I'm sick, so this isn't my best. I'm already at work at Chapter 12 - which has lots of wedding plans! Hope you enjoy this chapter. Comment if I should keep going
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Chapter 11: Making Decisions
Rachel had finished her Ohio State application and was sitting in the living room, just flipping through wedding magazines. Ever since Finn's proposal, all she'd thought about was making the wedding absolutely perfect. Kurt had even more wedding magazines, if possible, and had already told Rachel about at least twenty dresses he thought would be perfect for her. She was talking with the girls about what would be a good color for the bridesmaid's dresses. She and Kurt were trying to pick some of the songs from the Glee club's set lists from their competitions to perform at the wedding.
This semester Rachel was taking five classes at the local community college. She was sure that Lima would be VERY lonely. She'd lived here her whole life, but for the past three years, she'd had friends to hang out with constantly. Mr. Schue wanted her to help out with the Glee club for Regionals and Nationals (Nationals were in Los Angeles this year).
Today she had the flu, so it's not like she could do much of anything. The glee kids were planning to go skiing today. This day trip had been planned months ago, but naturally Rachel couldn't go now even if she was healthy. So many physical activities were now limited because of her back. Today would be a lonely, boring day, but once she got better, she still might get to hang out with people before they went back to school.
Rachel sighed and took out one of her mom's magazines. It's not like there was anything better to do.
"Rachel?" Rachel looked up to see her mom. "You've got a visitor."
Finn came into Rachel's bedroom, dressed in jeans, a flannel plaid shirt and a down vest, with flakes of snow in his thick brown hair. He was carrying a bag of - well, something. Rachel thought he looked so cute, but it probably wasn't a good idea to be here when she was sick.
"Finn," Rachel croaked. "I don't want you to get sick."
Finn smiled and took Rachel's hand. "It's worth it. I came to take care of you."
"I thought everyone was going skiing today," Rachel said.
Finn shook his head. "I couldn't leave you here alone." He knelt next to Rachel's bed and gave her a kiss. "I brought you something."
Rachel croaked, "What?"
Finn smiled and handed Rachel a coffee mug with a gold star and "FINCHEL" on it. "I picked this up for you on the way here."
"Do you HAVE to spoil me?" Rachel asked.
"I'm your fiancee, that's my job," Finn said. "I stopped at Wal Mart on the way here and had a custom cup made for you."
Rachel smiled and croaked. "You're the best fiancee ever. I can't wait to get married."
Finn smiled. "Neither can I. Hey, after we get married, do you want to stay here or move to New York?"
Rachel sighed. "That's what I've been thinking about. I mean, when Kurt and I sang on the Broadway stage, it was so amazing, but I can't bear the thought of losing you to Broadway."
"Who's to say you can't have both?" Finn asked.
"I don't know," Rachel said. "I felt torn for so long and that made me think I can't have both."
"I think I know what to do," Finn said.
"What?" Rachel asked.
"Get out your karaoke machine," Finn said. "You and I are going to sing together. Songs that I think are perfect for both scenarios. Both of which come from Broadway shows."
"But Finn!" Rachel gasped. "I haven't sang since my attack." She couldn't believe she'd gone that long without singing. She remembered the days when she'd post a video of herself singing on myspace every day.
"Don't worry, I'll be singing with you," Finn said with a wink. "For the first song at least. This I think is the perfect song for this situation."
"I've missed our duets," Rachel said. "Let's do this."
Finn turned on the karaoke machine as the music began.
Finn: Once I was a selfish fool
Who never understood
I never looked inside myself
Though on the outside, I looked good!
Then we met and you made me
The man I am today
Rachel, I'm in love with you
No matter what you say
'Cause...
Both: Without love
Finn: Life is like the seasons with no summer
Both: Without love
Finn: Life is rock 'n' roll without a drummer
Rachel, I'll be yours forever
'Cause I never wanna be
Without love
Tracy, never set me free
No, I ain't lyin'
Never set me free, Rachel
No, no, no!
Both: 'Cause without love
Rachel: Life is like a beat that you can't follow
Both: Without love
Rachel: Life is Doris Day at the Apollo
Both: Darling, I'll be yours forever
'Cause I never wanna be
Without love
Finn: So darling, never set me free
No!
Rachel: I'm yours forever
Never set me free
Both: No, no, no!
Finn: If I'm left without my baby doll
I don't know what I'll do
Rachel: Finn, I've got to break out
So that I can get my hands on you
Finn: And girl, if I can't touch you
Now I'm gonna lose control
Rachel: You're my t-rex knight
I've found my Jewish soul
Finn: Rach, I wanna kiss ya!
Rachel: Let me out at the next toll!
Both: Without love
Finn: Life is like a prom
that won't invite us
Both: Without love
Finn: Life's getting my big break
and laryngitis
Both: Without love
Rachel: Life's a '45'
when you can't buy it
Both: Without love
Rachel: Life is like my mother
on a diet
Both: Like a week that's only Mondays
Only ice cream, never sundaes
Like a circle with no center
Like a door marked "do not enter!"
DARLING, I'LL BE YOURS FOREVER
'Cause I never wanna be...
Without love
Finn: Yes now you've captured me
Without love
Rachel: I surrender happily
Both: Without love
No, no, no
No, I dont wanna live without
Love, love, love
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Darling, you had best believe me,
Never leave me
without love!
"Well?" Finn asked.
Rachel smiled. "I love singing with you."
Finn smiled back. "I love singing with you too. Now try singing by yourself and see if it has the same effect. I picked out the perfect song for this too."
As Rachel listened to the opening chords of the song, she recognized it. This was the song her mother sang on the tape that revealed her identity to her.
Rachel: I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted
But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
As they turn your dream to shame
And still I dream you'll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather
Both: I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed.
As she sang the "And still I dream you'll come to me" verse, Rachel had to grip Finn's hand. She got what he meant by this. Some dreams would leave you alone. And her Broadway dream was one of those. Finn had joined Rachel for the last verse and when they finished she threw her arms around him.
"Thank you Finn. I get it. I don't want to live without love. Be dreaming of you. My place isn't on Broadway alone. It's with you. All I want is to be with you. Be it on Broadway or here. I love you!"
Finn gave Rachel a hug. "I love you, too!"
