It's been a week since my last entry.
Things have been... Okay.
Yusei's been helping me in the flower shop. He's only broken two vases. It was no big deal but it upset him. He seems to be very emotional.
He also becomes exhausted easily so he's had to just sit or lay down periodically. A few times I had to carry him home. I really don't mind. But one time when I was carrying him he apologized for being useless.
I told him he wasn't useless but he remained silent the whole way home.
I'm a little worried he might soon become depressed. As much as his unnatural cheerfulness worries me, depression will be so much worse.
Yesterday night Yusei had a nightmare so he crawled into bed with me, and now he refuses to sleep in his own bed. I don't mind that either. In fact, Yusei and I used to go out in Team Satisfaction.
I guess I still have feelings for him, and according to Jack, Yusei still loves me too, which is why he was throwing tantrums about me.
And now we'll be together... Til the end. But I really don't want to think about that right now.
I lost Yusei once.
I died twice.
I know what's it's like.
The first time it was horrible, because I thought everyone had abandoned me. Dying lonely is the worst.
But the second time, I was in Yusei arms, and he was begging me to stay, to be with him again. I died peacefully, and it didn't hurt at all.
That's why I know how important it is for us to be together when the time comes. Because then it won't hurt.
I'm not really sure what happens after you die. Because I was a Dark Signer, I was stuck in the gateway between life and death. But I'm guessing wherever Yusei goes it will be nice and beautiful and everything he would want. Because that's what he deserves.
I think I should stop now before I loose control of my emotions. I have to stay strong. For Yusei.