Title: Calling Out For Help
Couple: Sam/Andy
Rating: T, mild language and may have some adult themes later.
Part: 11 of?
Pages: 9
Spoilers: season 2 episodes 1-8
Disclaimer: I do not own Rookie Blue… Wish I did…. :D
Summary: Sometimes a person's ego gets in the way. What will happen when Andy's gets in the way of her calling out for help? Sometimes calling out for help can be the hardest to do ever.
Authors Note 1: I am so sorry for not updating this sooner! I have a really good reason though, I've been sick with food poisoning and my grandmother has been in the hospital and they can't figure out what's wrong so I've been running back in worth from home to her. It's been a crazy couple of days. But now that I have a few hours free I'm going to try and knock out the rest of these chapters.
Calling Out For Help: Waking up in Hell
Sam:
Waking up again I see I am in a room with no furniture, like one would expect a house to have. This was my personal Hell right now. Looking around, the room is a dirty white, no pictures, no nothing just a huge column that I have my arms tied to. Wiggling around, I try to loosen the noose around my wrist, with no luck. I sigh and then the door opens.
"Officer Swarek, I would not advise you to try and escape. I'll just kill you then, and I'm trying to keep you alive for as long as I can. "
The blond detective from the 15th division just smiles, and I roll my eyes. I feel his hand slap against the flesh covering my face. No doubt leaving a huge red hand print, and stinging like there was no tomorrow.
I find my voice and as a simple question, "Why did you do it?"
Luke just chuckles and answers, "Because you stole her out from under me. You were just waiting on me to make a mistake with Andy. Well guess what, I did. But see the thing is, I no longer want Andy. She was always the replacement for Jo. I've just finally realized all this."
"So you take me? You what? Torture me now or do you kill me?" I wanted to know what I was up against. I needed to know what I need to make it through to get back to Andy and tell her that I love her.
Luke just smiles, "Well see, it all depends on what the 15th division is willing to do for their most popular officer. Really it's what Andy is willing to do. You took her from me, and now I'm taking you from her. I was always told pay back is a bitch, it's just your turn to be on the receiving end of it."
I lock my eyes into the cold stone blue ones in the detective's head. Was he serious? I didn't take anything from him! Andy came to me because she didn't want him anymore. He cheated on Andy and he just told me that Andy was a replacement.
Luke breaks his eye contact and leaves, the door slamming shut and rattling the post I was tied to. A post I would not be tied to for long though, I would get out of this. Andy needs me, I need her. I couldn't die yet. I wouldn't, I would make it out.
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Andy:
"Zoey, this meal is wonderful, thank you so much for taking me in. Oliver is right; I need to be around people."
Hearing a little girl laugh, I look over and see the man I was just speaking about tickling a little girl. It was their youngest of three, Hannah. She was a precious little four year old who loved her daddy and thought the earth rotated around him. I smile at him but my mind was somewhere else.
It wasn't little Hannah I was picturing. I was picturing a future child with Sam. A little girl who was just as wonderful as Hannah and loved her daddy more than anything else in the world, it was the only imagine that was making me alive right now.
Sam would come back to me. He had to, because I need him to. I fully plan on being able to tell him that I love him and have a future with him. A life full of smiles, laughter, children, and a marriage to last a life time maybe even longer depending on what you believe.
"Thank you Andy. I figure Oliver works so hard all day he needs a good home cooked meal when he gets home. Plus it's healthier for everyone and girls are still growing."
I smile at her. Was I still terrified that Sam wouldn't come back? Yes I was. It was hard to not think that, but I had too much I wanted to do with him, experience with him. He makes me whole, and I can't live without him.
Zoey's voice breaks me out of my trance for awhile.
"Oliver if you will go put the girls down for the night I will do the dishes. Andy, feel free to watch TV. We will talk after I do the dishes ok?"
I protest, "Let me help with the dishes?"
Zoey smiles and nods her head. I pick up all the plates while Zoey takes the serving dishes. I place the plates in the sink and wait for Zoey.
"Thank you for your help Andy but you don't have to."
"Please let me. I need something to keep my mind off Sam being gone. "
"Then I'll wash and you can dry sound good?"
"Sure."
We were both silent the rest of the time we spent washing dishes. I kept seeing Zoey glancing over at me. It was as if she was expecting me to break down at any moment. I was fine though.
I'm fine.
The words I had said so many times. The first time I shot someone, the time I got shot myself. The time my mother left, every time something got hard all I would say was "I'm fine." It was the biggest lie I tell myself and everyone else. Sam was the first one to break through and see that I wasn't ever fine.
I hear heavy footsteps coming down the stairs in the main room and look out of the kitchen and see Oliver in jeans and t-shirt sitting on the couch looking for the remote.
"Zoey, where did you put the remote?"
Zoey just sighs shakes her head and mutters something about her husband and tell him where to find it.
"It's on the table, like it always is Oliver!"
I quietly laugh but Zoey hears me. She smiles at me and says "men can't live with them, can't live without them!"
I nod and just smile. I hope that one day this would be my life, my life with Sam hopefully.
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A few moments later, about twenty minutes, the dishes are done and Zoey and I head into the living room. The night time news was on, so we all settled in and listened to what all was going on in the world and around our city.
One of the news reports breaks me out of my zone, and makes tears build behind my eyes.
"Breaking news this report just into our news station from police headquarters tonight. A police officer out of the 15th division has been kidnapped while out on a man hunt. If anyone has news about the wear about of Officer Sam Swarek please call this phone number!"
A phone number to the 15th division came on below a picture of Sam. He looked so handsome in his formal police photo. The sight of his picture just reminded me of the hurt I was suppressing.
Oliver must have noticed because he quickly goes to shut the TV off.
"Well that's enough of the news tonight. Zoey, I am going to go to bed. The guest room is all ready for McNally after you two talk."
Zoey nods and stands up to hug Olive and kiss him goodnight, but she doesn't sit down where she was before. She sits down right next to me.
"Andy, I know this is hard for you, but you can't just keep this all bottled up inside. It's not good for you and don't you want to be good for Sam when he comes home?"
Her words break down my walls and tears start overflowing and slide down my face. Zoey just wraps her arms around me and allows me to cry on her shoulder.
"It's ok Andy. Emotion release is good for you. Just cry it all out."
I finish crying out all my tears and Zoey just smiles at me while handing me a tissue.
"Do you want to go clean your face up before we talk anymore?"
"No, why waste the water? I'm just going to start crying again."
She nods and glances out the window. I look out at well. I see the house lights on the street start turning off, people turning in for the night. The little children of the neighborhood much like the three Shaw little girls, more than likely already in bed trying to sleep the night away. It was Sunday tomorrow and church was early so everyone needed sleep.
"Has Oliver ever told you about me before Andy? I know he was only your training officer for a few days, but I'm hoping we can start a little ahead of the beginning."
"He told me about your job as a psychologist and your three daughters but that's about all we ever had time for."
Zoey just nods before taking a deep breath, "I'm just going to start off with a little about my family. I warn you though; it's kind of sad and may make you cry. It's been years and it still makes me tear up."
"Ok, please don't feel like you have to."
"Trust me Andy. You'll understand
I just nod and Zoey starts her story. It was one I never thought would apply to me but it did in so many ways.
"When I was about six years old the family was in the middle of falling apart. My older sister had died from cancer that was incurable and my mother was slowing trying to rebuild what was left of our life. My poor dad got the brunt of her anger and her depression. He tried to help he really did, but all he had time for was getting me and my brothers off to school in the mornings when my mom wouldn't get out of bed and that was close to every day.
One day while I was at school, I got pulled out early. I seem to remember it being about lunch time when my dad came and got me. All three of my brothers were across the street at the middle and high school so we drove over in silence to get them as well. When I saw my dad walking back to the car with my brothers, I saw him wipe his eyes and I noticed then they looked red. I didn't know it then but he had been crying. My dad never cried, that was the first time I saw him cry.
When we got home my dad told all of his children that our mom left. She packed up her bags and just left. I seem to remember your mom did the same thing to you did she not?"
I look over at Zoey and speak, "yea I was about 14 though." She nods and continues her story.
"Then you understand how I felt about the whole thing. A few days passed before it really hit me that my mom left without me. My dad bless his heart tried to do everything for us, but my older brothers had to step up a lot because my dad had to take on a full time job and a part time just to keep our heads above water. It was rough but we did what we had to. About four years after my mom left my dad met a nice female cop. A couple months into their relationship my father introduced the officer to us. Her name was Samantha Carter.
I grew to like her and when my dad sat all of us down again he informed us that Samantha was going to become our step mom. It was then that I loved her. She became my mother figure and she was everything I ever wanted for a mom. She never tried to replace my original mother, but I was eleven years old at this time. I really wanted a mother, just to talk to me about girl things. My dad and Samantha got married and we welcomed another little sibling into the family. I finally had the little sister I always wanted who looked similar to my older sister we had lost a few years back.
Everything was going well. I was about 13 when things turned bad. Samantha was kidnapped on the job one day by a convict she help convict in a murder. They found her body three days later. We would later find out she was a month pregnant at the time of her death. My dad took it hard and he was never the same since then. I've never been then same, and neither have my siblings. Dad slipped into a horrible depression and turned towards the bottle for comfort, a bottle that would kill him after I had graduated high school but before I married Oliver and had my own family. Once again my siblings and I had to step up and raise our little sister."
Zoey pauses for moment to wipe her eyes before she continues on with the story.
"My father's death and my step mom's death are what drove me to become a councilor. I, out of anyone, understand the pain that comes along with family. Andy, I understand what you're going through. We will find Sam even if I have to do it myself. I won't let you become the shell of a person I was before Oliver and the girls. I would rather go to Hell than witness my husband's favorite rookie slip away."
Looking over at Zoey, I see her arms open and we both openly cry into one another's shoulder, both feeling the pain from our past coming out and the pain of the current events seeping in as well and spewing out into the open.
"Thank you Zoey. Thank you for telling me your story."
"Your very welcome Andy, but now it's your turn to talk. You trust me now and I don't care what you talk about, but you need to let everything out."
I start talking and everything comes out.
" I guess Sam being kidnapped has brought about my old issues from when my mom left. I know Sam's leaving is not even close to being the same, but it still hurts. I need him here with me, and I can't save him right now. He's always saving me, having my back and the one time he needs me to have his I don't. It scares me because Sam may never come back to me, and I wouldn't be able to live without him."
"That's understandable Andy. Sam had no choice. He was taken, and everyone is trying to find him and bring him home to you. People see the way you two are together. Even the pictures I have seen from before Sam and you got together it was obvious that you two belong together. Andy you've found in Sam what Oliver gave me, love. If Sam is close to the man I know he is, then I know that he is trying to come home to you."
I nod and we both just stare out the window until we both declare we are tired and ready to turn in for the night. Zoey shows me to the guest room, where I try but can't fall asleep, because I was missing the warm muscular body I had gotten use to sleep next to.
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Jo:
"TELL ME WHERE SAM IS JO!" I hear Frank yell at me. I just stay quiet.
"I want my lawyer." I say to Frank in a quiet voice.
"Fine." Frank walks out of the room slamming the door behind him and leaves me alone and I start thinking about the day's events. Everything had gone perfect, or so I thought.
A few hours later I see my lawyer walk in and a new officer behind him. I knew the officer remembering he was out of the 27th division.
"Hello I'm Detective Boyd. I will be conducting this interview for the 15th. Let's start off with a little fact check shall we?"
I nod and look over at my lawyer who seems uninterested in what was going on. He was too busy playing a game on his blackberry. I sigh and get ready for the fight of my life. The detective places a tape recorder on the table and presses record before starting.
"What is your name?"
"Jo Rosati"
"Occupation?"
"Detective for 15th police department."
"Age?"
"30."
"Relationship with Officer Caleb Smith?"
"Former boyfriend."
"Relationship with Sam Swarek?"
"Co-worker."
"Relationship with Andy McNally?"
"Co-worker."
"Well , from the statements I have here it seems you are the one that broke up a relationship between officer McNally and detective Luke Callaghan is this true?"
"Yes."
"Very well then Ms. Rosati. Would there be any more reasons for you to be angry about the happening of these events from the past few days?"
"No."
Boyd sighs.
"Ms. Rosati, please feel free to tell me why your police badge was found in the woods next to Officer Swarek's gun?"
I feel my temperature rise a little bit as I start to lay the foundation of my lie. Praying it would get me out of this situation long enough to kill one Sam Swarek.
"I lost my badge earlier today; maybe it was Swarek who took it?"
"That's a lie detective. Sam Swarek wasn't anywhere near you all day. In fact you were MIA for most of the work day weren't you? What were you doing during that period of time? Weren't you supposed to be working the cop killer case? Wait a minute though; the cop killer was Officer Smith who is sitting next door ready to spill his guts for a plea deal. Please Detective, stop wasting my time and tell me what the Hell really happened?"
I didn't talk and Boyd got up and started to walk around a little bit.
"You know what fine. I'm going to go get Officer Smith to spill the beans. I was going to try and give you a chance here Ms. Rosati because you have the most to lose in this situation but you are unwilling to work with me. I will see you at trial then. Goodbye."
Processing Boyd's words I am quick to stop him from walking.
"WAIT! I'll tell you but I want a plea bargain if I do!"
Boyd nods and tells me he will be back and motions for lawyer who finally stopped playing a game to walk with him.
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A few hours later I see the door open and my lawyer with Boyd walk in.
"Ok, if you give your statement to me, your confession, and then tell me where to find Officer Swarek, and what Officer Smith has to do with this along with the undercover cop, we will give you a plea bargain."
I nod and start to tell the officer my side of the story.
"The undercover cop was an Officer Smith thing. He shot the cop because Smith's girlfriend left him for the undercover cop. The other people shot were not suppose to be killed. The undercover cop also was a friend of Officer Swarek's. We wanted to hit hard and get them looking for a killer so that I could kidnap Swarek on the job, hopefully without his partner."
Body interrupts me, "who is Officer Swarek's partner?"
"Andy McNally."
Boyd nods and tells me to finish the story.
"I wanted to take Officer Swarek from McNally because she stole Luke Callaghan from me. An eye for an eye type of thing, I felt she needed to see how it felt. "
"Where is Officer Swarek right now?"
"He is at my house just outside the city on 1048 Beaver drive. Callaghan is there with him."
"Callaghan?"
I nod before explaining Luke's part in everything.
"Luke wanted in on it because he felt Swarek stole McNally from him. Once again, an eye or an eye type of thing."
Boyd nods and asks one finally question,
"Is there anyone else in that house that we should know about or any weapons?"
I shake my head to indicate no, and see Boyd and my lawyer stand up to leave the room.
"Well Ms. Rosati, I hope Callaghan was worth all this trouble because you will for sure no longer work in this nation, if anywhere ever again."
I start shaking and feel tears slip down my face. How did I get so screwed up? Nobody, not even Luke was worth all this but it was too late to take any of this back. I would have to live with my mistakes forever.
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Author's Note 2: well there is chapter 11! Wow I can't believe how far this story has come. Thank you all once again for your wonderful reviews! I hope you like this chapter, I felt the story needed a little bit of depth added, I don't really like this whole chapter but I can't seem to get it right for myself.
Author's Note 3: Coming up next, Will Andy and the rest of the division make to Sam in time before Luke does anything?
Author's Note 4: There are about three more chapters not including the epilogue. But do not fear I have a couple of other story ideas running around in my mind. I'm going to wait a little bit before starting those however. I want to get settled into my heavy course load this semester. Please keep up the wonderful reviews!