Ianto in a coma
All characters belong to RTD and the BBC, if I owned them then Ianto would still be alive and made immortal.
Rating: M/M kissing and major swearing … well its Torchwood isn't it
Spoilers: Slight for series one
Normal text is Ianto's thoughts, Jack's thoughts are in italics, and Owen's are in bold.
Chapter Four – Alone with Ianto
When Owen came out of the med bay, shaking his head, I felt my whole world crumble around me. No, please, not him, not Ianto, anyone but him. Owen then told me that although he couldn't run any more tests today, he would come back tomorrow and see what he could do then. As he left, I ran to Ianto's still, unconscious form, and started speaking to him.
"Ianto, I know you can't hear me, but I think I can only say things like this whilst you can't hear me. I don't think I will ever have the confidence to be able to say it to your face. I…have feelings for you, Ianto. Feelings so strong. I can't deny them anymore. I…I love you, Ianto." There. I've said it. I've said the one thing I have wanted to say for so long. Too long. Taking a deep breath, I continued. "God, Ianto. I'm so sorry. It's my fault that you are in this state, and if you don't wake up soon, or if Owen can't find a cure, I swear to God I will put myself through so much fucking misery… Earlier, in my office, I thought…I thought that it was finally going to happen, that I was finally going to get to kiss you…and then I didn't. "
"And now you might die thinking that I hate you because of what happened with…Lisa. Believe me, Ianto, if anything, it just made me love you even more. And then, when you needed me…God, I know I shouldn't have felt those things when you looked for my comfort as a friend…but you still thought I hated you. I would have shot anyone else Ianto, but I couldn't shoot you. I think that was when I realised how strong my feelings were. I would kill myself a million times over to be in your place right now, I'd do anything. Please, just wake up, I need you. You are the only person I can trust completely right now." Exhausted from my emotions, I took Ianto's still warm hand, drawing hope from it, and fell asleep by his bedside...