I suck. I am so sorry for the massive gap (again). So this chap is going to be in Lily's point of view, instead of switching them about. At the moment I am procrastinating, because I don't want to do my essays so I decided to write this instead! Hope you enjoy. As always reviews are more than welcome! Seriously they are like air to me.

LPOV

I admit it. I avoided Jasper like the plague. I agonised over the decision for days. Would avoiding him make it more obvious that I was hiding something? But could I keep up the facade that nothing was wrong? I stared at the coffeemaker, lost in thought.

"...ly? ...Lily?"

A familiar and not all together welcome voice broke me out of my reverie. I shut my eyes against the pain inside and turned around to look into the beautiful eyes I was beginning to believe I loved.

Jasper. His mere presence made it easier for me to breathe. But his eyes were etched with worry. I smiled to ease the tension.

"Jasper." His name seemed to float on the air after it had glided off my tongue. It sounded almost wistful to my ears.

His face broke out into that beautiful smile that seemed to light his whole face and make him glow.

"Darlin. I was getting worried I wouldn't be able to pull your heads back down from the clouds! Haven't heard from you in a couple of days. So I thought I'd come see you at work." He looked embarrassed; "I know our date isn't until Friday but I just couldn't wait to see you. You sure you're ok?"

I smiled again. "Of course. Just been going a million miles a minute this week, hardly had time to think let alone sit down!" It was a lie of course. But I was used to telling lies. I was used to acting like everything was fine, like there wasn't a great big gaping hole in my soul. But a lie to protect someone we love from pain is better than a normal lie... right?

He looked disbelieving for just a moment before he accepted the lie. Why wouldn't he? He actually trusted people because he was good. Whereas I...I wasn't so wholesome.

He leaned over the counter and briefly kissed my lips. "When do you get off?"

I glanced at the clock and replied "In about 20 minutes."

He smiled at me; "Ok then, I can just about wait that long. I'll be over there k?"

I nodded in response and let my mind wander again. Telling Jasper the secret wasn't even an option. But could I bear to keep such a momentous secret from him? Oh, God what should I do? I couldn't tell him yet, I shouldn't even be contemplating it. At all. We hadn't been seeing each other that long! A month for god's sake!

A month. Its the longest relationship I've ever had. Well, that's practically an anniversary! I grinned to myself at my foolishness. I sounded like a squealing adolescent girl. Suddenly my day seemed a bit brighter, of course my worries would never really go away but they could wait for a while at least... I should celebrate my only relationship to have lasted a whole month and counting!

But how? I'm not exactly Miss Sociable. I don't know the hottest places to eat, or the latest must see movie. What could I possibly do with Jasper that would be appropriate? He probably didn't even realise it was our one month anniversary. He was normal and gorgeous; he had definitely had relationships before. But one month, well, that's a whole month of Jasper not getting sick of me. A whole month that Jasper had stuck with me, I felt like he deserved a medal or a prize! I played around with the idea of prizes inside my head before coming to a great conclusion. The fair. There was a fair right around the corner! It had a big wheel which we could ride and loads of booths we could have a go on. Maybe I could even win him a prize? Boys aren't the only ones who can do that. I grinned madly again, this time noticing that it was finally the end of my shift.

I ran into the back. Checking that no one was there, I quickly changed out of my uniform and raced out the front. Jasper sat in his corner an eyebrow raised at my rushing around. I smiled foolishly; "Wanna go somewhere?" He smiled, trusting me already; "Sure. Two dates in one week! I am a lucky guy."

I grabbed his hand and squeezed it in my own. "Hey! Where are we going? Lily!" Jasper laughed as I dragged him down the street, not answering. I pulled him along; towards the fair that I hoped would be as exciting for him as it was for me. When we got to the front of the fair I stopped, trying to gauge his reaction. "A fair?" He asked.

My heart dropped, did he not like it? I waited anxiously for him to give me some kind of response. God it felt like an eternity. Something must have showed on my face because he put his hand gently under my chin, forcing me to look at him. A smile lit his face; "I love the fair. I was going to ask if you wanted to go later in the week! C'mon lets go win some prizes, darlin!" I couldn't help but smile back in him, as I followed him into the fair.

I looked around in wonder, I hadn't visited a fair since I was small. Everything looked so bright and happy. I gazed at the stalls, looking at all the prizes. I still wanted to win something for jasper even if he thought it was lame. I stopped in front of one booth. It was perfect. There was a bear dressed as a cowboy. It had a cowboy hat, a sheriff star and a small red bandana tied around its neck. I always thought of Jasper as a cowboy. Jasper looked at me questioningly; "You okay there baby?"

I looked over at him smiling widely. "Let's play on this one!"

I paid the money and got my three hoops in return. All I had to do was get all three on the moving ducks. The first and second ones were easy. But i didn't want to get over confident and mess up. I wanted to give something to Jasper so bad. I threw the hoop from trembling figures, keeping my fingers crossed and sending a silent prayer to god that it would land safely. And it did! I couldn't believe it! I picked out the bear I wanted. I shyly handed it to Jasper.

"This is for me?" He questioned. He looked pleased and embarrassed all at the same time. I nodded, not trusting myself to speak. He smiled. "No one has ever given me a stuffed bear before." He clutched it to his chest before pulling me into a passionate embrace. "I don't know why, but this has got me all riled up. Come with me darlin'"

He pulled me towards the ferris wheel.

As we stood in the line I tried not to show that I was petrified of heights. Jasper was so excited, I couldn't ruin his fun. He squeezed my hand as we sat down in the small glass booth. As the wheel started to move I jumped and shut my eyes. Jasper glanced at me; "Baby, are you alright?" I nodded my head with my eyes still closed. "No you're not... Are you scared of heights?" I was still, I opened my eyes slightly, peeking at him. I looked into his beautiful blue eyes and slowly said; "Yes. Mmm Maybe."

He stroked my hand reassuringly; "You should have told me! Well this just won't do at all. We'll have to find some way to distract you hmm?"

He slowly pressed his lips to mine, while running his free hand through my hair.