"I don't like goodbyes" he murmured softly when Dean pushed him backwards towards the bedroom.
"Then let's not make it in to a goodbye, a see you later" he muttered pushing him down on to the bed and kissing him hard.
Castiel reached up for him and held him tight opening his mouth to give him more entry and feeling his tongue sweep into his mouth. He groaned at his taste arching up against his chest wanting more, Dean moved down and took off his clothing quickly so he could reach the skin underneath.
Dean kissed slowly down his chest and moving to his nipple and gently teasing it with his tongue and teeth making him groan and fist his hand into his hair.
"Dean" he gasped out closing his eyes.
Dean shushed him and covered his mouth.
"No words, okay?"
He nodded and watched as Dean removed his clothes till he was fully naked as well and moved up against him, Cas gasping at the friction between them. It felt like the last time as they looked into each other's eyes and explored each other for what could be the last time.
Dean moved to his neck and bit down on it gently enjoying the sound of pleasure coming out of Cas' mouth as he left his mark.
He moved his hands down his chest towards his groin teasing it gently watching him squirm and pant before going to his thighs and parting them.
"No foreplay, just the real thing" he murmured to Cas approval.
Gripping the back of his hair he pulled Cas up towards him and quickly but gently slid inside him making Cas hiss in pain but slowly adjust to him.
His thrusts inside him were slow and languid as he kissed him deeply, their tongues moving softly against each other till the need to be closer and more connected grew and he moved faster and deeper into him. Castiel moaned into his mouth gripping his shoulders tightly and moving his hips up towards him.
Dean reached down to his neglected cock and slid his hand up and down using the sweat between them and his pre-cum for lubricant. He moved his hand with his thrusts into him making him squirm and writhe underneath him till he was panting loudly.
"Dean!" he called out and with a cry he climaxed and orgasmed into his waiting hand and soon followed after with his own climaxed into him. The waves of his orgasm washing over him and making him shudder before resting on top of him and kissing him slowly.
This continued later on into the night with Dean topping, Castiel topping until they were sweaty, messy, completely worn out and sore. It hit 3.30am when Castiel was staring at Dean while he slept; he kissed his mouth gently making him stir.
"We have had 5 rounds of sex, Cas, and I am so tired" he murmured opening his eyes to see amused ones watching him.
"I don't want sex; I need to tell you something"
"What?"
Castiel swallowed hard and looked at him with soft eyes before leaning his forehead against his and smiling sadly.
"I love you, Dean"
His eyes flew open to see sincerity and warmth in Cas' eyes as he watched him.
"Are you confessing your feelings for me?"
"Yes, I think now is the right time"
Dean nodded and kissed his forehead and wrapping his arms around him.
"Tell me when you fell in love with me?" he whispered into his ear.
"7 years ago, It was after we made friends and I felt an attraction to you so deep I didn't even realise what it was until you got with Lisa…I was so jealous of you and her for a good while and then realised I was in love with you" he whispered carding a hand through his hair.
Dean smiled gently at him not knowing what to say.
"I love everything about you, Dean, the way you smile, the way you laugh, how you get so stubborn, how you say my name, everything! You make me fall in love with you over and over again and I will never stop, Dean"
He could feel tears prick in his eyes before moving towards him and kissing him gently, Dean kissing him back fiercely and sighing.
"I wish you hadn't said it now, god sake" he whispered pained.
"It had to be said or I would have regretted it every day that you never knew how I truly felt about you"
"I know that but how can I leave you now, Cas? I can't…" he whispered.
"You can do, you can do anything"
Dean shook his head and swallowed back his emotion, he brought him towards his chest and held onto him tightly breathing in his scent, he smelled of sex, sweat and Dean's aftershave.
"You smell like me" he murmured into his hair.
"Good" he muttered kissing his chest lightly and snuggling closer to him and shutting his eyes for some well needed sleep. Dean laid his cheek on his hair before sighing and going to sleep himself.
~0~
Dean's phone beeped and he woke up startled to see light slowly flooding in the room and Cas on his chest snoring gently. He smiled and kissed his forehead and watched him wrinkle his nose and snuffle gently.
"Baby, wake up" he whispered turning him over so he was hovering over his sleeping figure.
"No" he muttered fighting a smile and it fading as he fell back asleep.
"Castiel" he sung in his ear tickling it with his breath and chuckling when he squirmed and looked up at him.
"You are so evil" he whispered and Dean nodded in approval.
Castiel moaned a little as he sat up at the soreness of his legs and back before straddling Dean's hips and kissing him until they were breathless.
"Morning" he murmured against his mouth making Dean smile underneath him.
"Morning kisses are always the best"
Cas nodded and moved to his neck nipping and biting it gently making Dean tilt his head back with a small moan.
"I know I am a killjoy but I leave in 2 hours for Michigan" he muttered making Castiel pause and nod lightly pulling back to look at him.
"I love you, please, please remember that?"
"I won't forget it and you know how I feel, Cas, even if I don't have the guts to say it baby" he whispered stroking his cheek and looking into his pained eyes.
Dean moved from underneath him needing a shower and kissing him softly before getting up and walking out the room, Anna thankfully was staying at her new boyfriends house much to her delight.
He sighed and curled up in a ball inhaling his pillow gently and closing his eyes, he listened as the water turned on and Dean climbed in. it took 5 minutes for him to start singing his favourite songs loudly making him smile.
How could he live without this? He thought to himself and it hurt him more than he could possibly imagine.
Dean came back 10 minutes later naked and wet to the delight of Cas who eyed him hungrily.
"No bright ideas, I am still sore! You are an animal in bed" he muttered drying himself up.
"You loved it and you know you did, I made you scream" he cried smugly watching Dean raise an eyebrow laughing.
"For a moment! I know you won't let that one go, will you?"
"Never, you look so hot like that…I think I want to see you panting and moaning my name all over again" he whispered huskily making Dean turn away with a small moan at the back of his throat.
"You said I was evil?" he cried throwing his clothes on and moving off to the bed and climbing on top of him making him smirk up at him.
"You are evil when you want to be, Dean"
"Oh I know" he murmured into his ear kissing into the shell, Castiel biting his lip at the friction off cotton on his nipples. Dean moved to his neck moving along it slowly till he find his pulse and sucked on it feeling the vibrations of Cas' low moan underneath him.
His phone buzzed loudly and demanding making them both look at it in worry and realisation. Dean turned to look at him and slowly Castiel looked up at him swallowing hard and letting out a deep breath.
"I guess it's time"
"I don't want to do this, please don't make me say it" Dean whispered clinging to the back of his neck fighting the urge to cry.
"You have to! For your sake and the baby's, Dean" he said closing his eyes.
"I know, I know" he whispered and let go climbing off him picking up his phone and jacket.
"I want you to know that I always choose you, this changes nothing and I will always feel for you, Cas…if it weren't for the baby and my duties, I would be yours" he muttered thickly.
"I know, Dean"
Dean let out a deep breath and moved down tilting his chin up and giving him one last kiss, he slowly licked his bottom lip before pushing his tongue into his mouth expertly and running a hand into his hair scratching his scalp.
Castiel groaned with longing and need into his mouth and clung to him so hard he knew it would hurt.
"See you later" Dean murmured tears in his eyes and stroked along his neck before closing his eyes and moving away from him and out the flat quickly. Tears fell down his face as he walked down the street and didn't care, he just couldn't.
~0~
Dean turned up at the house to see Lisa waiting for him, she sighed and he smiled at her gently.
"Sorry"
"You will be mister, you ready?" she muttered looking up at the house, they would drive to the new house and the men would be moving their collections out and to them in the next few hours.
"Of course I am" he said and squeezed her hand gently.
"You'll see them all the time when we can get to them, it will be okay" she whispered soothingly and he nodded.
Lisa climbed into the passenger seat and sat down waiting for him to get in, Dean looked up at the old house with longing, he loved that house and now it wasn't even his. He climbed into the driver's seat and started her up ready for the long journey, away from Michigan and away from Castiel forever in despair.
Lisa smiled coldly to herself and looked out the window in full control; her plan was so prefect that nothing could go wrong. Could it?
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