"You told him? Dammit Dean!" Lisa cried hitting him on the arm.
"Yes! He needed to know before random women started throwing themselves at him and he doesn't want our help so drop it, now!" he cried rubbing his sore arm.
"You are such an arsehole sometimes" she muttered taking his plate away and scrubbing it clean.
"For telling my best friend that my girlfriend is setting him up with women, oh shoot me down now! How could I?" he said covering his heart and grimacing at her.
"Because I want to help him! He's lonely and he is my friend too, even Anna says he needs someone…is it so hard to want him to have someone, to kiss him, hold him?"
Dean swallowed hard and looked down at his hands. "No, he does he needs that…I'll talk to him okay! Now go to work" he muttered kissing her gently.
"Okay, thank you, I love you" she cried grabbing her coat and bag hurrying out.
"Yeah" he muttered cleaning up deep in thought.
He went upstairs for a lie down since he was granted the day off by Bobby, his boss, for being a good worker. He curled up and wondered why it disturbed and made him feel physically ill, he imagined for a moment a woman kissing him, holding him, hugging him and it made him want to smash the room up.
"What is wrong with me?" he muttered slamming a hand to his forehead angrily. He grabbed his phone and dialled his number not caring if he was in lesson or not.
Castiel looked down at his phone in confusion before answering it.
"Dean, what?" he hissed.
"Hey, where are you?"
"Lesson! I'll call you in 15 minutes, okay?"
"Okay"
Castiel hung up and shook his head apologising to his tutor before mentally hitting a version of Dean in his head for comfort. He knew not to call him in lessons; it was like being in a relationship with the man. With this thought, Cas cocked his head to the side imagining it and bit his lip with a sigh.
He was dismissed early and pulled out his phone calling him back.
"Is there a reason why you called me?"
"No, just bored and want company" Dean cried staring up at his ceiling.
"I'm on my dinner now, come meet me?"
"Yeah, where?"
"Café near the college in 10 minutes"
"See you soon" he muttered hanging up and getting ready to go and meet him.
Dean walked into see him at his table with his laptop out, he smiled to himself and sat down opposite him.
"What is more important… your best friend of nearly 8 years or a laptop?"
"The laptop" Cas muttered closing it with a playful smile.
"I know that is a lie, you love me more than that thing" he muttered with a wink and looked at his menu.
Castiel nodded discreetly to his words and sipped his coffee gently.
"So, you miss me that much you needed to call me in the middle of lesson?"
"No, I wanted company…hello, can I have a burger please?"
"Sure" the waitress said and hurried away.
"What is more important, your best friend or a burger?" Castiel said amused.
"Burger" he teased leaning back in his chair with a sigh.
Cas chuckled to himself and looked away fighting his smile. "So, anniversary soon, you planned it out?"
"Not yet, it's hard! I mean, why are they so difficult?"
"It's a proposal Dean, you get down on one knee and say, "Will you marry me?" it isn't hard"
"Yeah, when you say it like that!" he cried and looked to the waitress with a relieved smile.
"Thank you darling"
She blushed a deep red before running off.
"She will be shaking in the kitchen now; you know how to use that appeal of yours"
"Hell yeah" he grinned taking a bite.
"So! Lisa has been on my back again about this whole dating thing for you"
"Tell her it is very kind of her but I am fine! I can manage on my own; I have done for 2 years"
"So? 2 years with no sex"
"How do you know that for sure?" Castiel muttered heavily.
"So you have?"
"I am not having this conversation with you Dean"
"Oh! Are you a serial whore and never told me? Is this why!" he gasped teasing him gently.
"No!" he hissed looking around to make sure no one was watching and listening in. "Stop it"
"Aww" he muttered looking down at the table. "So, come on, please for me?"
Castiel sighed wetting his dry lips with the tip of his tongue and nodded slowly.
"Fine, tonight then"
Dean nodded slowly but was transfixed when Cas wet his bottom lip like that, it was kinda hot. Dean blinked slowly and mentally shook himself away from that thought, he devoured his burger avoiding Cas' gaze.
"I'll set you up!"
"Really?" he said with half of a groan looking up at him.
"Yeah, why not?" he said with a small smile but his confidence in this wavered at the thought.
~0~
He knew it felt wrong but why not, why not take this chance to move on from him and try and be with someone else.
He looked towards Dean as he walked in and he handed him a beer.
"Please tell me there is no one in here that you have chosen for me already" he mumbled hopefully.
"I have! Her over there" he muttered and pointed to the cute brunette in a corner in deep thought.
"Do I have to?"
"Here" he said passing him vodka shot. Castiel drank it down and looked to Jo who rolled her eyes handing him another.
"Just say hello and ask if you can sit with her?" Jo suggested.
Dean nodded at him with an amused smile.
"This is your fault if this messes up!" he hissed pointing a finger in his face and moving towards her.
Dean and Jo huddled together to watch them and she raised her eyebrows in surprise when the brunette blinked and smiled up at him before nodding and Cas sitting down.
"It worked! Good job, Dean" Jo cried shoving his shoulder.
"Yeah…yeah I guess it did" he muttered and looked towards her with a smile.
As the night progressed, Cas was getting on with the brunette very well much to Dean's surprise but could see he was a little more than tipsy now.
"He'll do something he'll regret, he always does" Dean muttered circling the top of his bottle with his little finger and watching them like a hawk.
"So? They go and have sex, he wakes up and you never know! She might want his phone number, I mean; she is practically shoving that chest in his face"
"He shouldn't be doing this like that, he needs to be sober"
"So you are just going to go over there and break it up? You sound jealous Dean"
Dean scoffed at her and turned to look at them watching closely.
"I want to do something but I need your permission"
"What?" he said blinking to focus on her, she was pretty, funny and seemed intelligent but he felt nothing for her and he desperately wanted to escape but couldn't.
"I want to kiss you; seriously, I don't think you realise how gorgeous you are"
"Um, okay?" he whispered and gasped when she pulled him forward kissing him hard.
Dean slammed his beer bottle on the bar hard.
"Taking advantage of him now is she!"
"Dean, calm down" Jo muttered alarmed at his outburst.
"I can't! if he does this whole dating thing then he does it sober" he said and went to walk over before Jo grabbed his arm.
"No! I won't let you, why are you being like this?" she said looking him up and down.
"I honestly don't know" he murmured. "Fine, I'm leaving"
He tugged out of his arm and went over to him, Jo watching him closely.
"Cas, I'm going, okay?"
"What? Why?" he said looking up at him.
"Because of work and that, are you staying or are you coming with me?"
"Excuse me?" the brunette said shocked.
"Cas?" he said ignoring her.
Castiel looked at her and back up to Dean in confusion before nodding.
"Help me up, it was very nice to meet you…Maria, was it?"
"Melissa!" she cried shocked as Dean helped him up secretly smug, Castiel stumbled into his arms and wrapped them around his neck.
"Whoa, you okay?" Dean mumbled to him shocked at the lack of personal space as his blue eyes met his and he smiled widely.
"I like your eyes"
"Thanks…" he muttered and unwound him to wrap his arm around his shoulder.
Jo who was watching the display saw the look in Cas' eyes when he came over to get him, it was shock and delight. Jo had always had a feeling Castiel felt more for Dean then he should and this confirmed her theories.
"Thanks Jo, I'm taking him home" he muttered and ignored her shake of her head.
He pushed Cas gently outside with him as he muttered to himself.
"Thank you"
"What for?" Dean grunted holding his weight.
"For saving me, her mouth tasted like blackberries…I don't like blackberries"
Dean laughed a little and looked to him as he gazed at the stars overhead.
"Okay, give me your keys" he muttered grabbing the keys to his flat and helping him inside.
"Don't leave me" he cried and huffed when Dean covered his mouth.
"Anna is asleep isn't she, shush!" he whispered taking him into his bedroom and placing him on the bed.
"Don't leave me! Please?" he whispered grabbing his jacket and pulling him down towards him.
"Cas, I've got work in the morning" he said grabbing his wrists and pulling them off him gently. Cas' bottom lip pouted out as he sighed and turned over away from him.
"Don't get all pissy with me Cas, you know I have work" he whispered sitting on the bed and turning him back over. "Why do you want me to stay anyway? If you wanted company, you could have had Maria's?"
"It was Melissa! I just do" he mumbled sleepily closing his eyes.
"I'll stay till you go asleep alright?" he muttered stroking the hair off his forehead highly amused by his mumblings.
Castiel smiled a little and eventually dropped off into his deep sleep, Dean stayed for a moment watching him sleep. He looked so innocent and soft in his sleep like he did as a teenager; Dean carefully stroked his hair and sighed to himself.
"What are you doing to me?" he mumbled before getting up and seeing himself out the door.
~0~
"Please tell me you remembered" Lisa said standing in front of him that morning.
"Our anniversary? Nope" he muttered playfully.
"You did! Oh my god!" she cried wrapping her arms around him gleefully.
Dean hugged her back and nodded to himself. "Sit down"
She sat comfortably waiting for him to continue when he suddenly went down on one knee.
"Dean?" she said her face whitening and her pupils going wide when he pulled out a small box.
"2 years ago I met you and look what you've done to me, you've changed me for the better and I don't regret a single moment with you. I want you in my life forever, so will you do me the greatest honour and be my wife?" he said with a big grin.
Lisa sat shell-shocked and grabbed the box off him and opened it screaming in delight.
"Yes! Oh my god! Yes!"
She jumped off the chair and hugged him tight crying happily. "Holy shit!"
He hugged her back and took the ring sliding it on to her finger. "We're engaged"
Lisa wiped her eyes and kissed him fiercely. "I love you!"
"You too"
"I have to tell Anna!" she screamed and ran to the phone excited.
Dean pulled out his phone and dialled his number.
"Cas?"
"Dean…you did it then, Anna is screaming" he muttered.
"Yeah, are you happy for me?"
Castiel who was sat on the couch bit his lip as his heart clenched painfully.
"Of course I am" he muttered thickly and regrettably felt tears spring to his eyes and breathed out agonised.
"You don't sound it"
"I am, of course I am"
Dean turned his back and looked out the window feeling something inside him tell him something was wrong and Castiel was far than happy for him.
"Then why is everything telling me you're not, come on Cas, what is it?"
"Dean, I am happy for you!" he cried angrily.
"Oh yeah sure! Want to shout at me again?" he cried back.
Castiel covered his mouth feeling the tears run down and shook his head. "I have to go"
"Cas, what…"
Castiel hung up the phone and curled up in a ball sobbing to himself. He hated this feeling more than anything in the world and he didn't know why it hurt so much.
Anna saw him and ended her call, she silently came over and picked him up gently, sitting down and wrapping him in her arms.
"Oh Cas" she murmured as he cried into her shoulder.
"I don't want to feel like this anymore Anna, you have to help me, help me get over him" he pleaded.
Anna looked at his broken expression with an agonised heart.
"I wish I could, oh darling, I really do"
He wept into his hands and prayed someone would help him, anyone would remove him from this and the torture he would endure with the wedding plans and then of course, the wedding.
AN: Please review!