Disclaimer: I do not own degrassi

A/N: Hey everyone so first off I wanna apologize for not updating sooner I've been sick and just been feeling blah but I think I owe you guys a chapter and you guys have waited long enough.

Next thank you to everyone who liked the steamy scene I tired the best I could with a T rating lol so I'm glad you enjoyed it.

He was almost there when just like all the other times she stopped him. Clare broke the kiss and said "Eli slowdown"

"Please Clare come on" He said trying to move his hand again but she grabbed it and removed it from her thigh.

"I'm sorry Eli we can't"

Eli sighed frustrated pulling away from her and siting up on his knees. "Why not huh?"

"You know why Eli" She said pulling her shirt back down as her purity ring gleamed in the light taunting him.

Eli got off the bed and faced away from her. He grabbed his hair and mumbled under his breath "So fucking close every time."

"Eli please understand" Clare said getting off the bed and putting a hand on his shoulder.

He took a deep breath before he turned to face her.

"Understand what Clare? That my girlfriend would rather keep some meaningless promise to her parents who don't give a fuck about it or her anymore instead of being with her boyfriend who loves and cares about her and just wants to pleasure her. Well I'm sorry Clare I don't understand that."

"Eli it's not a meaningless promise and I'm not keeping for my parents anymore I'm keeping it for god. He's there for me even if my parents aren't."

Oh fuck here we go again with the religious crap

"And I'm not"

"Of course I know your there for me Eli. I know you love and care about me but regardless of that I'm just not ready to go all the way yet. You're my first really serious boyfriend and I'm nervous is all."

"Am I ever gonna get to be with you? Or are you gonna remain little virgin saint Clare forever?"

A look of hurt came across Clare's features.

"I can't believe you said that Eli you know I took a vow of abstinence and you know I have faith and beliefs. Maybe Alli was right." She mumbled as she leant down and picked up her bag.

Eli's eyes darkened and he grabbed her wrist roughly causing Clare to gasp and drop her bag.

"What?"

"Ow! Eli let me go"

"I told you to say away from that whore!"

"Eli let me go now!"

"No"

"Eli"

"Clare"

"I wanna know when you talked to Alli and what she said."

"No!"

Eli grabbed both her shoulders and shook her a tad hard "Now!"

A tear came down Clare's face as she spoke "2 weeks ago by email. She said that all you wanted from me was sex that you don't even really care about me or love me."

"And do you think that?"

"I didn't until tonight"

Fuck. That stupid bitch is still getting to her. Time to play the apologetic boyfriend.

"Clare baby I'm sorry" he said as he ran his hands down her arm and kissed her wrist gently.

He then cupped her cheek as spoke

"It's just I'm frustrated is all. I wanna show you how much I love you physically.

Clare locked eyes with him "I know Eli but that still was not ok you really grabbed me hard if you do something like that again I won't be so forgiving , verbal fighting is one thing but putting your hands on someone is entirely something different and I don't like that." She said rubbing her wrist and her shoulders."

"And as for the other thing I know you want to Eli but promise or no promise I'm still not ready please understand that."

Eli grasped Clare's waist and kissed her lips gently "I do and I am so sorry Clare please stay we can just lay down and talk no funny business I promise."

Clare gave him a small smile "sounds good"

About 2 hours later they were back on Eli's bed. Eli resting against the headboard as Clare slept peacefully next to him.

He studied her as she slept absent mindedly twisted and played with her purity ring on her finger as he thought.

He didn't particularly wanna rape her, It would pleasure him more if he knew she was willing because that meant he had done everything right and she would be doing it because she thought he "Loved" her.

But the way things were going and went tonight that might not be a possibility. He wouldn't be able to wait THAT much longer. He would rape her if he had to.

The question is would he have to?

A/N: Alright so there you have it.

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-Eclarelover1820