stupid. I love Remus, no matter how many times I tell myself and anyone else for that matter, I love him, and I always will. No matter how much I wish it didn't matter, that I was over him, I'm never going to be, he'll always be the person I love.
So here I am. Sitting on the edge of the pond, wishing I could take everything I said in the bathroom back. Wishing I could change Remus' mind. I picked up a rock and threw it into the pond. What was the point, how could I have ever thought Remus would want me. With the family I have, the way I act, I'm nothing near to being perfect or being similar to Remus, we have few similar interests and nothing in common. He was a quiet book worm who hated doing pranks, breaking the rules, and making fun of anyone. I was a load mouth, never doing my school work, rule breaking, prankster who loves making fun of people. How could I ever have thought Remus would like me?
"This seat taken?" I whipped around and saw a shy boy point to the ground right next to me. I nodded and he sat down. We sat there in silence for awhile. "Look Sirius, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt your feelings. I just, well, I don't know how to explain it Sirius, but, I'm just," he sighed. "I'm rambling that's what I'm doing. Look, what I'm trying to say is that I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, you believe me right." he looked me right into my eyes, and I started to melt. I took a deep breath and got my composer back.
"Remus, I'm sorry but it's too late to apologize. You have to understand, I waited, and I gave you more than a second chance, but every time you turned away."
"I know Sirius, and I blame myself for it all. It just, it took me awhile to figure out myself and why I was doing all of this. Please, give me one more chance, I understand now that what we have could be something amazing. Please." He grabbed my arm and started crying. "Please Sirius, please, I want us to be something, I screwed up big time, but if you just give me a chance I can make it up, I can be everything you want me to be and more. Please Sirius."
"Remus, please stop crying. I can't take it when you cry, you know that. Remus please." I grabbed his chin and guided him up to my face. "Remus, it's alright, just please stop crying." he sniffed and wiped his eyes away.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to start crying like that. I guess I just became over whelmed with everything going on between us, I didn't know how to handle it, and then I just couldn't stop crying and, oh god, you must think I'm crazy or something, and how could you ever like me anymore, I'm crying like a girl and keep rejecting you. Merlin's I'm such a prick."
"Hey, you're not a prick, and I don't want to hear you say that ever. You are perfect, no matter what you do, or who you are. I'll give you another chance, but why? Why did you keep rejecting me Remus. I need to know."
"I, I, I can't. I'm sorry, but I can't Sirius."
"Why? Why don't you trust me, why can't you tell me? What ever it is, I don't care, I love you Remus, I don't look at your flaws, I look at who you are and love every bit of it."
"Sirius, please, I'm begging you."
"Remus, I don't think I could be with you if I know there's something you're keeping from me."
"How-how about I promise that I'll tell you later?"
"I don't know. How do I know you'll keep that promise."
"You can trust me. I promise that I'll tell you, but just not today, and not anytime soon. Sirius, I-I love you too, and I don't think I could make it through my Hogwarts years knowing that I was close enough to be with you but because of this it never happened. I promise, and if I should break this promise, I hope I die. I promise that I will tell you anything and everything that you want to know, but you have to give me time to tell you this one thing. Please Sirius, it's the only thing I'm asking of you."
I sighed, knowing that I trust Remus. "Don't say that. I never want to here you say you hope to die. And I trust you, I will always trust you." Remus smiled a weak smile and looked me straight in the eyes. Oh what I would do to kiss him right now, I thought, I couldn't help but grin stupidly as my mind wandered to other places. As I looked back at Remus, I saw him look at me, weary, and I laughed.
"Do you trust me?" I asked. Remus' eyes widened a little worried about what I might be thinking.
"Yes." he said slowly.
"Then hold still." I moved in slowly watching his expression as he figured out what I was doing. At first his eyes showed confusion, then fear. I stopped, fear wasn't an expression I wanted to see. "I'm sorry, it's too early, too fast." I moved away and looked anywhere but Remus, pouting a little. I felt a hand touch my arm, startled I looked at Remus, who in turn was looking was at me with an expression I've never seen. Before I had a chance to figure it out though Remus' lips were on mine, and the only thing I could think of was how amazing he tasted. Just like chocolate with a little bit of everything else. It was perfect, and right then, I knew Remus' would be the only one I could love.