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Chapter 4: Lost in Love
"Albert I..." Lacus choked as she held Kira's hand unconsciously. Albert looked at the dark-haired man beside the woman he had loved or thought so. The vision of seeing them embrace each other somehow hurt him. He felt he needed to switch himself- to make everything go smoothly.
Albert moved forward while Kira moved back. Lacus felt him let go of her hand as Albert embraced Lacus tightly. Kira fell speechless, 'is this guy trying to...' Kira thought as he saw him pull her closer in his arms. The most interesting part was that Lacus didn't pull away; she did, after all, break up with him. Why did she ever have a relationship with the guy anyway? Albert is Allan's brother for goodness sake!
Lacus felt that she needed to break away... it wasn't right to stay this way. As she parted from his arms Albert looked at her so lovingly, "What are you doing?" he asked, feeling so unaffected by the presence of the brown-haired man beside her. Lacus paused for a moment then looked back at Kira who was dumbfounded and at the same time... hurt?
"Albert, I'm all right... really," she said, as she moved away from him a bit. Albert noticed her backing away and wondered why, 'the kid must've told her something bad about me again,' Albert thought as he grinned at her slyly which sent shivers down her spine... and it felt so uncomfortable. Lacus turned around again to look at Kira who seemed to have gained "consciousness" from his deep trance. Albert focused his eyes on Kira, wondering so curiously who he is and why he was embracing Lacus.
"I haven't seen you before Mister," Albert said, referring to the handsome man who had just held Lacus minutes ago. Kira swallowed hard, "Ahh... yeah... I'm Kira, Kira Yamato. I'm an old comrade of Lac- I mean Lynette," Kira replied while looking at Lacus with his confused eyes. Albert snorted weakly, "I see, so I guess you have known eachother. Nonetheless, I thought you were someone special," he joked which made Lacus turn her attention to Albert and made Kira flinch a bit. Somehow, both of them were affected. Why did Kira ever hold her anyway?
"Ah... no... Just a friend," Kira quickly blurted, so as to not let him worry- whoever he is in her life. Albert walked nearer to Kira and offered his hand which Kira accepted. "My name is Albert Sanders, brother of her husband who passed away two years ago," he said as he smiled at Kira. Kira doubted at first the look on his face, 'He loves details,' Kira thought as he looked at Lacus again, 'I bet Albert doesn't know who she really is...'
Albert turned his attention to Lacus who was embracing herself. He touched her shoulders and somehow caressed them, "Did I disturb you and your old friend?" he asked imprudently which made Kira flash him an angry look. Lacus could only nod, 'yeah... you really disturbed us!' she thought angrily as Albert caressed her cheek. Knowing what he just did to her made her feel uncomfortable in his touch. Kira turned away his head, not wanting to see their moment. Albert cast her a caring and sincere, yet pathetic, look. She sighed deeply then brushed off his hands gently so as to not offend him. Kira saw this and rolled his eyes, 'why can't she just tell him to fuck off of her life?!' Kira scolded as he lazily looked at Albert telling her something, whispering it to her ear. He felt something squeeze his heartstrings but couldn't tell what it was. Kira moved back a little; he didn't want to hear or disturb their private conversation.
Kira saw him move his face nearer to her as she tried to avoid his gaze, 'why is he so damn annoying?!' Kira thought as he saw him tilt her head and whisper again something. It was annoying him in someway he did not understand. Why was Kira this frustrated- moreover; why was he this jealous? Kira crossed his arms; impatiently waiting for their conversation to be over, 'does that guy even know that they're over?' Kira scolded again in his mind; he wanted to scream it to the guy and tell him to fuck off for good! Lacus forced her head down and pulling herself away from his touch, but Albert wanted her to stay. Kira saw him inching his lips down to her but Lacus pushed him away with a great big "No Albert!" statement.
Albert surprisingly pulled away from her wondering why- confused, "So we really are over?" he asked, anger rising in his heart. Lacus was still standing there, embracing herself as she said, "yes... and please stop doing those things to me!" which made Albert snort. He turned his gaze to the clueless Kira and cast him a you-better-not-touch-my-girl look. Kira returned the gaze with much greater force, 'don't stare at me like that you bastard!' Kira scolded as he couldn't help but grind his teeth in frustration.
"I know you'll come running back to me Lynette; and I'll be waiting for that day..." he mumbled, his voice mixed with an emotion that both Kira and Lacus did not understand... but it meant something bad if that's for sure! Kira snorted at what he said, 'what does the asshole think about Lacus?' Kira thought as he angrily looked at Albert who tried to hold Lacus' face once again; but, like what Kira expected, she brushed his hand away. Albert felt so unwanted and started to blame Kira for this, 'if only that pathetic fool didn't enter the story," Albert evilly thought as he tried once again to embrace her but she moved away.
Once again Kira saw them fighting, somehow Lacus wanted him to just go away. Kira wanted to intervene but it would be improper. He lacked knowledge of what really happened in their past and he hated that idea. He couldn't help her in any way and he hated being so useless. Lacus was now angrily telling Albert to just go away and Albert desperately wanted to stay; Lacus' eyes beginning to be teary. Kira felt uncomfortable as tears begin to flow down her eyes, Albert just said something painful to her but Kira somehow failed to hear it clearly. This was getting way too far!
"Please don't remind me of that anymore Albert!" Lacus pleaded as she bent her face down-crying. Albert grinned; somehow he loved it hurting her from the inside. Albert leaned against her hair, whispering again something. That was it... Kira had the last straw!
Kira breathed deeply as he gathered enough strength.
"Lynette?" Kira called as he touched her shoulder; feeling her cold skin. Albert and Lacus both turned at Kira. She was somehow surprised; finally he had the courage to somehow defend her.
She faced Kira with those teary eyes and it tugged his heartstrings- Kira deeply hated the way she cried. Albert snorted, "Excuse me Mr. Kira, but we were having this conversation," excused Albert, as he grabbed Lacus' left arm; demanding Kira to let her go. Kira felt anger swoop directly into his mind, "I think we were having the conversation first beforeyou just suddenly surprised us with your presence..." Kira emphasized, trying to awaken Albert's conscience- if he ever had one.
Albert smirked, "Well, it seemed like it didn't matter to you when I arrived. Why the sudden change of atmosphere?" Albert raised his brow wile Kira was determined to knock him off this time! Kira looked at Lacus again and smiled at her weakly, telling her that it's going to all right. Kira faced Albert now, "Well, she's crying and I presume it was because of you; wouldn't that change everything?" a small smile escaped his lips when he saw Albert flinching.
He freed Lacus' left arm and bit his lower lip in frustration, "Well, excuse me then..." he faced Lacus and she grew nervous, "I'll see you later Lynette; oh yeah, bring my regards to little Daniel will you," he mumbled as he went his way down the stairs. When he disappeared before their very eyes, Kira sighed in relief. Lacus, on the other hand, faced Kira with those teary eyes.
"Thanks..." she whispered as the breeze past by them. Kira smiled back, not knowing what to reply to her thank you but a simple, "you're welcome," line.
Kira led her to the garden bench as they sat there watching the moon.
"I couldn't stand seeing you like that," Kira spoke, trying to break the silence that was now upon them. Lacus sighed, "He always just comes out of nowhere. I'm sorry if he ever disturbed us in anyway..." she apologized as she found herself being caught in Kira's eyes.
She missed that time when she was in his arms; everything was just so problematic and very dramatic. Her life now was just like the soap operas she watched in TV. A hopeless woman finds herself in the arms of a stranger... then falls in love.
Pathetic don't you think; but everything was going the way it was supposed to be.
"It was kind of dramatic if you picture it out. If someone had caught it on tape then it would look like a TV series," Kira joked which made Lacus giggle, it was what she was thinking too.
"Why was he hurting you Lacus?" Kira asked curiously, worriedly looking at Lacus. Lacus smiled weakly then stood up; her elbows resting on the cold, strong and firm railing. "I don't really know... he just always has this technique to make me cry- all the time," she replied sadly as Kira stood up and joined her.
"Honestly telling you Lacus, I've never seen you cry so easily..." Kira managed to blurt out weakly. Lacus looked at him and somehow agreed; "Change is the only constant thing in this world, Kira" her voice was trailed off by the breeze. Kira doubted it, "There are some things that are meant to change; there are some things that are meant to be changed and there are some things that changed but then they come back just so suddenly..." Kira mumbled out which made her wonder. Since when did he learn all of this stuff?
"So you're saying that..." he cut her off.
"I'm saying that people don't change, they are just influenced by time, hatred, love and many other intangible things in life," Kira looked at the twinkling stars above then looked Lacus.
"Then they do change. Are you trying to confuse me Kira?" she playfully asked him. She was a bit confuse though, what he said was too deep for her to understand.
"They just go with time... that's all," his voice trying to cheer up the atmosphere. She noticed his desire to make her happy so she laughed; but weakly. "It's okay Kira, I'm fine now really," she assured. She faced him so that she would be able to convince him that his presence is enough.
To her surprise Kira embraced her again; his hands ran temptingly down her back and sent shivers to her spine. Yet it felt so comfortable and so good. She buried her face on his muscular chest and began to cry silently; her sobs filling his heart and reaching out to his soul. As a friend, he failed her. Now that they've seen eachother again, he can't afford to fail her anymore. He wanted to really protect her this time- he wanted to protect his friend.
"Lacus, can I ask you something?" he felt Lacus nod in the embrace.
"Why doesn't Daniel call you mom or mother?" his question made her froze and she felt cold again inside. He noticed the sudden change in her body temperature and so pulled her closer.
"It started when I had a relationship with Albert. He stops calling me mom ever since then, he still obeys me though and he still is open to me. Yet even so, I felt like a lost him when he stopped calling me mom..." she cried as she huddled closer to Kira; in attempts to just feel his warmth. Kira was moved, his heart pushing him to the ultimate level. Somehow he felt so responsible- why would he? Somehow he felt that he wanted to help her regain her son back to her- yet why would he do that? Why was he so affected and why was he this concerned?
These questions made him doubt the situation but when he felt her hot breath against his skin, everything seemed to change. She needed help all right and not from a person who would just fool her later on. She needed advises but not from a person who would juts take advantage of her. Right now, she was so gullible. Nonetheless, he always found some uses to her gullible attitude. Funny to even think about it but I guess it made her that way- the Lacus Clyne that everyone knew. There would be no other person who could accept everyone that way she did; and that quality brought them together- somehow.
"Well, I can see that Daniel still cares for you...and he still obeys you. The gap has not yet grown serious. You can still get him back!" Kira cheered while trying to make her smile. Lacus nodded though she knew it would never end out that way. It's been a year since Daniel stopped calling her mom and it would only be a miracle if he just suddenly did!
"Daniel just can't get over his father's death. It will soon pass out... I promise you that," Kira assured and he didn't know he could promise such a thing to a single mother!
"Why did you ever have a relationship with that asshole?" Kira angrily asked. Lacus flinched, 'he's right... why did I ever have a relationship with Albert?' Lacus flinched and somehow Kira made her regret again- she hated it. She sighed deeply, "I don't know... I was lost during those days," she replied and Kira buried his face on her hair, smelling in her sweet scent.
"The only person I found was him and he told me..." she paused as the tears began to flow.
'He told you he loved you,' Kira thought.
"He told me he cared; he told me a... lot of things and so I foolishly believed him!!" she cried, as she melted into his strong arms. Kira was taken back... 'So I foolishly believed him!!' repeated in his mind like a bell being rung a million times. He recalled those times with Fllay and how he foolishly believed her and all her lies and assurances. Yet you can't blame lovers... that's how lost they are in the game called love.
Even so, Kira felt her words stab right through his heart. If only he was there to comfort her. Nah... He would never make her that happy. "Daniel is the only one I've got now... and I don't know what to do without him," she whispered. She surely loved her son that much though Daniel doesn't call her mom or mother. What can he say; the call of a child is always heard by a mother.
Lacus pulled away from his embrace slowly, trying to feel him. He looked at her with that faint expression on his face. "I think we better head back... Daniel might be looking fro you," Kira grabbed her had and they returned back.
WITH DANIEL
Daniel playfully threw haro up and down in amusement, "Grandpa... who gave this to Lynette?" Daniel asked, referring to the pink ball that he had been playing with, "I've always asked Lynette about this but she wouldn't answer me... was it dad?" he continued as Haro playfully jumped to his head and to the ground. Andy grinned, "No... It wasn't your father. An old friend gave your mother that toy when she was still a young girl..." replied Andy as he tried to picture out the person who gave her haro. In attempts to remember his face he sighed, "I couldn't picture his face on my mind anymore..." mumbled Andy. The years had gone by so fast that Andy forgot all of his old war comrades. Not actually forget but he couldn't picture them anymore- too bad for him.
Daniel rested his head again on the wall and sighed, "Was Lynette really worried when I ran off?" Daniel asked worriedly. He didn't mean to run off. He wanted ask permission but Lacus was asleep so he just acted on his own. Andy grinned, "Yup! Your mom was dead worried about you, you silly brat!" replied Andy playfully, trying to bring about Daniel's conscience. Hey, he's 8 years old and turning puberty- you can't blame him right?
"I just wanted to go to dad's favorite place... that's all..." Daniel said, trying to find excuses. He didn't want her mother to worry that much, he loved her; she is after all his mother for goodness sake! Andy stood up and played with the boy's hair, "Your mom's going to be all right... everything going to return back to normal now kid..." whispered Andy as he smiled sweetly at his grandson.
WITH KIRA AND LACUS
They went inside the elevator and then silence again.
As they reached Daniels room Kira hesitated to follow which made her wonder, "Kira... you could at least take a rest. I'll explain to Daniel who you really are..." Lacus insisted. Kira shook his head, "Maybe... today is not the right time. Don't worry, I'll just be sitting here... well... on the benches, that is..." he nervously said which made Lacus giggle a bit.
Kira smiled and, as if possessed, embraced her tightly in his arms. She felt discomfort at first but then accepted the feeling and the sensation. She took in his scent and her eyes were beginning to be teary.
"I won't leave... I can't leave you like this," he whispered so softly that it grabbed her heartstrings.
"You can stay with us- with Athrun and the others. I don't wanna leave you like this..." he whispered, tears now running down his eyes. He wasn't used to seeing her like this... no.
Cagalli gave up, "Oh well; since you do wanna leave then I'll just tell my brother tonight. Are you sure you're not saying goodbye to him?" with hopes of making her stay until tonight so that Kira could stop her.
"Why didn't she tell me she was leaving?"
They cried silently as memories begin to invade their being. He wanted to help her and that help starts now.
Lacus broke away from the embrace while blushing. When he saw this he blushed too. Somehow it was so embarrassing to embrace a married woman. Lacus went inside the room while Kira sat outside the bench- waiting.
"Lynette! You're back!" Daniel screamed happily. Lacus smiled, "yeah... I'm back. How is my handsome son doing?" she playfully asked. Daniel smiled, "I'm okay Lynette; really okay!" he assured.
Lacus went near her son and embraced him tightly. Kira was right, Daniel still does love her. Daniel broke away from the embrace and grinned, "So... who was that brown-haired man anyway?" he asked curiously. Lacus paused for a moment then breathed deeply, "He was an old friend of mine. You have nothing to worry... we don't have a thing," she assured then kissed her son on the cheek.
"I hope your telling the truth Lynette because he looks really handsome; more handsome that Uncle Albert!" exclaimed Daniel. Lacus was taken back for a moment but then she just laughed.
"Why are you laughing Lynette?" Daniel asked, raising his brow. Lacus just shook her head, "Nothing... Daniel, do you want to se the man who saved you earlier?"
Daniel paused for a moment the pouted, "Oh... well if I really need to tell him a thank you then... okay!" he cheerfully said. Lacus often wondered why her son was like this. Daniel always had different attitudes that it almost surprised his own mother! You never expect children to have different personalities but Daniel is different.
Lacus opened the door and peeked outside as she saw a certain brunette resting his head on the wall. She closed the door and went outside which surprised Kira.
"Kira... Daniel wants to see you," Lacus said as Kira cast her a confused look.
"Huh, what changed his mind so soon?" he asked. "Daniel is a kind boy but when it comes to... you know what... he totally jerks out!" replied Lacus who let Kira inside the hospital room.
When Kira went inside the room he saw Daniel crossing his arms and casting him a what-the-hell-are-you-doing-here- look. Kira somehow admitted that he was scared at Daniel's face but damn, he's just a kid for goodness sake!
"Hi..." Kira managed to blurt. Daniel snorted, "Lynette, I thought you said you were going to bring in the guy who saved me and not this jerk!" exclaimed Daniel, who rudely pouted at Kira. Kira was surprised but then kids are always like this.
"Daniel, he is the guy who saved you... his name is Kira, Kira Yamato." Explained Lacus as he looked at Kira differently than what Daniel had expected. Lacus went near Daniel bedside along with Kira.
"Daniel, say you thank you to MR. Kira..." Daniel hesitated for a while but when he looked at Kira who was smiling at him, he felt a sudden urge to just thank him.
Kira offered his hand to the young boy, in wait for his response. To Lacus' surprise Daniel accepted his gesture! Kira smiled and then played with boy's hair, he then realized how cute the boy was.
"Yeah, yeah whatever!" said Daniel as Kira played with his hair. "You got a nice son here Lacus..." Kira said cheerfully. Daniel looked at him confused, "Why are you calling her Lacus?" he asked curiously. Kira and Lacus fell silent for a while then Daniel asked the question again.
"Ah...erm...well... it's your moms nickname!" blurted Kira. Lacus forced back a laugh that made Kira blush. Daniel faced her mother, "Is that true Lynette?" he asked. Lacus nodded in order to end the subject.
'She never must've told her son about who she really is...' Kira thought as he saw Daniel playing with Lacus' haro. Then, a question escaped Daniels mind.
"Mr. Kira, if you and Lynette were old friends then who gave her this pink ball; the name please," Daniel quickly asked. Kira smiled at his curiosity. Lacus should give him history treatment about who she really is.
"Well, an old friend of ours named Athrun Zala gave it to your mom," replied Kira reluctantly as he sat on his bedside with Lacus in front of him.
"Really; well then what happened to that friend?" Daniel asked again. "He's in ORB; probably married to my sister..."
Lacus gasped in surprise, "They are!" she exclaimed happily. Kira nodded. Daniel just looked at them.
"Since when?" she asked again.
"8 years ago. I think their son is about Daniel's age. His name Nathaniel," Kira grinned. Daniel was still looking at them and the way they would stare at eachother, kind of funny in his opinion.
"Oh... they're really listening to me all right!" Daniel said ironically, thus breaking the connection between Kira and Lacus.
"Ah... sorry Daniel... what was your question again?" Kira mumbled as he looked at Lacus who was blushing- the atmosphere seemed to have changed. Minutes ago she was crying like there's no tomorrow... now, they look like... a family?
"Nothing, just forget about it. Oh yeah... you can leave now..." Daniel rudely said. Kira was taken back, 'this child surely knows how to test men...' Kira thought. Lacus looked at Daniel in surprise but then she sighed, telling Kira to just obey what Daniel had asked of him to do. Kira stood up along with Lacus as they smiled at eachother once again.
"Well, I really need to go now," Kira said, wishing that he could stay just a bit longer to just simply talk to her. Lacus nodded and accompanied him outside the door.
"So I guess this is goodbye," he whispered, his voice a bit sad and faint. For some reason she didn't want him to go away; and for some reason he didn't want to go away. What if they will never see eachother again? What if this will just be the last of their meetings? What if Kira will never fulfill his promises to her... again?!
Kira sighed heavily then turned his back to her as he walked away. He saw her leave and somehow it hurt her. She groaned, feeling the pain of seeing Kira go away so quickly.
Kira wanted to stop and to just stay by her side- he needed to make it up to her. He failed her as a friend and so he can't fail her now but reality just sucks! The hell he cared about reality!
As he entered the elevator Lacus placed her fist on her chest, feeling the beating of her heart as Kira disappeared before her very eyes. Maybe they will see eachother again... maybe.
End
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