It's Complicated

Chapter 4

Beck POV

"Okay, here's how it all happened." I started. I took a deep breath.

"So when a man and a woman love each other very much, they, um, well. Okay, let me start from the beginning. We both went to Hollywood Arts. We met. She dumped an iced coffee down my shirt. I harassed her into going out with me and eventually she gave in. About 2 years later, something happened and you came along. We were young, about 16 years old. Your mother thought that since we were irresponsible enough to have a kid during high school, we wouldn't survive with a child. I thought that anything's possible. You were in an adoption home for 2 months. I realized I had to take you out of there and raise you as my daughter. But your mom was having none of that. I thought about my options and I had to leave her. I loved her more than anything in the world but there weren't many choices. I left her a note and I hoped one day we can reconnect and she'll forgive me."

"So how does Cat Valentine become a part of this?" Jessie asked.

"She and your mom were close friends. At school, our group was Andre, Cat, Tori as in Tori Vega the actress, Robbie Shapiro the comedian, your mom and I and Rex, Robbie's puppet if you count him. I left school early and got homeschooled for the next year by a nanny who helped me with you at first. I kept in touch with Andre because he was the only one I could trust at the time. Eventually, Andre got a recording deal and become an artist and producer and after a few years, I started seeing Tori in movies, Robbie was comedian on comedy central, and Cat got played on radio stations."

"So, who is my mom?"

"Your mother is who we came to see tonight." I said

"Are you saying… my mother is Jade West?"

"That's exactly what I'm saying." Then as if on cue, Jade walked down the hall with a chattering Cat behind her.

"And then I was all 'Nuh uh!' and my brother's all 'Uh huh!' and I'm all - oh hi Beck!" she said. Jade stopped in her tracks

"What did you say Cat?" she asked.

"My brother said 'Uh huh!'"

"No not that. After."

"Oh! I said hi to Beck! See? He's right there!" she said pointing to me. Jade turned around and stared straight at me. She looked back and forth at Jessie and me, while I just stared at her, wondering what she'll do next.

"Oh my gosh! This is so awkward! It reminds me of that time-" Cat was interrupted when Jade started running," Jade, wait for me!" They ran down the hall but then got stuck at the elevator.

"C'mon!" I said to Jessie pulling her. I took a short cut and went up the stairs which lead straight to her room. We were almost at the door until Jade slammed it closed.

Jade POV

I slammed the door and started pacing. What do I do? He's right outside! Aha! I ran to the counter and grabbed a pamphlet that they hand out at door. I dug through the counter until I found a sharpie. I scribbled my name on it then opened the door.

"Here's an autograph!" I said shoving it into the kid's hands. I closed the door before either of them could say something. I dialed Cat's number.

"Cat here!" she picked up.

"Cat I'm stuck in my dressing room. Beck's outside. Please help me!"

"May I ask whose calling?" she said. I hung up the phone, trusting that she'll be here. A few minutes later, my door opened. Cat lead Beck and his, excuse me, our daughter inside the room.

"She's right in here." She said.

"Cat! No bad kitty! Not what I wanted!" I yelled.

"Then what did you want?" Cat asked innocently

"To get them both-UGH!" I screamed in frustration.

"Cat, I think what Jade is trying to say is why don't you take Jessie for a walk so she could get to know her Aunt Cat." Beck said. My eyes widened in shock.

"Okay." She said. Cat took her hand skipped out the door. Beck closed the door and leaned on it. Oh god, he was giving me that look.

"Jade." He said.

"Why are you here?" I said harshly.

"I miss you."

"Get out."

"Do you hate me?"

"I can't believe you asked me that question."

"Because I love you."

"Do you know what I went through? Beck, because I don't think you do. Cat had to talk me out of suicide twice. Everything I do is a distraction from the pain. You being here is just making it worse."

"Jade, I went through it too and I raised a child. I was at the point where the only reason I had to be alive was Jessie. She's so much like you." He said. I sighed and looked over his body. He'd changed a lot, but still looks exactly like he did in high school. His hair was still long and shaggy and he still had his tan complexion, but he had grown some facial hair and is more bulky. He traded his plaid shirt for a white T- shirt and a leather jacket. A scarf hung loosely around his neck and there was a hat on his head.

"You've changed." I said.

"Yeah, well, it's kinda been ten years."

"Yeah, it kinda has." I said. He took a step closer to me until we were inches away from each other.

"Jade." He whispered. He put his hands around my waist and I instinctively put mine around neck. I didn't mean to, it was a reflex, I couldn't control it. He started to lean in.

"Don't," I whispered, putting my head down, blocking him from kissing me.

"Why?"

"I just can't do this." I said, putting my hand on his chest, pushing him away. I stepped back trying to make a distance between us.

He reached towards me and said, "I love you. Please believe me!" he begged. I walked to the door and opened it.

"I think you should leave, now." I said, looking down, refusing to meet his eyes. I gestured out the door and he walked towards it. He put his arm around my waist and kissed my forehead. His face lingered near mine. His lips were so close and I struggled not to crash mine to his. He started to moved his head forward and I held my fist on his chest before he could touch my lips. His warm hand took my cold one.

"I love you. All I'll ever want is you." He whispered. He pecked my lips and walked out the door, closing it behind him. I leaned against it and touched my lips, trying to relive the feeling of his warm lips touch mine, even if it was for a second. I slid down the door, trying to ignore the first warm feeling that pushed through the years of numbness and walls I've built up. I sat there for hours, ignoring the knocks on the locked door behind me.

I'M SOOOOO SORRY! Between the weeks, I never really got a chance to upload the next chapter because I was home for like 15 hours. And I had to pack and sleep and what not. Then my mom took the computer to be fixed and that took a week and then I procrastinated because that is what I do. Thank you so much for the reviews you guys gave me. :D