A/N I DO NOT OWN ANYTHING!

Later that night Stefan and Elena made their way to the woods.

"All right, so it's easier to do during the day but until Bonnie gives you you're daylight right, we have no choice but it's still fun. Now I want you to close your eyes and focus, tell me what do you hear." Stefan said.

Elena closed her eyes and sighed. "Nothing I don't hear anything."

"Focus Elena, come on, you need to focus."

Suddenly Elena heard something "…Wait I hear…footsteps, fast footsteps…"

"Good, now tell me what do you smell?"

"A deer..maybe two."

"Good, now I want you to open your eyes and let the vampire in you take over."

"But what if I can't stop myself…" Elena whimpered.

"Baby, it's dark out no human is dumb enough to come out here at night, all you'll be feeding off of is the animals."

Elena opened her eyes and smelled the deer blood again. Suddenly before she knew what she was doing she took off running, faster than she had ever ran before. Edward behind her trying to keep up.

Elena saw the deer and ran fast towards it. She pounced like a lion capturing the deer in her grasp. It wiggled and squirmed trying to get loose. She looked at the deer and saw the fear in its eyes. Then a small cry caught her attention. A baby doe was peeking out from the bushes, watching in horror and fright as she attacked her mother.

What was she doing? She was taking a mother away from its child, she knew that feeling. She was now regretting watching Bambi so many times as a kid, as the death scene played over in her head. She couldn't do it, she couldn't take this mother about from her baby. She let the deer go and stood up. The deer and it's baby quickly ran off. Stefan came over to her.

"You had it what happen?" he asked.

"I'm sorry…" she whispered looking down at the floor. "I failed you."

"Hey, it's ok catching them is always the hardest part."

"No, Stefan, I let her go. I had her in my arms ready to kill and drink but I just…I couldn't do it. She had a baby Stefan. A little tiny doe, he was watching from the bushes, he looked at me with such fear and I couldn't do it. I'm sorry I can't hunt animals Stefan, I can't hunt humans I can't." Elena started to cry. "I'm a failure to you, you're trying to help but I can't do what you're teaching I'm sorry I'm so sorry. Please don't kill me, please don't hate me, but please don't break up with me!"

"Baby, come here."

Stefan pulled her into his arms hugging her close. "You've got a caring heart, there is nothing wrong with that. It's one of the reasons I love you. If you don't want to hunt you don't have to. Caroline doesn't hunt either, Lexi doesn't hunt, not every vampire has to hunt to feed. Lexi and Caroline just use the blood bags. You can just drink the bottles of blood I keep at home just in case, and I'll always bring home extra when I go hunting. I'd never kill you or hate you and I'd certainly never break up with you. I love you and I'm sorry this happen to you. I don't want you to worry about it. You're doing just fine."

"I feel like I failed you." She whimpered.

"Elena look, at me."

Elena looked up at him. "Don't you remember, when you become a vampire it increases your emotions, the love you have for humans and animals has increased drastically and that's ok. You can still survive without hunting. I don't want you to feel like a failure because you're not one."

Elena nodded and buried her face in his chest. "Look, if it makes you feel any better I would have done the same thing. If I saw that baby deer, I'd never be able to kill it's mother as it watched, I'd let it go too."

Elena just nodded against his chest. He kissed her head and rubbed her back. "Are you hungry, we can get some more blood at home?"

"No, I don't want blood, of any kind I don't want blood…"

Stefan sighed. He knew it was just best to get her home.

"We can race back, do you want to do that?"

"No."

"Ok, let's just walk then."

"No, I don't want to go home. I don't want anyone to know what happen."

"No one is going to be angry with you. Plus it's only going to be Jeremy and Lexi , they aren't going to judge you or be angry with you."

"It's not Lexi I'm worried about. I made the change for Jeremy, I even made the change from his blood, if I'm not doing everything I can to survive as a vampire I'm failing him as a big sister."

"Elena the fact that you are even willing to make the change just so Jeremy didn't lose his sister makes you the best big sister ever. Damon wouldn't have done that for me. We were all each other had left and Damon would have rather die than be a vampire. If I didn't force him he never would have changed. He knows this is hard for you. He understands it will take you time to adjust to your new life."

Elena just sighed. Stefan knew she wasn't going to feel better until they got home. He lifted her legs and carried her bridal style. She buried her face in the crook of his neck, wrapping her arms tightly around his neck.

"Hang on baby girl, we will be home soon."

Stefan ran all the way back to the house.

He went inside and Lexi was waiting for them.

"What happen, you're back a lot faster than I thought you'd be."

"Long story…" Stefan answered.

He went upstairs and took Elena into her room. He set her down on the bed. She just curled up in a fetal position. Stefan sighed. He stroked her hair and kissed her forehead. "I love you Elena. Nothing can change that."

He walked out of the room and closed the door. Lexi was waiting.

"So, what now? My guess is she's refusing to drink any blood?"

"Yep, but I have an idea. I just need you to keep her up here as long as possible. Don't let her come downstairs."

"I' don't think she's going anywhere Stefan, but I'll keep an eyes on her just in case."

"Thanks."

Stefan raced downstairs. Lexi smiled she had an idea she knew what Stefan was planning, she just hoped it worked. Otherwise Elena would never get used to her new life.

A little bit later Stefan went back upstairs. Lexi was just coming out of Elena's bedroom closing the door.

"How is she?" he asked.

"She still won't speak, or even respond to anything I ask her. Stefan I'm…" Lexi sighed, now that Elena was a vampire she would hear everything.

She took out her phone and sent a text message. Stefan got it and read it.

I'm worried about her Stefan, she is the shyest, quietest, and vulnerable vampire I've ever met.

Stefan sighed and nodded. He sent her a reply text message.

I know I am too. I'm doing everything I can to help her adjust but she just can't seem to get the hang of it. But I think I may have been able to find a way for her to drink blood. I just hope it works.

With that Stefan went inside Elena's room. She was just as he left her. He went over to the bed and sat down by her side. He stroked her hair.

"Are you ok?" he asked.

She just shrugged.

"Baby, you know what's going to happen if you don't feed."

She nodded.

"Come down stairs with me, I've got a little surprise for you."

"Where is Jeremy?"

"He's out with Bonnie for the night, it's just us and Lexi. No humans or animals I promise."

Sighing Elena sat up. She stood up and followed Stefan downstairs into the kitchen.

She gasped at the sight. On the table was her favorite meal chicken parmesan. The human side of her took over and she went over to the plate and started to eat. As she swallowed she noticed the red tomato sauce wasn't sauce at all. It was blood, animal blood…Stefan has tricked her into eating blood. She had tricked herself into thinking she was eating human food so technically she wasn't drinking blood….

"That was real clever Stefan." She said.

He chuckled "Thank you, I thought you might enjoy it, oh and this time I even made my own mozzarella cheese."

"It's yummy."

"Can you taste anything?" Lexi asked.

"It doesn't taste as good as it used to but Stefan put a lot of blood so it has lots of flavor."

"I never had human food after my change. I figured what's the point but this was really smart."

"I have my moments." Stefan said.

"Yeah, they don't happen very often." Lexi teased.

Elena giggled as she continued to eat her chicken…or blood…or dinner.

"Ha-ha very funny Lexi. I'll have you know I've have several smart moments while you were away haven't I Elena?"

"Uh…well…actually…"

"Elena Gilbert you better change your mind right now or you will be punished."

She just giggled. "Yeah, he has had many smart moments since you left. He is actually a really smart person."

"I know, it's amazing he's like a walking history book." Lexi said.

"Great, first I'm not smart enough, now I'm too smart. I'll never win." Stefan groaned.

Lexi and Elena giggled.

"When will you two stop ganging up on me?"

"When…I see a flying pig." Lexi said.

"Careful Lexi, there was a time I would have said 'when vampire land in Mystic Falls' so you never know what might happen." Elena said.

Lexi just shrugged. "Ok, how about this, we will stop ganging up on you when you…feed off of Elena."

"That's cruel." Stefan said.

Lexi smiled.

Elena giggled and continued to eat. Their conversation was distracting her mind was focusing on the taste of blood and more on just eating what was on her plate, but at the same time she was getting the amount of blood she needed to stay healthy.

Stefan and Lexi stayed and talked, teased and laughed until Elena took her last bite.

"That was really good Stefan, and I feel better now that the burning in my throat is gone."

"You're welcome. From now on you'll just drink from the bottles, how does that sound?"

"Much better. I'm sorry about before."

"Don't be, it's hard to adjust but don't worry you'll get used to it."

"I think I am, I mean I've mastered, my hearing, my speed, my strength….my blood…what else is there?"

"Controlling your thirst for blood, it's harder on those who live with a human, like Caroline does."

"That's not going to happen overnight. I've been a vampire for a long time and I'm still working hard to control it. It takes centuries of practice."

Elena just nodded. "How are we going to do that?"

"Well normal social activates are always a good place to start but if you want more than that we can just use bait."

"What's bait?"

Stefan reached into the fridge and pulled out on of Lexi's blood bags. Elena gasped and quickly covered her mouth and nose with her hands. Stefan put it away.

"We give you that to just hold, you can't drink it but you just hold it and see how long you can go without losing control."

Elena just nodded. She didn't like it but it was better than losing control and hurting someone she loved. She got up and went over to the sink. She put her plate down and started to wash it. As she looked up, she saw her refection in the window. Only she looked different, her eyes were blood red, her veins were deep red and she had blood all over her face. She shrieked dropping the plate making it break.

"What?" Stefan asked quickly by her side.

Elena turned around and buried her face in her hands. "My face!"

"What's wrong with your face?" Stefan asked.

"My eyes! My eyes are red and you can see my veins!"

"Yeah but that's normal. Baby, that's normal it's part of being a vampire."

Elena just shook her head and started to cry.

"Elena, hey, look at me."

"No!" Elena starts crying harder. "You can't see me like this. You won't love me anymore!"

"Look at me, look at me, look at me! Elena…Elena! Look at me! Look at my face, look at my face!"

Stefan managed to pull her hands away from her face. She looked up at him. His face looks just like hers only no blood.

"You see that? You've seen me like this before too. Remember, that night we made love for the first time remember, I was scared of showing you my face too. But you said not to hide from you so I didn't. Don't hide from me Elena, you're beautiful just the way you are."

"But this always happens."

"It's going to, whenever you have blood."

"No, but even when I'm not drinking blood. Like when I smell Jeremy or any other human it happens. I look like a monster."

"You're not a monster Elena, you let a deer go just because she had a baby a real monster wouldn't have done that."

"But how do I make this go away Stefan? I want it to stop."

"When you feel the blood rushing, you tell yourself that you're going to get through it, that you're strong enough."

Elena just shook her head. She couldn't do that. She wasn't strong enough.

"Yes, yes, no matter how good it feels to get yourself over to it, you fight it off, you burry it. Watch me, watch me"

Elena watches as his face goes normal again. She sniffs calming down.

"Good, just take some deep breaths and calm down. Try it."

Elena does as he says. She turns around and her face in back to normal. She sighs and turns back to Stefan. "Why did Damon have to do this me? Why does he have to be so obsessed with Katherine?" she whimpered.

"I don't know. I wish I did but I honestly don't know."

Elena looked down.

"Hey," he lifted her chin to make her look at him. "I promise you nothing bad will happen to you. I will always protect you."

Elena just nodded.

"Come here."

Elena and Stefan shared a hug. Suddenly the door opened and two human smells entered the house. Elena suddenly felt her face changing again. She whimpered.

"Hey, shhh, shhh, breathe, just do like I show you just breathe." Stefan said looking her in the eyes.

Elena did as he said and her face changed back.

"Elena are you home?" Jeremy's voice calls.

"In the kitchen Jer."

Jeremy came in with Bonnie.

"Hey you two." Elena greeted.

"Hey Elena."

Bonnie hugged her. They pulled away.

"How was your night?" Stefan asked.

"Fine." Bonnie answered.

"She's just mad because I found all her ticklish spot." Jeremy laughed.

Stefan laughed. "Just be careful Jer, I might just slip and tell her your ticklish spots." Elena answered.

"You wouldn't." Jeremy dared.

"Wouldn't I?"

Jeremy and Elena playfully glared at each other.

"I've got nothing to lose, Stefan already knows my ticklish spots."

"Are you even still ticklish?" Jeremy asked.

Stefan laughed and to answer Jeremy's question he tickled Elena on her sides. Making her squeal and break into giggles.

"I'll take that as a yes." Jeremy laughed.

"STOP!" Elena giggled squirming away from him.

Stefan laughed but let her go. He was glad she was smiling again. He hoped things continued to progress this well. If not…well if not he was going to kill Damon for putting her through all this.

A/N part of this chapter was taken from season 2 episode 2 I do not own it. Next chapter Elena finally gets her daylight ring and she and Stefan spend some alone time together. Lots of fluffy goodness. Also, if anyone is interested I posted my first story to fiction press. There is a link to my page on my profile if anyone wants to go check it out. I'd really like if you left a review telling me what you think. SO please go check it out. Thank you :)