28th November, 1918
The school has ended. I'm walking home with Kate, Abby and Ziva. We heard that the war has started, but people have been saying that for days. I don't know what to believe.
"What are you doing tonight ?" Kate asks.
"Suppose I'll be having dinner with Dad and then probably start to die in boredom," I say.
"Oh, Jen. I was thinking that we should go out tonight. We haven't done that in awhile," Abby proposes.
I roll my eyes.
"Great. We should let boys know too," Ziva adds.
Silence
"Awesome," I say.
"What's awesome ?" a male voice asks behind us.
I turn around to see boys there – Jethro, Tony and Tim are rushing towards us. We stop. Boys reach us and we stand in a circle on the sidewalk of a street. Across us is a building, that is now destroyed. This is war.
"Have you heard ?" Tony asks.
"Heard what ?" I shoot back.
"The war has begun. Russian army came to Narva. Our boys are fighting against them, but we have much less men," Tim says. He seems serious, so this must be it. The war has begun again. Dad must go again. But it's alright, he hasn't been here much.
"Who's winning ?" Ziva asks.
"It just started Ziva," Tim says.
Silence.
Just as there hasn't been enough wars on the soil on our home, now we have yet another war. The only difference is that this is the second war, when Estonians are one of the participants. This is our war, I know it, but I don't like the idea of death.
"Are you going to fight too ?" I ask.
I don't get a solid reply – all I get is a multiple weak mumbles saying that they don't know. They are still young, too young to die and going to war means that they won't come back. The enemy is too great and has much better weapons. I do have faith in us, but before all fools go to war, they should think. Since the mobilization wasn't a success, we are counting on the volunteer. That's what I know.
We start walking again. The mood is killed, mine has at least.
"Hey, let's meet at the town square at 7 pm," Jethro says.
We all mumble in agreement and continue walking. The town square in the center of the city, near it is the Stone bridge across river Emajõgi and then Uni main building, but at this moment, the uni is not working, multiple wars and change of power does that.
"See you then," I say and turn left. My home is there, others go straight until they go in different ways one by one.