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CHAPTER 12

James PoV

I finished drying myself and just then I remembered that I hadn´t brought any clothes with me. Fuck. I bit my lip…I could just take a towel and get out like that but…the main reason Kendall had stopped talking to me was because he felt uncomfortable in those kinds of situations, even if we were friends again I didn't think he was over that…and I didn't want to lose this little peace we had left. Maybe I could ask him to give me my bag…yeah that was the best option.

"Kendall?" I said out loud hoping he would hear me over the TV, even in here I could hear Sponge Bob laughing.

"Yeah?" the TV went mute.

"I forgot my clothes, could you give me my bag please?"

"I´m too tired to get up, just put a towel on" I blinked surprised by his words…maybe he was over his discomfort or he was trying to show me that he regretted his words…either way I had to get out with just a towel…after that dream…I hoped James Jr. could sleep through this one. I took a deep breath, adjusted the towel on my waist and walked out. He was laying on his bed, the minute I stepped out his eyes shoot to me and all I could do was blush at the stare he gave me, his eyes darkened in a way I had literally only seen in my dreams, I was sure that he was practically scanning my body and that simple look was enough to turn me on…luckily I had on one of the big thick towels that perfectly covered that part of me.

"W-what are you looking at?" I stuttered grasping the towel while he stood up and grabbed his clothes, he kept silent until he stepped right in my personal bubble making me swallow at his closeness, his eyes never letting go of that gleam.

"Nothing" he smiled smugly shamelessly eyeing me one last time before getting inside the bathroom. I felt my heart beat at inhuman rates as I laid my back on the wall…what had just happened? I passed a hand through my face, nothing, it was nothing…it was all my imagination, I was still disturbed by that dream. I shook my head and walked to get my bag and started changing trying to think of dead puppies and boobs to lower my boner...that worked marbles until Kendall walked out when I was combing my hair…just wearing his tight black boxers. Well hello James Jr. not glad that you decided to wake up "Fuck I forgot we had to hurry for that interview" he said while drying his hair with a towel, I tried not to look at him as I walked to my bed and sat starting to put my shoes on.

"What interview?" at least my voice sounded normal enough…until he decided to stand in front of me, still wearing his god damn boxers giving me a nice view of his…don't think about it James!…I was sure that if I spoke any word would either be a high pitch yelp or a moan…I hadn't decided yet.

"Dunno…hey I wanted to thank you for last night" he scratched his head, I had to make myself look up –not before taking a nice glance at his abs…couldn't stop myself- to his face and keep my eyes in there "I was an ass to you, but you overlooked that and came here…thank you…you´re a true friend, bud" I tried not to wince at his last words…back to where we started.

"No worries dude" I stood up regretting it a little too late when I noticed that he was standing rather close to the bed and didn't move letting us less than half foot apart "I-I have to get lunch…I´m starving" I was sure I was blushing right now…and the amused sparkle in his eyes told me that he noticed.

"I´m sure you are" he chuckled before taking a step back and going for his clothes…thank God! "Could you wait for me? I´m sure Carlos and Logan already ate and I don't want to eat alone" I heard him ask when my hand was at the door.

"Yeah, I´ll wait there for you" said this I walked out and let out a breath when I was at the hallway…my mind kept playing games with me. I sighed going to the elevator as I took out my phone and dialed Luca.

"Morning sunshine" he answered in a less than happy voice, he was not a morning person.

"Morning, how are you doing you-bad-friend-that-ignores-my-calls?"

"Perfect, and you? How are things with Kendall? Did he apologize?" he sounded genuinely hopeful.

"Yeah…he did, last night" I was glad I was inside the elevator alone and no one could see my stupid grin "We´re friends again"

"Isn´t that why you ran away from him? Because you couldn't handle being just friends"

"After losing him like that I don't care if we´re just friends, even if it hurts like hell" I rested my back against the wall "He´s acting weird though"

"Weird, huh" I could sense the smile on his tone. That was odd "How?"

"M-maybe it´s just me…" I said more to myself "I have my mind filled with these weird dreams and I think I´m overanalyzing stuff…yeah that must be it"

"When you stop mumbling to yourself could you explain me what are those weird dreams about?" I bit my lip…should I tell him or should I not tell him? "Come on James, how can I help you if I don't have any idea what you´re talking about?" Point for Luca.

"About Kendall…and me" I sounded my throat, he kept silent letting me know that he wanted me to go on "Doing…things"

"And how is that weird? You´re a dude, and dude´s have wet dreams" I chuckled at this hoping that he was at his house and not the bar where everybody could hear him.

"Yeah but…they are like…connected or something…they feel weird because even as the days go by I remember them perfectly…and h-he…he says he loves me" I had to swallow the lump in my throat that this created knowing that I would never hear him say that in real life.

"By any chance those dreams were inside your house?" he asked slowly, I frowned getting out of the elevator and walking to the restaurant.

"…yes"

"Oh…Oh…t-that means that y-you…that you want it to happen, yeah in those crazy dream books says that…well I gotta go, bye!" and he hung up…okay…WHAT THE FUCK WAS GOING ON? I sat on a table and waited till the waiter purred me some coffee in my cup…I needed to corner Carlos again, maybe at the bus, that way he couldn't run.

"What are you planning?" asked Kendall sitting next to me.

"That was fast" I blinked surprised.

"Took the stairs" he shrugged "You didn't answer"

"Why do you say that?"

"Because you have you´re planning face on…again, what are you planning?"

"Nothing…" I took a sip of my coffee "So…" what could be a nice topic to talk with your recently-back-to-talking-ex-best-friend?

"You woke up pretty shaken up…what were you dreaming about?" I had to make a real physical effort to not spill my coffee all over him.

"I don't remember" I mumbled using all my years of practice to lie in his face.

"Has someone told you that you are a pretty good liar?" he smiled but his eyes kept…blank, again I couldn't read them and again I didn't like it.

"Once or twice" I accepted "How are you? Did you get any sleep last night?" I asked looking at the dark circles under his eyes…well he did look a little better than last morning.

"Enough" he sighed passing a hand through his hair before snatching my coffee from me and taking a nice gulp "What are you going to say if they ask you about being gay at the interview?"

"Well Gustavo warned me about that…I will accept everything, like I told you before I have nothing to hide" I raised my hand to call the waitress as I retrieved my cup, she walked to us with a huge smile on her face.

"You´re from big time rush, aren't you?" she squeaked looking at us with wide eyes.

"Yes we are" smiled Kendall "I promise we will take a picture with you if you get us our plates fast, I´m starving"

"Sure! What can I get you?" We ordered some pancakes and then took photos with the girl before she ran to the kitchen probably to show her friends the photos and hurry the cooks.

"Charming fans to do things for you…you´re finally learning" I smiled making him laugh that obnoxious laugh of his…yeah I missed that so damn much!

"Yeah…so James…what´s new in your life? How´s the bar?" he put his elbows in the table and stared at me giving me all his attention.

"…fine" I couldn't think enough to give him another answer with those emerald eyes looking at me like that.

"What did I told you about that word?" he raised his eyebrow…yeah he had to remind me of that fucking day, he had to go and act like he hadn´t crushed my heart right after he said those words…no I didn't need to think of that! I had enough in my mind to start thinking of that again.

"As ambiguous as it sounds, that´s how I´m doing! I´m not good and that´s thanks to you! But I guess things aren't that bad…" his eyes darkened in pain as he looked back at the table.

"I´m so…"

"Stop apologizing!" I snapped surprising even myself, he frowned looking at me and for the first time I saw a whole different emotion in his eyes…and I couldn't bring myself to name it because that meant that…that I was going insane, yeah that was it.

"Why?"

"Because…just do it…I have already forgiven you, I don't want you to apologize every time we speak…I just want to stop thinking of that day"

Kendall PoV

He looked pissed, he grasped his head with his hands like he was exhausted, like he didn't want to think anymore…that he was still heartbroken by my stupid decisions.

"I won´t then" I said trying to think of something more to ask him, at first my plan had been to somehow seduce him to see if he still felt something for me…now that I knew that at least physically he was still attracted to me I had to know how deep his feelings were "Have you called Luca?"

"Why do you want to know about him?" he frowned clearly suspicious about my question, I knew he had figured out that we were hiding something from him and that he was resolved in finding out…he was going to find out, just not at that particular moment.

"No specific reason, I just thought it was a way to start another conversation…he seems nice" I shrugged and his look turned into a disbelieving one.

"I´m actually concerned about the sanity of the people I consider my friends…first you hate each other, now he asks me about you and you ask me about him…that is not right" he shook his head.

"Sometimes when you don't like someone you find that that person cares about the same things you do…then with some common ground you start to not dislike that person so much" he gave me a puzzled look…yeah that hadn't come out right "He cares about you, that's enough for me to know that he´s nice" I raised my hand and caressed his cheek, he froze with his eyes wide.

"Here´s your breakfast" smiled the waitress making me take away my hand, James kept unmoving she left.

"Aren´t you going to eat?" I asked raising my eyebrow completely amused by his growing blush…oh yeah I had an effect on him. He closed his eyes and passed a hand through his hair while taking a deep breath.

"Yeah" he mumbled and began eating not rising his gaze from the plate.

"Are you ok? You seem…troubled" I smiled taking a bite and letting the fork slip through my lips slowly capturing his darkened eyes…I thought of licking it too but it was maybe a little too much at the moment.

"I-I´m fine" he rolled his eyes "I´m ok, just thinking"

"Morning!" said Carlos´ happy voice appearing next to us and sitting in one of the chairs "I´m glad to see that none of you is dead…and that you´re eating together"

"Well that´s what friends do" spoke James smiling at our hyper friend clearly relieved to have someone else there "Do you know who´s interviewing us?"

"Nope" he took a bite of my pancakes "Logan might know, he said he will be here soon"

"Haven´t you eat already?" I asked guarding the rest of my food from a very whiny Carlos.

"Yes but I´m still hungry" he pouted before turning right and waving at Logan.

"You haven't killed each other, that's good" he sat in the remaining chair.

"They´re friends again" mumbled Carlos trying to get food from James´ plate.

"Friends?" Logan looked at me with his eyebrow raised clearly not convinced about how things were turning.

"Yeah…do you know who´s interviewing us?" I changed the subject and he obviously saw it but didn't push it.

"A guy from the local newspaper, are you done yet? We have to get going"

"Just let me go and wash my teeth" I finished my food, James made a sign that he would be doing the same as we stood up and went back to the elevator. The slow trip up was a little awkward but I was thankful that we weren't the only ones there, once we reached out floor we stepped out and James got his key to open the door.

"Have you talked to Jo?" he started washing his not looking at my confused expression…why the hell would he bring her up?

"Yeah some days ago…why do you ask? Are you jealous" I whispered right behind his back directly at his ears letting my hands on his hips…he spilled the water all over the sink before he began coughing glaring at me from the mirror.

"What´s with you today?" he finally asked resting his hands on the sink.

"Nothing" I began cleaning my teeth ignoring his angry stare, he groaned in annoyance before storming out of the room…was I a terrible person for liking tormenting him this much? Probably but I could make it up for him later.

I finished and hurried back to the lobby, only to find all of them, Gustavo and Kelly waiting for me. We walked to a little conference room where a middle age woman was waiting for us.

"Good morning guys, I´m Stacy" she introduced herself shaking each of our hands before signaling us to seat in a big couch, Carlos and Logan made sure I was sitting next to James, who still seemed kind of mad "Well, first I would love for you to introduce yourselves and being that this month we´re talking about food in our section, you could also tell us which is your favorite food"

"Hi, I´m Logan Mitchell and I like pizza"

"Wazza! I´m Carlos Garcia and I love corndogs"

"Hello, I´m Kendall Knight and I guess my favorite food is Chinese"

"Hi, I´m James Diamond and I´ve recently found a love for Italian food" I had to stop myself from rolling my eyes at this…even if I didn't hate Luca now, it didn't mean that I loved that he was a big presence in James´ life.

"Well that´s perfect, now tell me how does it feel to sing in a packed stadium? Having millions of girls screaming for you and singing your every song?"

"It´s amazing" started Logan "We were just four boys from Minnesota and now a lot of people know our names and sing our songs…it´s amazing"

"And the girls love us!" yelled Carlos making her chuckle.

"Well I don't know about the girls" smiled James "But I do love singing"

"Oh about that!" started the reporter "How do you guys feel about James coming out?"

"Oh they´ve been great" James kept his smile even if I saw his eyes lose some of their glow "They´ve supported me every step of the way and everything´s just perfect"

"Yeah I mean, he is the same James that taught me how to skate" chuckled Logan "Or that had trouble with math" at this all of them laughed.

"Yes and even like this he gets me dates" winked Carlos, I just rolled my eyes at them…yeah maintain the pretty image, for some reason I wanted James to snap and tell everybody how much of I douche bag I was…to show that he still cared enough about me, because I still thought that he had forgiven me way to easily.

"Kendall?"

"W-wha…? Oh sorry I zoomed out" I smiled shaking my head "What was the question again?"

"How do you feel about James coming out?" she eyed me suspiciously, like she knew something was up with us.

"I feel that…" I looked down carefully choosing my words "I think that he´s a really brave guy, that even knowing that there are people that don't like the way he is, he still took a step up and screamed to the world who he is…and I admire him for that" I could see James´ cheeks turning a light shade of red.

"That is so sweet" she said putting her hand on top of mine, like she really was affected by my words…I saw how James´ eyes shoot directly at that and how one of his hands fisted…oh he was jealous.

"Yes, and thanks to that he made me realize a lot of stuff about myself…things that I want to shout the world because I also don't want to have anything to hide anymore" her eyes gleamed with interest, yes she was going to have a nice story.

"Could you tell us any of these things?" I grinned raising my eyes to find Gustavo and Kelly, they were giving me a what the fuck are you doing? Stare clearly not knowing what I was about to do…some might be surprised, some might me pissed…but I just hoped that James wouldn't hate me for what I was about to say.

"I´m gay too" I said then I gave her my most charming smile.

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