Title: Calling Out For Help
Couple: Sam/Andy
Rating: T, mild language and may have some adult themes later.
Part: 4 of?
Pages: 8
Spoilers: season 2 episodes 1-7
Disclaimer: I do not own Rookie Blue… Wish I did.. :D
Summary: Sometimes a person's ego gets in the way. What will happen when Andy's gets in the way of her calling out for help? Sometimes calling out for help can be the hardest to do ever.
Authors Note 1: I hope every is still enjoying this story, I have never written anything so fast in my entire time writing! You all just keep encouraging me and inspiring me to write with all the wonderful reviews! Please keep them up, they mean so much to me!
Calling Out for Help: Take Me Home
I had the phone pressed to my ear hearing the ringing waiting for the person on the other end to pick up. Before he even did I was already hyper ventilating and freaking out about calling him.
How could I have been so stupid?
Of course I needed Sam, I've always needed him. It was about dam time I stopped hiding my feeling for my former training officer and start doing something about it. I was sick of dealing with my fake feelings for Luke.
How could I have ever married him? I don't love him, Hell I don't even like him after all that he has put me through!
Finally after waiting for Sam to answer I hear the call click over notifying me that he has picked up.
"Hey, are you ok? You've never called this late before." Hearing his sleepy voice, I lost it even more and the tears started pouring down my face faster than they ever had.
Trying to get out a coherent sentence, I still found myself unable to say the words that I had to get out, they were eating up inside. "Sam… I … can… you…. I need..."
His voice interrupts my incoherent talk and tries to claim me down.
"Andy sweetie, please just breathe. I can't fix anything if you can't tell me what's wrong. Take deep breaths, follow me ok?"
I follow his head and start taking deep breaths in tandem with his commands to do so.
"In and out In and out… keep going you're doing well. Just relax Andy I'm here."
Getting a hold of myself long enough I vaguely here Sam asking me a question about something, "Andy, tell me what's going on."
Quickly spitting out the words I was going to say before I changed my mind, once they were out in the open, I couldn't take them back, which was exactly what I wanted.
"I need you Sam! Please can you come get me?"
As I finished the word need I could hear a rustling around sound on Sam's end of the phone. I smile and know he's getting ready to come get me. Feeling my smile widen at his response I can't help but feel that this is what I should have done so long ago.
"Where are you at sweetie?"
"Traci's apartment."
"Ok I'll be there soon just keep breathing until I get there ok? Is Nash with you right now?"
"No, she went back to bed."
" I need you to get her to sit with you until I get there alright?"
"Yea, thank you Sam."
"Anytime and anything for you Andy."
Shutting my phone I do as Sam told me, and went to get Traci. I knew Sam told me to that so I wasn't alone and so Traci knew I was leaving with Sam, well hopefully leaving with Sam. We both needed sleep and the only way I was going to get it was being wrapped in Sam Swarek's arms. His final words in the phone conversation were repeating in my head over and over again.
Anytime and anything for you Andy.
I couldn't get them out; they warmed me from the inside out. I was starting to feel less alone, not as empty as I felt when I was with Luke, and I haven't even really told Sam how I felt. I can't imagine who I will feel once I do, that is if he reciprocates the feeling.
Quietly opening the door to Traci's room after knocking and hearing a soft "come in" I see Traci sitting up in bed with the light on reading a book.
"Hey" I start off softly,
Traci looks up and sets her book down and I sit down at the foot of her bed as she breaks the silence.
"Did you call him?"
I nodded sheepishly and blush, as I look down at my hands resting in my lap.
"Good, I take it that you are coming to tell me that he's coming to get you?"
"Yea, thanks Traci."
"No problem Andy, you're my best friend; it's what we do for one another."
Looking up at Traci I see her smiling, and then reach over and hug her. While I hug her I start talking again, "I mean thank you for everything, not just tonight. You've always been there for me through the past two years and it means so much more to me than you could ever realize. I'm not sure I could have ever gotten through rookie probation, academy or even tonight without you. Especially thank you for pushing me to make that call Traci, its time I tell Sam my feeling, to take him off ice. I'm finally ready to be with him with no hesitations."
Feeling wet spots forming on my t-shirt I pull away and see Traci crying I look at her confused and she starts explaining her tears
"I'm sorry for crying! I just love you so much Andy and I just want you to be happy. Hearing you finally owing up to your feelings to Swarek it makes me so happy for you, because I know he's your forever. The chemistry between you two is undeniable."
I start laughing at Traci and feel her slap my arms lightly, playfully to punish me for laughing at her. It felt good to laugh and smile again. I knew I had a long road ahead of me before I would ever have my heart completely healed but I knew that with Sam by my side, and Traci as my best Friend, I would be ok because love conquers all no matter how broken you are. Tonight I would begin the healing process, and eventually I would be whole again.
"Well if you are through laughing at my tears, then let's go wait in the living for your boy to show up. Shall we?"
Following Traci's lead I get off the bed and we stop to sneak a peek at Leo before finishing the walk to the living room.
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After taking the sheets off the pull out bed Traci and I push the bed back inside its place and I pack up my belonging I brought with me in my bag waiting for Sam to get here. As I sit down on the newly fixed couch I hear my phone alert me that I have a new text message. Pull out my phone from its pocket in my bag I open up the cover and see who the text message is from. Smiling I see the one name that made my heart flutter.
New message from: Sam Swarek
Clicking the button to read the message I read his question.
Hey what number is Nash's apartment?
I send out a replay quickly, 3rd floor apartment 4C.
His response comes back in a few seconds as I move to the door waiting for his knock. Coming up now.
Closing my phone and slipping it back in its pocket I looked over at Traci, "He's coming up now."
Traci smiles and nods and then we hear little footsteps coming down that hall. Traci and I both look over to the hall and see Leo coming out from his bedroom. His mom gets up to pick up the little boy and settles him on her lap after sitting down on the couch. "Leo what are you doing up at 3:15 in the morning?"
As Traci is talking to her little man I hear a quite knock on the door. I open the door and smile and seeing Sam leaning against the door jam. I move out of the way to allow him to enter and before I even get the door shut all the way I am in Sam's arms, his strong muscular arms wrapping me up in a bear hug.
Leaning my head into the crook of his neck I breathe in his sent. He smelt so good, it was intoxicating to me. His musky sent was making me relax even more, or was that from being in his arms again?
"Hey." His deep sultry voice breaks me out of my trance and I pull back and place a quick kiss on his cheek and pull his hand to drag him into the living room to say goodbye. Coming in farther to the room I see Traci curled up on the couch with Leo safely tucked into her arms, with his tiny arms wrapped around her neck. I smile at the scene and hand Sam my bag, after pulling out my phone and taking a picture of the mother and son duo. Silently I pull the blanket off the chair beside the couch and cover the two. Traci wakes up long enough afterwards for me to tell her that I am leaving with Sam and that I would see her tomorrow at work. I hear her mumble a soft ok and start heading towards Sam who was waiting at the door for me.
"Come on let's get you home and we'll talk there."
Home
Wondering if Sam heard his slip up of calling his place home for me, I start following him down the stairs, my hand never leaving his all the way out to his car. Walking to his truck I can't help but feel giddy at going "home". With Luke that word felt heavy and loaded, like I was waiting for it to attack me at some point. With Sam the word felt….. right, like this was where I was supposed to be.
When we arrived at his silver truck he opens the door for me and helps me get in and then places my bag in the back after shutting my door and walks around the driver's side. As he walked around the front of the truck I can't help but stare at him. He was so exceedingly handsome his arms moving as he ran his fingers over the top of the trucks hood, making his muscles stretch in his already tight t-shirt making it even tighter over his broad shoulders.
I blushed when I saw Sam staring at me as he got into the truck.
"You're beautiful when you blush." His comment only made me blush even redder than I already was. Seeing my face darken in reddish tint Sam chuckled and started the truck to drive to his place. Pulling out of the apartment parking lot we started the short drive. As we came up to a red light that was notorious for being extremely long Sam turned his head and looked over at me. Smiling I stare back at him.
Before I knew it his hand was coming to rest on my check, his thumb rubbing soothing circles around the plain of tanned skin that was stretched over my cheek bone. Our eyes stayed locked for an immeasurable amount of time until some jackass behind us ruined the moment by honks his horn. Removing his warm hand from my face he placed it back on the wheel and pressed the gas pedal to start moving the truck through the intersection, our moment was effectively ruined for the time being.
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Pulling into Sam's driveway I unlock my seat belt and before I knew it Sam was opening my door to allow me out. How did he get over at my side so fast? Looking into his eyes I can't help but feel safe, something I haven't felt since, well longer I can't remember the last time I really felt "safe". Sam grabs my bag from the back seat and subconsciously I reach out for his hand.
Inter locking our fingers I feel him give my hand a tight squeeze before starting the walk to his front door, flash backs assaulting my mind of the blackout. Once inside Sam drops my bag and turns to me.
"Do you want to talk down here, or somewhere else? We can even talk while I get you settled into the guest room? Your call Andy, we could even wait until tomorrow."
Reaching up I place my hand on his upper arm before answering both his questions. "Down here in the living room would be fine, and I don't want to wait anymore. I have so much to say and so much I need to get off my chest."
As Sam started to walk towards his living while talking, "I agree. I need to talk to you as well. But I do want to make sure you get some sleep before shift tomorrow."
There he goes again, making me his first priority. I love that about him. Wait did I just say love? I mean I knew I had feelings for him, but I never put them into a category like love. Thinking about it now, love was the correct term to define my feelings for the dark haired man sitting down on the couch waiting for me to make the first move to start the conversation.
" I guess I should start off with saying thank you." I say as I sit down close to him, our legs brushing sending fireworks exploding under my skin and deep into my veins.
"You don't need to say thank you, but you're welcome anyway. As I said on the phone earlier before picking you up, anytime and anything for you Andy. "
"I know but I just wanted to say that even though I was let down when you didn't help me search Nixon's locker, you have been here when I needed you every other time. You came and got me tonight when I needed you, and no matter what I know I can count on you to be there for me."
I see Sam smile, the brightness of his smile lighting up the semi-lit room and sending sparking flying in his eyes. This in return made my temperature spike a little.
"I promise I will always have your back no matter what. I made a stupid mistake today and I wouldn't be able to live with myself if you hadn't come back to me."
Reaching over I grab his hand and trace circles around his ring fingers. My stomach was doing somersaults at my imagination racing far ahead of its self by picturing my ring incasing his finger one day, if I was lucky.
"I know, and when Traci woke me up tonight from the horrible nightmares I was having and asked if there was anyone who could get them to go away, your name was the only one who came to mind. Sam, I don't want Luke I want you. You're the one that makes my heart clinch every single time we're separated. You're the only one that can keep all this hurt away from me and it doesn't matter if I do get hurt by something or someone again because you would be there and none of it would matter anymore. Nothing matters to me if you're not in my life anymore Sam. I can't live without anymore. You're it for me."
Taking a deep breath after my long speech, I wait for Sam's reply. As the seconds tick by, seconds that feel like hours mind you, and Sam doesn't respond I start to wonder if maybe I had said too much and had scared him off. I had opened up my big mouth and spilled my beans and he didn't feel like same.
"I'm sorry; I'm just going to go to sleep. I'll be in the guest room."
Standing up to walk away I drop Sam's hand from mine, but as I start to walk I feel his hand wrap around my wrist stopping me from leaving.
"Andy, don't go. I was in shock that you feel the exact same as me."
As Sam finished his sentence I hear myself gasp. He felt the same. He wanted me, he couldn't live without me.
"I need you Andy. I've always needed you. Since day one of training you, I couldn't get you out of my mind. Everything I did it revolved around a single thought. What would Andy think or what would Andy want? Seeing you engaged to that ass Luke killed me inside and I never thought I have my chance with you. Then all that has gone this past week happened. I tried to ask you to stay with me in the locker room when I told you that you couldn't stay with your father but I couldn't get the words past my filter. I thought you needed time and I was going to give you whatever you needed. Andy you're it for me as well, no one else will do it has to be you."
After Sam's confession of his feelings I jump up and wrap my arms around his neck and my legs around his waist. He wrapped his strong around me and held me tight against his chest. Feeling his warm skin against my own skin I can't help but close my eyes basking in the weight that as lifted off my chest at finally confessing my feeling. Before I knew what was going on I felt darkness overcome me and I fall sleep, in the love of my life's arms.
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Sometime later I feel cool soft sheets against my skin that is not covered by my pjs and warm soft skin under my head. Opening my eyes I see a span of olive muscle toned skin and feel arms incasing me against his body. Feeling his hand move down my back slightly and him burring his face deeper into my hair I feel him mumble something. It sounded a lot like "I love you".
He loves me! I can't help up scream that in my mind feeling like a giddy teenager who has fallen in love for the first time. I knew in my mind that this was the man I was suppose to be with for forever and always. He was my true love. Smiling I fall back asleep against my cozy pillow for the night. A pillow formed by the body of my love, the one and only Sam Swarek. My nightmares were long gone from my mind, just moments in time of Sam and me and our future, as long as I stayed in his arms.
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Author's Note 2: Wow! That was not where I had planned for this chapter to end, but I felt that it was a beautiful picture for my readers to imagine until I update again. This story has taken off on its own so it's detouring a little but from my plot outline, but it still close just a few adjustments for each chapter to make and I no longer have any idea who many chapters this will be, besides 10 or more.
Author's Note 3: As I said I was going to do the first reviewer of the last chapter gets a preview of this chapter. So the first reviewer was roxygurl453! Congrats and I hope you enjoyed the preview!
Author's Note 4: I am getting so many wonderful reviews I am going to start dedicating each chapter to one or two reviewers who stood out the most to me on the last chapter. That will start next chapter, so keep an eye out for those, they will be in my first author's note that's at the start of every chapter! Hope everyone enjoyed until next time keep reviewing! lol