Castiel opened his front door and was greeted by a squealing Anna who threw her arms around him.
"I missed you!" she cried hugging him tight.
"Yeah, you too" he gasped out and she let go of him beaming.
"I know I said I was glad to be rid of you but it got so boring! Never leave Castiel"
"I won't" he said laughing lightly and pulled his suitcase in.
"How was it then?"
"Boring, long, and tiring" he muttered flopping down on the couch with a tired sigh.
"Well I'm glad you're back" she cried sitting down next to him.
He smiled and then it faltered a little as he stared away from her.
"Thinking of him?"
"I ended it Anna"
"What? When?"
"4 days ago, we had an argument on the phone and I ended it, we haven't spoken since then and I'm worried"
"Worried?"
"About him, Anna, despite everything he is still my best friend and I still love him, I will always love him"
"He's okay, bit moody lately and now I know why but…go see him then"
"No, it wouldn't help" he whispered.
Anna bit her lip and nodded patting his hand. "I'll go get us some tea, you chill"
"Thank you"
She nodded and walked to the kitchen and considered to herself.
"Am I really about to do this?" she muttered to herself and pulled out her phone and texted Dean.
Cas is back, I am going out in an hour so if you want to see him, then would be a good time Dean. X
She shut her phone and glanced towards him to see him flicking through the channels. Anna made the tea and sat with him before making her excuses and needed shopping, she hoped things would turn out alright.
Dean made his decision as soon as he got her message; he was seeing him no matter what. The past 4 days had been a misery for him and everyone around him with his moods and ignoring everyone.
"I'm going out" he muttered to Lisa who waved her hand in dismal to him.
"Still pissed off with me?"
"Still being an arrogant, moody, dickhead?" she cried back.
"Whatever" he mumbled slamming the door behind him.
He travelled over with determination that he would confront this matter and find out what was going on, he headed up the stairs and banged on his door.
Castiel sighed and knew who it was instantly when he opened it and was pushed aside when he forced himself in.
"So, back now are we?"
"It appears so, come on in" he muttered and slammed the door hard turning around to face him.
"Why didn't you tell me you were back?"
"I didn't have a reason to, I don't know if you re-call but I ended it, Dean"
"Cas! You are my best friend! Yes, I know what's happened but are we really going to cast that aside? Bit harsh to cut me out completely" he shouted angrily.
He sighed and looked away from him. "I don't know how we can be friends again after this, won't it be a little too difficult?"
"Not if we don't make it be or you can just take me back"
"No"
Dean swallowed hard and nodded looking down at his feet.
"Not while you are in a relationship, Dean, I won't do that to her"
"Fine" he muttered and let out a deep breath.
"You know it's wrong, you know what we are doing is wrong to her and well, you choose her"
"I never said that"
"You don't have to! It's speaking volumes here!"
Dean groaned and pressed a hand over his mouth staring at him.
"I do still love her Cas but, it's different, there's you now"
"Not anymore"
Dean scoffed and shook his head at him. "So this is it then? We just going to part ways now are we? Tell people we've just drifted apart, never touch, never talk, never anything" he hissed and watched as he flinched back and looked away with moisture in his eyes.
"What else are we supposed to do?"
"I don't know, try and remain friends? Please?" he pleaded. "Cas, if I can't have you like that then I want you in my life as my friend, I can't lose you, I can't".
He nodded in agreement and swallowed the bile he could feel rising in his throat.
"We'll try then"
"Good" he muttered and looked around the flat.
"So, first things first, how was Chicago?"
"Boring as hell, who knew I.C.T could be boring?" he muttered amused and sat at the table.
"I told you but you never listen! I.C.T is shit"
"It isn't! It depends on the subject" he cried and leaned back glaring at him.
"Oh if looks could kill I would be dead right now" he teased.
"Hilarious"
They caught each other's eye and looked away from each other. Dean was looking around when he noticed something in the living room.
"I tell you what, we haben't played on the game for a while"
"The last time we played I won and you got into a hissy fit"
"I did not! Come on, we are doing this" Dean muttered determined and went into the living room to turn on the TV and game.
"Killing zombies is just what I need" Castiel muttered with a grin and sat down next to him.
"I will win"
~0~
Anna returned to see them playing there game and sighed loudly.
"This stupid game again!"
"Yes" Dean muttered gritting his teeth staring hard at the screen tapping at his controller.
"He's getting moody with me because I am winning"
"You're not!" Dean cried and gently nudged him. "Oh look at that, you got shot"
Castiel stared at the screen and glared at him. "You nudged me!"
"Sore loser, Cas?" he laughed and gasped when he hit him on the arm hard.
"You two are like 5 year olds!" Anna cried going in and dumping her shopping on the table.
Castiel aimed a kick at him as he stood up. "Re-load it and I will win properly this time"
"Not a chance!" he muttered and re-loaded it.
He walked over to Anna who smiled gently at him.
"So?"
"We are trying to be friends again and it's working for now, bit difficult since all I want to do right now is kiss him so hard he'll break" he muttered in despair.
She rubbed his arm gently and rummaged in her bag and handed him chocolate.
"For your poor broken heart"
He laughed lightly and kissed her cheek. "Thank you; you've been my rock through this whole thing"
"I know I was a little harsh before you left and I know you love him but I am glad you've both seen sense and…well it still baffles me he is with her"
"Why do you say that?"
"Cas, you two have slept together, he obviously fancies you and maybe even loves you but what I don't understand is why he is still with her?"
"He said he loves her but it's different"
Anna sighed and shook her head looking over at him. "He is a bit of a puzzle that man"
"Oh I know, believe me"
Castiel returned back to him and snatched up his control and played the game.
Anna leant back against the counter with a little hum watching them both for a good while.
They were talking to each other but leaning unconsciously towards each other also, Castiel as always had the look of adoration and love in his eyes which never disappeared when he looked at him and Dean's was different, it was much more softer now and like he was so precious to him.
She shook her head wondering why she couldn't go over there and knock sense into them, she loved Lisa like a sister but sometimes in life, the one who is meant to be for you and be with you is always in front of you. Dean wasn't meant to be with her, he was meant to be with him.
She left them to it in the living room and went for a bath and an early night. Dean soon turned off the game and they lay back watching TV in silence when Dean's favourite programme came on.
"You love this" Cas muttered looking over to him at his sudden interest.
"Only a little"
"A little? What's the recent storyline?"
"Tasha is sleeping with her half-brother and they don't know that yet! Kerry is also in love with her sister's boyfriend and they kissed…"
Castiel laughed and Dean glared folding his arms over in annoyance.
"Oh you are a soap whore!"
"I am not! It's a guilty pleasure"
"Clearly when you are practically getting all giddy over it" he mumbled amused at him.
"I am going to hit you if you don't shut up right now"
"Oh, why? Am I making you miss it?" he teased and laughed when he covered his mouth with his hand shushing him.
"You are such a pain!" Dean cried and watched with interest as his soap kicked in.
They sat in silence with Castiel glancing over to him now and again amused at his whole façade that he wasn't that interested but was every time he gasped and awed at the screen.
"I will never forget this Dean, never, and I will hold it to you all your life"
"Oh shut up!" he muttered and turned away from him.
Castiel covered his mouth shaking with uncontrollable laughter. "I don't know why it's so amusing"
"Because you are an asshole"
"Oh low blow" he muttered sobering up and leaning against the couch watching him.
"I know, sorry" he muttered and turned to look at him with a slight smile.
Castiel watched him for a long moment before turning back to the TV with a small hidden smile.
~0~
It hit 11pm when Dean started to feel the waves of sleep hit him and looked to see Castiel dozing next to him and leaning against his shoulder.
"Come on, Cas" he muttered wrapping him in his arms and pulling him up, he stumbled a little moaning and Dean had to drag him into the bedroom and lay him on the bed.
Cas rolled towards him and sighed gently in his sleep, Dean watched him for a long moment before moving down and kissing his temple gently.
"Night, Cas"
He stroked down his cheek softly and savoured the feeling of his stubble and the softness of his skin underneath his fingertips. Castiel leaned into his touch and opened one eye to look up at him.
"I don't think this is what friends do" he murmured sleepily.
"Rules are made to be broken" he whispered gently.
"Mmm, if you say so" he muttered and reached up to hold his hand in his own.
"Sleep" Dean chuckled and gently removed his hand from him when Castiel pulled him down and kissed him softly making him gasp into his mouth. He moved closer and kissed him back moaning into it at his taste and scent.
Cas pulled away and closed his eyes dropping off to sleep.
"You'll regret that tomorrow" he murmured amazed and licked his bottom lip quite enjoying it. He knew it wasn't over, it was far from over but the circumstances were different because of his relationship and he knew Castiel wouldn't do it so he had to decide and soon.
Who did he love more: Castiel or Lisa?
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